lower end of sinusoidal part2

First time after so long time, blowfish feel so down. blowfish swim to the lower end of the sinusoidal again.
What happen blowfish???

Blowfish bang a lorry on sunday, the car door is penyek :(
the stupid lorry park at the road entrance, blowfish not aware enuf on the distance and here we go Bang!
At first blowfish still tot blowfish just hit the rubber part of the lorry but haiz actually the rubber part that blowfish tot is metal =.="""
Deep in blowfish heart @#$%^!!! STUPID LORRY
Blowfish is going to pokai this month, go shop in KL, pay insurance almost all salary gone d. Now bang lorry somor issss......
since the car still can drive just ignore the ugly door la :-p wait until next month.
Sorry my little poor car ruined your handsome appearance. Please forgive your master.

Monday normal is a good start for the week but too bad today blowfish did one bad thing. Blowfish accidently hit a doggy which try to cross the road. Blowfish did slow down the car, hope the dog can run fast enuf. However blowfish car is speeding during that time (80km/j) by the time the doggy cross half way blowfish just hit the doggy. ouch!!!! blowfish was in trauma hard stop the car nearly hit tiang at roadside. When look back from side mirror, there is nothing on the road not sure doggy able to run away but blowfish really think blowfish hit the doggy. Deep in heart blowfish really feel sorry for the doggy, blowfish really wish blowfish is the one who get injured and not the doggy. Blowfish really scare of the feeling where by u owe ppl something that forever un-returnable.
Pray for the doggy is the only thing blowfish can do for it.
SORRY doggy, if there is chance to flash back blowfish will select hit the tiang or go into other side rather then hit u.
Hope doggy can die peacefully and lead a good life. SORRY
SORRY really help anything??? Guess NO, this just let blowfish less guilty feel.
Think blowfish to change to vegetarian since blowfish really cause so many innocent life(doggy+kitty) dies like tat :(

Today is just simply not blowfish day, when first open the mailbox, lotsa issue come in most of it is Xfile. Really catch no ball why it happen, till now still feel confuse. Hai how to solve it la!!! Suddenly feel extremely tension, extremely down, extremely guilty,extremely.......
A lot of feeling coming in
In conclusion blowfish feel uncertain about many2 thing.........

Blowfish hope that she will find the strenght to continue on......
Like she always do.....
Let pray for her.....