4th day in folsom

Date:8DEC2008
Time:6AM

Today PS woke up early as yesterday PS sleep at 8PM :-p
First thing to do after wake up sure is open music (POR process :-p) then start chatting with malaysia friend.
Go gym at 6.45AM for 20min : ) sound healthy right hik hik hangat2 tahi ayam aje :-p
After that go for a breakfast and start travel to intel around 8sth as PS never go to FM5 abit afraid PS will late for meeting pattern division.
PS is punctual person always on time ; )
Reach pattern division cube by 8.45AM but he still not around think he still on his way to come office.
PS pattern division is very nice guy. He never use car just use bicycle to work and heard ppl said that he never watch tv just reading newspaper. PS really wondering how he look like :-p
At last at 9.30AM he come to meet PS and start the sharing with PS.

So happy today PS can learn a lot new stuff but in a way PS feel stress as some stuff PS still not yet familiar when think about boss expectation PS start to feel worried : (
Suppose back to hotel PS tell herself to start look at pattern and start work on it but hai once reach room she start chatting till now : ( sound so hopeless :-p aiks

Today don know why PS feel abit sad, is it becox of the weather here whole day no sunlight full with mist or her hormon level go to low side.
Guess PS really afraid being lonely as whenever she alone she will start miss somebody.....
Is somebody there living happily? Will he think of PS?
aiks cannot continue like this else PS will repeat the sad cycle again.
later if PS best friend read this sure PS will kena marah :-p

Comment from PS best friend he like to read PS share about thought than story about the sightseeing :-p but PS just a simple gal not really have a lot of thought what PS share is just what PS experience in life. Still remember Miss tour guide told PS it good for PS experience the big wave during young so that PS can learn how to stand up after fall down.
PS never worry about fall down in life as from there we can gain a lot experience and let our thinking go to next level.

Recently PS really feel worried that PS will lost what PS have today as previously whenever PS life go to upper side of sinusoidal wave PS will lost sth think PS really impacted by the weather di aiks PS need more sun to enlight PS day. PS keep telling herself that if that thing belong to u it will never leave u and if it not really belong to u then some how u will lost it. so don need bother so much else will make life harder : ) just enjoy every moment of life.
Should not mix past tense with present tense to make life happier : ) PS still learning this
Gambatte PS : )