对不起

我时常在想人的一生到低会讲几次的对不起.
小时候, 我们总是很容易得到家人的体谅因为他们知道那是无心之过 : )
这是纯纯的“对不起”

我还记得小时候很喜看到家人为我担心因为心里总是觉得被喝护,心总是温暖的 : )
当然家人会被我气到,然而很多时候看着他女儿可爱的笑容, 气就忽然消失
这是——“对不起”的快乐

不知你们是否有和我相同经验在犯错误后向爸妈认错然后认真的实现诺言.
原来——“对不起”也是一种承诺

随着时间流逝, 渐渐的我们不在有小时候的勇气认错.就算认错也不一定出自真心只不过是为了不在争吵
原来——“对不起”，只是个敷衍的方式。

有人说“对不起”也可以是种结束。
当感情要结束时,只能说对不起吗? 而对方该说什么呢? 只好说没关系祝福你.

每个人在自己的生命里头，一定会遇到自己真正想珍惜的人。请你好好的珍惜那人，不是每一句的对不起，都可以换来每一句的没关系.

once upon time.......childhood

Just now PS chat with friend via MSN there was request for PS to share about PS childhood.
Thinking what PS need to share..........

PS is the youngest daughter in the house. PS only have one brother and he is staying with grandma thus all the time PS is alone in the house nobody play with PS : (
Think PS parent afraid PS feel boring thus whenever PS request to buy toy sure PS get wat PS want : )

Still remember PS favourite game is hang a baby gal in buaiyan and shake her till she sleep :-p and also cooking : ) then ask parent eat all the stuff PS cook(fake one la but still fun u know :-p)
Every weekend PS will go to grandma house, that the fun time where PS can play with all PS cousin + brother : )
We always make all the setting in house get messy : ) as we play war game need to hide somewhere.
Really think children have good imagination :-p
During holiday time, brother will come home and he will bring me to run around the paddy field to catch fighter fish ppl call sio pak hu then fight with other ppl : )
Every time go to the paddy field PS feel so scare cox a lot ppl say that there got G****T only head flying. eeeee scary ......... cox PS having a lot of nightmare again this is wat we call imagination lo :-p

After PS start enter primary school, PS spend a lot time sitting there start imagination process think that why till now PS still like day dreaming :-p

PS still remember that during primary school time PS really worry that nobody want to be friend with PS. PS willing do anything to get friend with ppl end up always sad and feel worry that PS will do something wrong and nobody will be there for PS.
Time go by PS realize that this is not the way to maintain friendship. Friendship is not about u need to always follow what ppl want, always please ppl but friendship is about interaction between 2 ppl treat each other with heart : )

Really miss those old days where there is no worry about work, money and life just need to eat, play and sleep, no expectation at all :-p

Weekly updates : )

Many thing happen last 2week PS is too lazy to update it here :-p but don worry PS wont stop writing down all the story that happen around PS so that one day in future PS still can view back all the story and have a good laugh on it : ) this is the motivation keep PS writing blog.

Last week PS lost her lovely handphone (sony W580i) aiks :'(
Many ppl ask how this happen and PS will have one standard answer for that "Please don ask about this as PS also don know how it happen the phone just drop" :-p
As usual la this is response from BIG PRAWN HEAD aiks
What happen la keep on lost thing if continue like this PS will need to declare pokai :-p
For those that worry PS will feel sad, don worry PS not sad just wondering how it happen :-p if last time PS lost thing PS will spend time feel sad, feel regret but think when human getting old they learn from past experience. No matter how we feel sad or regret we still cant change the fact thus why waste time in feel sad + regret better go find solution for it right : )
During weekend PS already get new handphone samsung L760 : ) why PS buy this model ???
bcox it really cheap and PS think PS just need a phone to make a call and SMS thus din look for any high end phone : )
After trying the new phone PS still think old phone is better : )
End up being scold by best friend as he know wat PS really means........(u know wat PS mean here :-p??)

PS think PS wallet is getting flat. Need to buy new handphone, need to pay all credit card fees(PS being charge RM50 per credit card by bank when PS close the card during wallet lost).
About the credit card charge PS extremely angry with them as previously they never notify PS that if close card and get replacement card there is additional charge. After PS call and verify they say they will only wave this RM50 if PS provide the police report @#%%^ aiks why they never tell early PS already throw the report la. Buta2 need to pay extra money to the bank isss. PS left no choice but go police station and get a copy of the report to save PS flat wallet :-p luckily this time PS meet a policewoman which consider kind(although she look like very ganas + garang) help PS print the report. Yeah PS can save up to RM100 using this piece of paper(what a stupid bank system :-p)

Past few day PS think of some idea and decide to present to boss but seem like boss not really agree and question PS whether PS can handle or not feel so sad cox ppl doubt about PS. hmm seem like PS need to put more extra effort on this : )
PS use to believe everything is fate and feel that PS doesnt have the strength to fight it but PS know this not the correct mindset : )
The correct way is to put effort if at then end we still din get the result we hope to see also nevermine cox we already try our best : )

PS, remember to always guide yourself toward positive force : )
Never give up
Jia you

Weekend in Kulim

Since PS work in Kulim, PS very rare stay at Kulim during weekend.
u know why ????
As Kulim is such a boring place to spend weekend with most important is in KM PS are alone thus every friday PS will travel back hometown : ) spend weekend with parent.

What PS do during weekend??
Answer is lepak ing :-p watch movie to kill the time nothing much la some time talk with mom and become little daughther in front mom let her pamper PS : )
Nowdays PS help cousin tuition on Science subject : ) he is very good student always listen to PS : )
Very happy can become teacher. Become teacher is PS dream when PS grow old. Maybe now can start practice d. Hope PS really able to help cousin catch up the subject. But nowdays the eductation system not really good already 3month they still stuck at first chapter wondering how they gonna finish all the chapter by using this progress.

Normally PS will only driving back Kulim on monday but due to PS need to attend colleagues wedding thus PS come back Kulim by sunday. Dont know why once PS reach KM PS immediately feel lonely really hate stay at Kulim during weekend or holiday. Tomorrow is public holiday some more : ( luckily PS already date with miss tour guide go out shopping : )

Although today is holiday but still PS cant sleep late think PS body already being program to wake up ~7AM hai.......
Wake up so early, all friend is still sleeping what can PS do????
PS blogging la :-p
Just found out that PS left phone charget in hometown, die la this week no phone for PS : ( (cry..)

Last weekend PS just finish watching singapore movie (little nyonya). This movie is nice but the ending is quite sad the gal cannot be together with the one she love. From the story PS see not everyone is lucky can be together with their loves one as love is not just about 2 person it also involve many factor such as environment, family,rasional....
In the movie the heroin grow old and flashing back all the memory.......
PS think probably the heroin is suffer cox unable be together with the hero but life goes on.....
when u review back probably it just left memory nothing more......
What is the summary PS
PS din have any summary just feel that maybe now we think the thing very important for us but when u grow old and review back the incident or the feeling u will just smile at it only thus why dont take thing easy : )

Meet Miss+MR Weird

PS who is Miss + MR weird???
Answer only one they are PS housemate. This couple really make PS piss off.

What they do that make PS temp rise from room temp to 100C???

Using streamxy for month but never take care of the bills(PS not at malaysia for month thus it not PS responsibility to take care streamxy right?) when PS send mail politely ask them to clear the bills what PS get just email from the Miss weird bf(MR weird) say PLEASE DO NOT DISTURB them.

PS feel that this fellow really irresponsible, they the only one use streamxy but never clear the bills but still not feel shame to send such a rude mail to PS. PS just try to clear all the thing before her landlord back to malaysia as PS feel that it our responsibility to take a good care of ppl thing : ) agree right???
Temp rise from room temp to 100C at this time PS really feel that PS have a lot good friend there to support PS help PS replying this rude mail : ) PS are not alone : )
Thanks all for let PS borrow your ear and eye listening PS complain TQTQ

Beside that this couple really not hygenic using all the kitchen equipment leave unwashed for month. whole kitchen is full with their stuff. At last they come and throw all the pot, rice cooker last weekend : ) hope they will move out soon then world will peaceful again : )

Yesterday when PS back home time found out that got ppl enter PS room, toilet left unflush very dirty. PS very sure there is ppl enter PS room, wondering is who??? just found out that high possibility that MR weird enter PS room use PS toilet but never wash @$$%##@ super duper piss off. why this guy never respect ppl privacy how can a guy enter a gal room use her toilet without notifying the owner @#$%#$%

If u ever meet this two person then just wish u good luck make sure u don have high blood pressure else....... :-p

Night full with wonder............

Time for bed but some how PS try very hard to sleep still...........
Thus don want wasting effort trying force myself to sleep better just wake up and relax by listening to music.
Why PS having insomia???
PS also wondering probably cox tonight weather is abit cold till PS mind still active at this hour.

Today PS have done a lot stuff for eg issue new ATM Card after PS lost wallet, checking phone line and bills status in maxis.
Why checking phone bills??
PS suspect ppl stole PS line cox PS phone bills suddenly go very high last month thus plan to terminate or change the line to prepaid to avoid any further issue but too bad the operator notify PS that only the main line can help to change the service provider for subline : ( die la PS main line is the person who ask PS stop disturbing him anymore previously : ( PS feel super heavy to contact him probably cox PS don want to disturb ppl live any further : ) good intention but let ownself suffer :-p but no choice la PS still write a simple mail asking his help to terminate the line for PS so that PS can get back this line and change the service provider.

After send out mail PS so worry receive mail that will put " DO NOT DISTURB ME ANYMORE" :-p but PS doesnt receive any this kind mail only receive mail to invite PS to talk via google talk : )
After sign in google talk, conversation start........
Simple conversation but PS still feel happy cox he promise to help PS on this : )
Although PS have a lot more thing to ask but PS keep all the question in heart as answer not important anymore : ) just hope he is live happily : )
Today lesson is do not share anything with ppl else when break time sure will face a lot hard time :-p
Story End..............

Another funny thing happen today, PS aunty try to match making PS with a guy from hometown PS never agree or disagree on this :-p , PS doesnt old till need match making right :-p PS think la and joking say " silap hari bulan the guy they want to introduce is my boss :-p". So coincidence today PS find out the guy they want to introduce really is PS boss oh my gosh :-p luckily PS never agree at first place else now sure paiseh don know how to face PS boss :-p but PS boss still don know that his father arrange this for him :-p
What a small world all people still link together at the end........

A lot more thing happen today PS doesnt share here just keep it somewhere call heart : )

meaningful message from ppl blog

Happen to read ppl blog who have same opinion like what PS have. Feel so happy : )

The blog give PS some idea....
In Love, it is better to know and be disappointed than not to know and always wonder
All the while PS will thinking why this happen? WHY!WHY!WHY!
Is it cox PS too stubborn don want to let go or..... unknown :-p
When thing become Xfiles, anyways u treat it, it become a thorn in your heart : (

Love is when you shed a tear and still want him; it's when he ignores you and you still love him; it's when he loves another girl but you still smile and say "I'm happy for you"; when all you really do is cry
This is another sentence from that blog, PS don believe it call love but PS have done all she mention in that sentences......

Last week PS heard bad news about him, his company close down.
PS keep on wondering how is him now thus send him a simple mail to show concern. Deep in heart PS know as usual there will be no response :-p but still send la don know cox kepo or concern :-p

Next day PS receive reply from him guess what he said? :-p
End up he just say please do not email him anymore as he already got new GF.

argh........
First thing PS feel is why so rude??? ppl just trying to send regards
PS not email him to get him back or have any more imagination to be together wtih him back think he just think too much :-p
p/s although PS do think whether we can be together la but follow rasional anyone also know cannot la :-p

so what u think PS should do????
As grow up or so call mature ppl sure need to reply ppl mail politely la :-p
So PS write a simple mail to deliver simple message........
Just congrat him and wishing him happiness think this is wat PS can do for him : )

so what next????
Time to Move On. A real move on.
Last time always say let go la, move on la, forget la end up still repeatly tot still got hope :-p
So PS still need to say Thanks to him for totally helping PS eliminate all the imgaination : )