Sick

Blowfish been to US for one month d, quite like US life everything is so easy + conveniet. As usual if blowfish too free, blowfish start to feel stress. Blowfish have lots of work however don know why blowfish just doesnt have mood to work or to move :( really hate this state. One voice in blowfish heart start to question blowfish and try to push her further.

After being push by heart blowfish start to force herself to list down a to do list at least can follow the list and clear all task one by one. The more blowfish listed down the more headache blowfish get :S.

1. Blowfish miss out a lot of detail such as check apartment when move in and report all the damage stuff, sigh blowfish doesnt do that and see several thing not in good condition crossing finger the apartment ppl is considered and wont simply charge blowfish.

2. US ppl required ppl who on relo like blowfish to submit all neccessary document for taxation purpose however till now blowfish doesnt receive any mail from them and from what blowfish understand from friend there is a long list to do. sigh what blowfish can do le other than waiting the person response on blowfish taxation status.

3. At work area, everything is good just blowfish not really like spend whole day reading document without any hands on. End up blowfish read and read, read and read, mood also getting down and down :S start worry for nothing. Worry for the product schedule, worry about future, worry about what next =.= gal really like wondering and end up in deep shit mode.

See gal really cannot let them too free till trigger them wondering end up sick.......
Sigh only one word blowfish can say about herself is padan muka :-p

Guess blowfish start to feel down is due to blowfish feel that herself always no stand always afraid that ppl will angry with blowfish end up choose to be follower and doesnt dare to raise the question in her mind. Unless that person really piss off blowfish else blowfish will keep quiet and follow what ppl say. Sigh trying to improve this but yet blowfish scare blowfish will make ppl angry so guess better stay alone happier.

Emotional day.....
Maybe cox blowfish start to miss her parent, start to miss malaysia, start to miss her far2 friend who know her well at least in front of them blowfish can be herself.
But life is about facing all thing alone right? Ppl can give opinion yet we the one make the choice.
After today, tomorrow will be better.