What i can do??? Cont'

Past one week blowfish feel down as feel scare of lost her best friend and feel stress with work and also ppl in US. Suddenly blowfish EQ drop to 0% doesnt want to talk with ppl just want to hide herself in somewhere there is nobody there. Sigh gal tend to have this kind of moody time.... and yes blowfish is one of them.

After hormone back to normal level, think back all the incident really feel that blowfish over react......For unagi case, actually he trying to give advice how to improve the presentation but blowfish take it negatively. Unagi just want blowfish appreciate the chance that blowfish have however blowfish take it as unagi say blowfish presentation very worse but that not the case unagi just want blowfish spend more time to make thing 100% perfect. Haiz when moody time heart tend to close up and doesnt not listen to ppl. End up blowfish start think all those not related topic like unagi angry with her la, unagi no more friend with her la. Now think back really feel sorry to unagi. Luckily he always patient with all blowfish mood and never really take this seriously. Blowfish feel so lucky to have him as friend who always help and giving blowfish advice. And yes blowfish doesnt lost this best friend.
New interpretation for best friend: a friend who always there for u, always listen to u, always support u no matter what(eventhough we sometime diff opinion)....

Yesterday blowfish lost her temper again cox of small matter.....
Story:
Blowfish follow group of 5 going to outlet last month and we agree to divide the petrol however the driver doesnt want to count it as he say it only small $$$ so we never bother about it. Until this week we plan to go outlet again he actually say that blowfish must go and must drive blowfish car and blowfish agree on this and comment that can give out car but she don want drive as not familiar with the route. However this plan being ding dong x2. So blowfish assume that this plan is not working. End up by 10sth of that night another gal ping blowfish say that organizer is expect blowfish go outlet tomorrow and bla... bla... bla.... a lot of story there which sound like organizer say that blowfish take advantage of him last time tis time must pay back. Blowfish listen to all this word and get piss off as blowfish already say she willingly let out the car why organizer still say until blowfish don want to take turn? Somor if organizer expect blowfish to drive he should communicate it to blowfish write cannot just assume right? Blowfish really feel confuse why business trip ppl earn less $$$ not calculative but opposite relo earn more $$$ and ppl become more calculative???
Start feel confuse for this easy matter.
Talk to unagi blowfish get some input and realize that blowfish too fast jump to conclusion and always listen to what ppl say.
Talk to miss tour guide, her opinion make blowfish feel comfort and no more confuse.

Thanks all for being patient to blowfish and help her fight her moody week :D

I wish....

While walking at Alamo(san antonio) last2 weekend, we see one wishing well there. Blowfish amazed by the over 100years tree.
Why amazed? This tree being move from somewhere to Alamo(cant remember from where =p don expect lazy fish to remember everything la =p) and if not mistaken it being move to Alamo by 1941. This tree being move as the originator want to prove to ppl that this can be done thus i think this tree might older than 100years. It branch really heavy and need to use thing to support it. Feel amazed as this tree have such long live even after change environment, weather....
Guess this is the spirit that we must learn from this tree to withstand all the life challenges.

There is a well next to the tree. However this well being closed d for what reason blowfish not sure. Seeing a lot coin down the well, surely blowfish don want miss the chance to make a wish.
What blowfish wish???
Certainly blowfish cant tell u all else if it cannot be realized how wo???
If u all willing to help her realized the dream than blowfish will happily share it with u :D
Dont worry blowfish dream is something easily can be achieved :D

Miss Independent

When u see this title what u will think of???

Miss have >1 meaning =p

Miss = Cik, 小姐，tang ke chi

Miss =kenang, 想，(not sure the term in indian =p)

So Blowfish u try to talk about the Miss independent or "Miss" independent?

Previously before go travel blowfish receive a Tshirt from friend and on the Tshirt printed Miss independent without think blowfish straight think the meaning is miss(想）Independent. For those wondering how the Tshirt don worry for sure blowfish wont let u keep wondering....

Once again blowfish so fast make conclusion without think any futher. Until one day blowfish watching singing contest and listen a song call "miss independent" only blowfish get to think miss independent also can means gal who is independent.

Too fast jump to conclusion will end up cant make a proper judgement. Beside that blowfish easily listen to ppl word and without massage the level of truth of the word and jump to conclusion haiz....... Most thing no right or wrong just different ppl different opinion and different thing that they particular. Think blowfish just need to learn not take thing too serious and make thing easy =D.

Blowfish really think she must change this always see thing from 360degree and more nasional when making judgement. Less talk think more.

US life is tuff as blowfish is all alone that why start to have emotional time + sensitive feeling however i do hope blowfish can swim thru all this and become a better person.

Lesson of the day

Since blowfish travel to US always feel stress, uneasy........
Why???
Before travel......
Feel worry to work with US ppl as from previous product have bad experience with them. Still remember that time blowfish still new to this area and feel afraid as know nothing luckily blowfish have other counterpart that is quite helpful and help blowfish build up the skill. For this new product blowfish need to work with same group of US ppl =.= feel worry as last time they really good in taichi just don care everything. The highest record blowfish work in floor from 5AM till 7PM......
Scary....

Reach US......
First few week in US blowfish like go thru honeymoon as blowfish just need to read thru all document familiar with the product with the US people work on the pattern part. However this sweet time pass very fast, after they up two of the pattern they straight throw all thing to blowfish and PG division =.= and they give reason for us to learn. Blowfish agree this the fastest way learning + grow depend how u handle this pressure. Blowfish successfully up one of the pattern and now moving to another one. However blowfish doesnt have luck on this new pattern and the due date is next tuesday =.= Start to feel pressure while don know what else she can do......

During today meeting.........(lesson of the day)
Manager start asking about the progress, due to PG division is busy handling hardware setup with module folks end up he actually request the US division do the pattern and without realize he make a statement kind of say that Us division doesnt share detail in front management......
Sweat***
The US division come and lecture him and tie blowfish in. In actual US division have put the file there just PG division not aware end up miscommunication happen causing this gap.
As conclusion: Dont simply say out a word that might sound like accuse ppl else can really can ruin thing.

U jump i jump

Last weekend blowfish follow her friend go to a river side next to her apartment. We plan to go there picnic and some of friend even plan to play water there. But due to blowfish having allergy so blowfish doesnt plan for that.

While preparing food blowfish counterpart is there with a large pizza. Aiks pizza one of blowfish favourite eventhough blowfish always having stomach problem after eat it but when counterpart offer without think blowfish grab one and eat happily :p (blowfish just a tam ciak fish la :p).

After get everyone gather, we start moving to our desire destination. In order to get a better spot for picnic event, we need to walk around 1hours ++ go to upstream. Due to morning time, blowfish go gym for 35mins so leg really feel abit no energy somor need to walk under hot sun......
Luckily after 1hours 30mins we reach the spot that is quite nice. Nice in sense of water is clear, full of rock nice spot for picnic, less ppl provide a peaceful place for those ppl like us who doesnt plan to jump into the river. Peaceful in sense of sitting there closing your eye listen to the rythm of flowing water, feel the water flow by leg. Suddenly feel very relax. Due to some of the gang is lazy to go further so when we find this nice place we need to walk back 30mins to find them and bring them to this nice place. Blowfish and colleagues wife just sit there while their husband go bring the other half ppl to join for picnic.
Wait and wait ........
1hour pass. Blowfish start to feel boring, eye start to feel sore, stomach start to hungry, start to feel sleepy, start to worry is it they lost somewhere. At last the gang reach there and all of us start our lunch. Some of them cant wait to jump into the water, blowfish only can sit there see ppl playing around with her tired body. Thus blowfish find a place to lie down and try to have some rest as blowfish feel like going to have running nose+ eye sore really feel sick.

Suddenly one colleagues challenge blowfish, why rest there if blowfish jump to the river he will jump too. A bet on "i jump u jump" happen. Don know why without thinking blowfish straight jump into the river with her track suit and the left the guy in shock and he no choice and need to jump into the water (guess sure he get scold by wife after that :p)

Since get wet d, so just enjoy herself there but the water is really cold. Really hope can go home faster and rest but due to blowfish don want turn ppl down blowfish just soak in water and her eye is get better :D.

Around 5PM time to go home, YEAH........
The bad part is no towel, no cloth for change, need to walk 1hours ++ in this wet + heavy cloth in order to get into car =.=
A crazy day but don ask blowfish why as blowfish never think about it just jump that why blowfish colleague is say that blowfish is type of fish that do thing without think =p kind of correct. Is it good or bad ??? depend if do without thinking for those risky thing guess blowfish can die faster than usual =p for small thing guess no harm kua.

What i can do???

Suddenly feel like want to swim to a sea that doesnt have any other fish in there only have blowfish there. Today blowfish really piss off her best friend MR unagi. BLowfish know that unagi trying to help her editing her presentation but blowfish just show no mood when he explain to blowfish. End up piss him off.

Yes blowfish know it blowfish fault. But now blowfish more like blaming herself why never appreciate the opportunity she have. When morning time unagi told her what to change she spend whole afternoon thinking how to enhance the slide but yet blowfish really nothing much to talk on the presentation trying hard to squize something in feel stress, feel worse, feel down, feel doubt is it blowfish really want to submit this for unagi review sure will end up being say no effort again but if write something that blowfish don know later on stage blowfish will facing problem........
Struggle whole day end up decide just submit.

Waiting Unagi to online but scare to ping him scare he will say the presentation is worse and as per expected, the presentation is not meeting the requirement and unagi is calling blowfish to give her explanation. blowfish suddenly no mood and just say OK OK for all unagi comment and all this piss off unagi. Blowfish know it blowfish fault as unagi earn nothing helping blowfish edit yet still need to deal with blowfish no mood tone.

According to blowfish division, blowfish is fish that not good in detail, always might miss out some important point and blowfish agree. Blowfish always like to move fast end up will find error here and there and end up busy here and there fixing the shit create by ownself. Like in today presentation not the blowfish doenst check just blowfish miss detail again.......
When unagi point out blowfish heart say "ops" but don want to agree that it blowfish fault =.= blowfish tot blowfish already change but seem like blowfish still remain.

Yes now blowfish feel scare whether she will lost her best friend or not yet blowfish feel scare to IM him. Don know what to do.........