dream seeker

偶尔

2010-05-23T18:06:00.000-07:00

偶尔好想什么都不做就这样的浪费时间。

偶尔好想跟着心里所想的迈进奈何习惯跟随别人脚步的我时常违背心中想法背道而行，尽量满足别人的要求但心就越来越觉得不快乐。

偶尔好想不管别人会怎样想，随心所欲的忠于自己奈何习惯自我压抑的我，还是没能忠于自我。

偶尔好想侧下所有的责任好好的休息享受当小女人被人呵护，独立的背后是孤单不是吗？？？

偶尔好想放下一切到处流浪体会不同的地方风情但这一切需要好多的勇气而这我正好缺少的。

偶尔好想把自己大骂一场为何经过了这些年来还没学会放下，还是为了小事计较还是不明白妥协的道理，不明白坚持会造成的不快，不明白以和为贵，做人该圆滑些，随便些，因为不是每件事都只有黑与白的存在，别忘了灰色地带的存在。

偶尔好想为自己筹谋些什么但胸无大志的我真的想破了头皮还想不出我该做些什么让自己更好，习惯性把一切交给命运。无言呀！！！

偶尔好想让自己的生活更有规划拼命地为自己安排满满的行程让自己透不过气来太闲就爱胡思乱想，太忙又觉得无法呼吸，原来学会找平衡点也是一种学问，而我还在寻找着那平衡点。

偶尔好想向前走探搜但害怕受伤害的我时常让所有的情节在思绪里泛滥也不向前踏步，让一切止于天马行空。

偶尔好想叛逆一下体会一下不再管世事的眼光。但原来叛逆了我还是不开心因为我不懂那里才是我的终点。叛逆只是为了发泄内心的不忿，发泄后还是没法走出框框。

偶尔好想找一个没人的地方住下来但世上真的还有世外桃源吗？若有的话我有真的能那么幸运找到吗？

偶尔好想去揭开未来到底是怎么样的，迷信的我偶尔也会去求求签了解了解未来。得到好的签就开始怀疑真的吗？我有这样幸运吗？得到坏的签就开始悲观起来。人呀就是种矛盾的动物嘛！！！当然不包跨你在内了啦放心 =p

对对我懂你想说什么，我就是闲着没事做在这儿胡说八道。 7小时等飞机真的是很折磨哦。

Long or Short

2010-05-11T20:53:00.000-07:00

It been two years blowfish never cut short her hair. Blowfish is have keep long hair since small and she only cut short her hair twice in her life time =p one time during Uni time and another one is back to 2007.

Why blowfish never cut short hair???

Since small all cousin having long hair and mom will help us tie our hair nicely. Still can remember all the style that mom help blowfish tie =p due to mom tie hair skill is not that good so by standard 6 blowfish start to tie herself =p (don laugh when u see standard6, due to blowfish have a thick hair really hard to tie it =p, u know la little gal ma don expect too much)

Ever since blowfish know how to tie hair she really like to learn how to tie new hairstyle follow the movie she watch =p don ask why as blowfish simply have interest in that. So blowfish keep a long2 hair until waist and can play around design hairstyle that blowfish like. Blowfish like those old fashion hair like in han dinasti =p due to this interest abit abnormal so normally blowfish only tie at home for sake of fun.

Blowfish never think of cut short her hair until uni time, she really get bored with her long hair. After taking long assessment + accumulate courage she go to cut short hair.

Why long assessment???
As u know blowfish have a round2 face really scare that short hair will show ppl the weakness(round2 face). However really boring with long hair + hair drop end up blowfish close her eye sit there and let the guy cut her hair.

End result = acceptable but yet everybody comment that short hair really show that blowfish have moon shape face =.= end up blowfish swear that in her lifetime wont cut short her hair anymore =p

Keep her hair for 1years ++ to get long, in order to make sure she wont get bored with her long hair so she perm her hair. At end of uni time blowfish din dare to simply tie her hair anymore really shy2 as a lot of ppl know blowfish due to this =.= and yes until now they still can remember blowfish due to her hairstyle.

First year in Uni, this hairstyle make ppl remember blowfish till now......

Start2 working, perm her hair to get a mature look =p guess more convincing ppl rather than tie hair right =p

Still remember that blowfish swear wont cut short hair anymore and here we go, she cut her hair short again due to boring la, hair loss la, want to try new thing la and bla.... bla.... bla....

Yaya Blowfish know blowfish is kind of fish like always change her thinking time to time =p

Tadaaa... Short hair version. Actually blowfish like this hairstyle but too many ppl comment say not nice and here we go blowfish keep back long hair. Change from straight hair to curl hair and now maintain.

Think it more like a cycle for blowfish. Cycle: Long -> straight -> Tie -> perm -> short feed back loop =p Now blowfish have perm her hair guess u all know what blowfish will do next =D

happy mother day

2010-05-09T07:03:00.000-07:00

Happy mother day everyone.....
This year blowfish unable to celebrate mother's day with mom, guess sure mom boring there cox all her son and daughter is far2. Last time whenever mother's day POR blowfish will buy a cake for mom and buy a present for her secretly eventhough every year do the same guess secretly still means some surprise right??? =p hopefully. Blowfish heart feel full when see mom smiling when blowfish show her the surprise.

Blowfish think a celebration on mother's day is not really important as everything is more like a commercial thing. The most important is how u treat your mom and take care her in daily life. Blowfish feel sorry as blowfish is too far to take care mom and only can call tell mom that blowfish is very happy here everything is great to make mom less worry(eventhough blowfish know mom will still feel worry about her little gal that far2 away).

Each time call mom will start with:"how are u there? how your work stress or not? how your skin allergy ok or not" this routine wont change. Guess mom know blowfish well she know blowfish easily get stress, easily lost patient thus she worry her little gal in US not happy. Blowfish know all that thus blowfish try not to complain anything in front of mom just say everything is good, work like honeymoon, always travel everything is convenient.

Blowfish feel bad as well as unable to take care parents for half year. Normally blowfish will go home everyweek and accompany parent. Even just stay at home but yet i think that more than enough right. Old ppl just hope to see their children all around even children whole day watching movie =p. Every weekend blowfish will bring them out for dinner and shop grocery all this become routine. Now blowfish away for so long guess they sure cant get used to it. But no choice in order to earn more $$$ really need to sacrify abit.

Before blowfish fly to US, blowfish see mom hand pain cox of too dry yet she still do all the housework. Blowfish just ask to use mosturizer. When blowfish in US and hand get too dry and pain yet still need to do all the housework blowfish suddenly feel that actually all mom really sacrify a lot for family. In order to make sure the house is comfortable mom work from morning to night, in order to make sure her children not starve (especially for someone who have stomach wind)mom prepare food >3times a day and need to consider all the junk food for the children as well, in order to make sure children have a tidy look especially for those sensitive skin like blowfish mom will wash all the cloth till white and shine, in order to make her child skin recover faster every morning prepare a fresh orange juice for her and many many more.
Suddenly feel like crying.......
Yes blowfish miss her mom and her home. Really need to say thanks to mom who take care blowfish without feel tired and blowfish would like to say sorry as always make mom worry.
Blowfish love u mom however blowfish is typical gal who too shy to show her love. Blowfish just try her best to make sure her mom happy.

What i can do??? Cont'

2010-05-08T21:55:00.000-07:00

Past one week blowfish feel down as feel scare of lost her best friend and feel stress with work and also ppl in US. Suddenly blowfish EQ drop to 0% doesnt want to talk with ppl just want to hide herself in somewhere there is nobody there. Sigh gal tend to have this kind of moody time.... and yes blowfish is one of them.

After hormone back to normal level, think back all the incident really feel that blowfish over react......For unagi case, actually he trying to give advice how to improve the presentation but blowfish take it negatively. Unagi just want blowfish appreciate the chance that blowfish have however blowfish take it as unagi say blowfish presentation very worse but that not the case unagi just want blowfish spend more time to make thing 100% perfect. Haiz when moody time heart tend to close up and doesnt not listen to ppl. End up blowfish start think all those not related topic like unagi angry with her la, unagi no more friend with her la. Now think back really feel sorry to unagi. Luckily he always patient with all blowfish mood and never really take this seriously. Blowfish feel so lucky to have him as friend who always help and giving blowfish advice. And yes blowfish doesnt lost this best friend.
New interpretation for best friend: a friend who always there for u, always listen to u, always support u no matter what(eventhough we sometime diff opinion)....

Yesterday blowfish lost her temper again cox of small matter.....
Story:
Blowfish follow group of 5 going to outlet last month and we agree to divide the petrol however the driver doesnt want to count it as he say it only small $$$ so we never bother about it. Until this week we plan to go outlet again he actually say that blowfish must go and must drive blowfish car and blowfish agree on this and comment that can give out car but she don want drive as not familiar with the route. However this plan being ding dong x2. So blowfish assume that this plan is not working. End up by 10sth of that night another gal ping blowfish say that organizer is expect blowfish go outlet tomorrow and bla... bla... bla.... a lot of story there which sound like organizer say that blowfish take advantage of him last time tis time must pay back. Blowfish listen to all this word and get piss off as blowfish already say she willingly let out the car why organizer still say until blowfish don want to take turn? Somor if organizer expect blowfish to drive he should communicate it to blowfish write cannot just assume right? Blowfish really feel confuse why business trip ppl earn less $$$ not calculative but opposite relo earn more $$$ and ppl become more calculative???
Start feel confuse for this easy matter.
Talk to unagi blowfish get some input and realize that blowfish too fast jump to conclusion and always listen to what ppl say.
Talk to miss tour guide, her opinion make blowfish feel comfort and no more confuse.

Thanks all for being patient to blowfish and help her fight her moody week :D

I wish....

2010-05-08T20:53:00.000-07:00

While walking at Alamo(san antonio) last2 weekend, we see one wishing well there. Blowfish amazed by the over 100years tree.
Why amazed? This tree being move from somewhere to Alamo(cant remember from where =p don expect lazy fish to remember everything la =p) and if not mistaken it being move to Alamo by 1941. This tree being move as the originator want to prove to ppl that this can be done thus i think this tree might older than 100years. It branch really heavy and need to use thing to support it. Feel amazed as this tree have such long live even after change environment, weather....
Guess this is the spirit that we must learn from this tree to withstand all the life challenges.

There is a well next to the tree. However this well being closed d for what reason blowfish not sure. Seeing a lot coin down the well, surely blowfish don want miss the chance to make a wish.
What blowfish wish???
Certainly blowfish cant tell u all else if it cannot be realized how wo???
If u all willing to help her realized the dream than blowfish will happily share it with u :D
Dont worry blowfish dream is something easily can be achieved :D

Miss Independent

2010-05-07T21:28:00.000-07:00

When u see this title what u will think of???

Miss have >1 meaning =p

Miss = Cik, 小姐，tang ke chi

Miss =kenang, 想，(not sure the term in indian =p)

So Blowfish u try to talk about the Miss independent or "Miss" independent?

Previously before go travel blowfish receive a Tshirt from friend and on the Tshirt printed Miss independent without think blowfish straight think the meaning is miss(想）Independent. For those wondering how the Tshirt don worry for sure blowfish wont let u keep wondering....

Once again blowfish so fast make conclusion without think any futher. Until one day blowfish watching singing contest and listen a song call "miss independent" only blowfish get to think miss independent also can means gal who is independent.

Too fast jump to conclusion will end up cant make a proper judgement. Beside that blowfish easily listen to ppl word and without massage the level of truth of the word and jump to conclusion haiz....... Most thing no right or wrong just different ppl different opinion and different thing that they particular. Think blowfish just need to learn not take thing too serious and make thing easy =D.

Blowfish really think she must change this always see thing from 360degree and more nasional when making judgement. Less talk think more.

US life is tuff as blowfish is all alone that why start to have emotional time + sensitive feeling however i do hope blowfish can swim thru all this and become a better person.

Lesson of the day

2010-05-06T17:28:00.000-07:00

Since blowfish travel to US always feel stress, uneasy........
Why???
Before travel......
Feel worry to work with US ppl as from previous product have bad experience with them. Still remember that time blowfish still new to this area and feel afraid as know nothing luckily blowfish have other counterpart that is quite helpful and help blowfish build up the skill. For this new product blowfish need to work with same group of US ppl =.= feel worry as last time they really good in taichi just don care everything. The highest record blowfish work in floor from 5AM till 7PM......
Scary....

Reach US......
First few week in US blowfish like go thru honeymoon as blowfish just need to read thru all document familiar with the product with the US people work on the pattern part. However this sweet time pass very fast, after they up two of the pattern they straight throw all thing to blowfish and PG division =.= and they give reason for us to learn. Blowfish agree this the fastest way learning + grow depend how u handle this pressure. Blowfish successfully up one of the pattern and now moving to another one. However blowfish doesnt have luck on this new pattern and the due date is next tuesday =.= Start to feel pressure while don know what else she can do......

During today meeting.........(lesson of the day)
Manager start asking about the progress, due to PG division is busy handling hardware setup with module folks end up he actually request the US division do the pattern and without realize he make a statement kind of say that Us division doesnt share detail in front management......
Sweat***
The US division come and lecture him and tie blowfish in. In actual US division have put the file there just PG division not aware end up miscommunication happen causing this gap.
As conclusion: Dont simply say out a word that might sound like accuse ppl else can really can ruin thing.

U jump i jump

2010-05-05T18:25:00.000-07:00

Last weekend blowfish follow her friend go to a river side next to her apartment. We plan to go there picnic and some of friend even plan to play water there. But due to blowfish having allergy so blowfish doesnt plan for that.

While preparing food blowfish counterpart is there with a large pizza. Aiks pizza one of blowfish favourite eventhough blowfish always having stomach problem after eat it but when counterpart offer without think blowfish grab one and eat happily :p (blowfish just a tam ciak fish la :p).

After get everyone gather, we start moving to our desire destination. In order to get a better spot for picnic event, we need to walk around 1hours ++ go to upstream. Due to morning time, blowfish go gym for 35mins so leg really feel abit no energy somor need to walk under hot sun......
Luckily after 1hours 30mins we reach the spot that is quite nice. Nice in sense of water is clear, full of rock nice spot for picnic, less ppl provide a peaceful place for those ppl like us who doesnt plan to jump into the river. Peaceful in sense of sitting there closing your eye listen to the rythm of flowing water, feel the water flow by leg. Suddenly feel very relax. Due to some of the gang is lazy to go further so when we find this nice place we need to walk back 30mins to find them and bring them to this nice place. Blowfish and colleagues wife just sit there while their husband go bring the other half ppl to join for picnic.
Wait and wait ........
1hour pass. Blowfish start to feel boring, eye start to feel sore, stomach start to hungry, start to feel sleepy, start to worry is it they lost somewhere. At last the gang reach there and all of us start our lunch. Some of them cant wait to jump into the water, blowfish only can sit there see ppl playing around with her tired body. Thus blowfish find a place to lie down and try to have some rest as blowfish feel like going to have running nose+ eye sore really feel sick.

Suddenly one colleagues challenge blowfish, why rest there if blowfish jump to the river he will jump too. A bet on "i jump u jump" happen. Don know why without thinking blowfish straight jump into the river with her track suit and the left the guy in shock and he no choice and need to jump into the water (guess sure he get scold by wife after that :p)

Since get wet d, so just enjoy herself there but the water is really cold. Really hope can go home faster and rest but due to blowfish don want turn ppl down blowfish just soak in water and her eye is get better :D.

Around 5PM time to go home, YEAH........
The bad part is no towel, no cloth for change, need to walk 1hours ++ in this wet + heavy cloth in order to get into car =.=
A crazy day but don ask blowfish why as blowfish never think about it just jump that why blowfish colleague is say that blowfish is type of fish that do thing without think =p kind of correct. Is it good or bad ??? depend if do without thinking for those risky thing guess blowfish can die faster than usual =p for small thing guess no harm kua.

What i can do???

2010-05-03T19:18:00.001-07:00

Suddenly feel like want to swim to a sea that doesnt have any other fish in there only have blowfish there. Today blowfish really piss off her best friend MR unagi. BLowfish know that unagi trying to help her editing her presentation but blowfish just show no mood when he explain to blowfish. End up piss him off.

Yes blowfish know it blowfish fault. But now blowfish more like blaming herself why never appreciate the opportunity she have. When morning time unagi told her what to change she spend whole afternoon thinking how to enhance the slide but yet blowfish really nothing much to talk on the presentation trying hard to squize something in feel stress, feel worse, feel down, feel doubt is it blowfish really want to submit this for unagi review sure will end up being say no effort again but if write something that blowfish don know later on stage blowfish will facing problem........
Struggle whole day end up decide just submit.

Waiting Unagi to online but scare to ping him scare he will say the presentation is worse and as per expected, the presentation is not meeting the requirement and unagi is calling blowfish to give her explanation. blowfish suddenly no mood and just say OK OK for all unagi comment and all this piss off unagi. Blowfish know it blowfish fault as unagi earn nothing helping blowfish edit yet still need to deal with blowfish no mood tone.

According to blowfish division, blowfish is fish that not good in detail, always might miss out some important point and blowfish agree. Blowfish always like to move fast end up will find error here and there and end up busy here and there fixing the shit create by ownself. Like in today presentation not the blowfish doenst check just blowfish miss detail again.......
When unagi point out blowfish heart say "ops" but don want to agree that it blowfish fault =.= blowfish tot blowfish already change but seem like blowfish still remain.

Yes now blowfish feel scare whether she will lost her best friend or not yet blowfish feel scare to IM him. Don know what to do.........

When Happiness = 100%

2010-04-27T19:29:00.000-07:00

After storm there always sunny day really a true phrase to descibe life. Storm is the one who act as bad person to push a person to next step as it help a person to grow up, to think more wisely, to learn about something we call "life". Most ppl such as blowfish will tend to lost patient during this time. Most time blowfish lost patient due to scare blowfish will lost something due to the storm. End up blowfish like try to stop the sand from slip out from her hand, the harder she try the more sand she lost. Guess just open the hand let thing happen the way it need to be then blowfish can get happier. This the part blowfish trying very hard to learn as u know la let go easy to say but hard to do guess all ppl in this world have something that they don want to let go in certain extend.

Last week blowfish being going thru storm lot of thing screw up(as usual if bad thing happen it will happen in series and make blowfish lost her mind) plus in going to "sick" mode(due to the overnight pizza aiks no more overnight stuff) really push blowfish bad x1000 mood. Luckily blowfish have patient best friend to listen to all her complain :-p and also lotsa other friend that drop by send regards to blowfish somehow blowfish really feel warm and would like to express deep THANK YOU for all of u. Thanks for patient with blowfish during her emo time because of u all blowfish have the courage to swim thru the storm and doesnt feel that blowfish fighting the storm alone :D

Think blowfish feel stress as everyone that around her is couple2 suddenly really feel lonely, feel tired and wish to rest at some place yet blowfish doesnt have anything other than work, work and work. When work area full with shit then blowfish start to feel tension :-p Luckily today everything is start to trend to good side. The thing that bother blowfish being solved and blowfish really feel proud of herself, learn new thing and able to write pattern and decoder this push blowfish happiness to 100% :D
Blowfish Gambatte!!!

Camera

2010-04-26T19:51:00.000-07:00

Nikon camera has been accompany blowfish for ages(>5years) recently the screen start to have black dot however it still perfectly doing it job snap a nice picture. All friend that see this ancient camera is laughing and wondering the black dot will appear in the picture or not :-p and blowfish need to explain2 and explain2 each time blowfish ask ppl help blowfish snap picture (this the part potong steam la).

Reason not to buy camera:
As u all know blowfish is kind of fish that like to keep all thing that meaningful for blowfish. Even this camera is aging d however blowfish still think it the best camera and picture took with it is best among other camera.Thus till now blowfish doesnt go for new camera.

What this camera means to blowfish???
This camera is 2006 birthday present and this the only thing that blowfish have now that still in good condition other than this all gone d. Sigh guess blowfish just frame this camera and put into museum easier :-p

Second reason, if want to buy might as well go for DSLR as now DSLR is the trend however DSLR is too bulky. Thus blowfish heart cant determine want to buy DSLR and take the trouble carry this big fella along when go travel or just go for the normal sa kua camera as price different by 1K. Sigh once again u all can see blowfish is a kind of fish that always cant decide what she want :-p

Third reason blowfish refuse to get new camera is blowfish not type of fish that like to snap picture of building or event but like to pose and being snap picture :-p thus having good camera but nobody help to snap picture doesnt serve the purpose as well :-p

hmmm, up to this point guess blowfish already have answer whether want to buy camera or not :-p Guess just wait till Nikon Camera officially burn out only blowfish will really go buy another camera. God please bless Nikon Camera long life........

Trip to San antonio

2010-04-25T21:42:00.000-07:00

Blowfish just back from 2days 1night trip to san antonio. Really tired yet for this moment blowfish just refuse to dock to the bed to meet datuk chow(if got prince different story la sure hurry jump to the bed meet prince in my dream :-p)

From this trip blowfish not only spend a lot of $$$ but also let a lot of blood flow out(p/s not cox PMS la). Our trip to san antonio primary destination is to visit wildlife experience the real africa feel around us. When we first enter the wildlife park, we see a giraffe.Somehow the male and female giraffe is being seperated. The female giraffe is too busy eating her food and no time to bother us that trying to make noise to attract her. Male giraffe don seem like trying his best to impress the female giraffe however all the effort cant fight with the food temptation :-p really pity Mr giraffe. Due to our gang is eagerly want to take pic with Mr giraffe so they go and punch some leaf as bail to attract Mr giraffe and took picture with it and this strategy really successful but the whole process really funny.

Wildlife park : 16.50usd
After playing around with giraffe, we start our journey to experience the real wildlife inside car. While driving, a lot of animal on the roadside near to the car so that ppl can feed them. Blowfish trying to feed them as well. However blowfish too scare, when the long horn is near to blowfish blowfish start feel scare and try to close the window however brain is act away too fast than blowfish hand end up OUCHx1000 blowfish hand(previously trying to throw food to long horn) is stuck while window is cruely swap thru it =.=. If u ask blowfish is it pain, blowfish cant answer as her hand no more feel and she just feel that blood is flowing. Since blowfish din have anything with her to apply on the wound so just let it be since it already pain till no feel d. Sigh how to wash hair with 1finger injured that the Q flash thru blowfish head.
All the animal very cute but too bad blowfish cant enjoy it with this stupid bleeding finger. However blowfish still manage to snap some cute2 animal pic. The most funny animal is the donkey, they open their mouth big2 for u to throw in food into their mouth. Let blowfish share the pic once blowfish have it :-p

San antonio River Walk
Blowfish really like the atmosphere in River walk, feel very relax with the wind blow to our face. We have a boat ride and during that day there is fiesta time and we manage to see their parade. Nice event :D
Night time due to request from our MR president, we went to a PUB. Blowfish doesnt bring visa along with her end up need to show the ID from her country luckily the guy still let blowfish go in. The pub really full with ppl and have 3different kind of dance floor. Blowfish is too shy to join the gang thus just buy a beer stand aside enjoy herself suddenly feel want to get drunk let all the problem just go away but too bad blowfish not type of fish that can easily get drunk.
In such romantic city, guess really suitable for those couple but not blowfish.

Still got lotsa feeling want to share here but now is abit late d guess blowfish better go sleep and hope for better tomorrow.

Sick

2010-04-20T18:58:00.000-07:00

Blowfish been to US for one month d, quite like US life everything is so easy + conveniet. As usual if blowfish too free, blowfish start to feel stress. Blowfish have lots of work however don know why blowfish just doesnt have mood to work or to move :( really hate this state. One voice in blowfish heart start to question blowfish and try to push her further.

After being push by heart blowfish start to force herself to list down a to do list at least can follow the list and clear all task one by one. The more blowfish listed down the more headache blowfish get :S.

1. Blowfish miss out a lot of detail such as check apartment when move in and report all the damage stuff, sigh blowfish doesnt do that and see several thing not in good condition crossing finger the apartment ppl is considered and wont simply charge blowfish.

2. US ppl required ppl who on relo like blowfish to submit all neccessary document for taxation purpose however till now blowfish doesnt receive any mail from them and from what blowfish understand from friend there is a long list to do. sigh what blowfish can do le other than waiting the person response on blowfish taxation status.

3. At work area, everything is good just blowfish not really like spend whole day reading document without any hands on. End up blowfish read and read, read and read, mood also getting down and down :S start worry for nothing. Worry for the product schedule, worry about future, worry about what next =.= gal really like wondering and end up in deep shit mode.

See gal really cannot let them too free till trigger them wondering end up sick.......
Sigh only one word blowfish can say about herself is padan muka :-p

Guess blowfish start to feel down is due to blowfish feel that herself always no stand always afraid that ppl will angry with blowfish end up choose to be follower and doesnt dare to raise the question in her mind. Unless that person really piss off blowfish else blowfish will keep quiet and follow what ppl say. Sigh trying to improve this but yet blowfish scare blowfish will make ppl angry so guess better stay alone happier.

Emotional day.....
Maybe cox blowfish start to miss her parent, start to miss malaysia, start to miss her far2 friend who know her well at least in front of them blowfish can be herself.
But life is about facing all thing alone right? Ppl can give opinion yet we the one make the choice.
After today, tomorrow will be better.

Gal vs Guy

2010-04-05T18:48:00.000-07:00

Recently blowfish realize a lot thing about relationship as ppl around blowfish all come with family. This trigger blowfish to think a lot. Relationship is something that really need effort in maintain it, even u have deep feeling for the person but no proper way manage the relationship apparently everything not gonna work, if work also one party will be suffer.

As 3party blowfish really see thing more clear, some thought on the incident that happen around blowfish :D
Story 1: Husband need to lie to wife to avoid them from nagging.
One day we went to asian market but the husband doesnt tell the wife that he following us to asian market end up the guy really worry as we drag quite long somor go for dinner. The guy keep think of excuse what to tell the wife.

Hmm, sometime blowfish really think gal is the one who causing the guy din dare to tell the truth as when they tell the truth time what they get just nonstop nagging and they somor need to think way to make u happy.

Story 2: If there is love even imperfect become perfect in the eye of love one.
When blowfish travel with one couple to Dallas, the husband suddenly make emergency turn end up the gal keep on nagging on this in front of us and the guy just keep quiet let the gal scolding him. Suddenly blowfish feel pity with the guy. From morning till night if got chance the gal will tease the guy on this item and the way she say more like scolding =.= blowfish just pretend sleeping there :-p

Blowfish really salute the couple as the guy can withstand the gal nagging him from whole day somor in front of his friend somor, think this guy really like this gal but isn't quite suffer if continue like this long term :-p so blowfish think the phrase that "in eye of love one imperfect is just nice for them"

Don know why more and more blowfish look around, blowfish really think sometime gal really make the guy too tired. Trying to be a understanding gal if can this is the good way to help maintain good relationship don make until the guy is too tired.

Junior

2010-04-01T16:39:00.000-07:00

Yesterday blowfish planning to jump to bed before 11PM so by 10.15PM she already start to say 99 to all her dearest friend and prepare her mood to zzzzz and play chess with datuk chow. U know la quality sleep will contribute to beauty and help u stay young :-p eventhough all ppl know this but yet we always think time is not enough rather sacrify our sleeping time to do some other stuff like surfing net, chit chat, watch movie.......

ops..... runaway from main story line pula :-p
Once blowfish dock to the bed, ring!ring!ring! phone ringing =.= who calling blowfish at this time aiks $%#@ no choice so blowfish jump from her bed run to kitchen and pick up the phone tot her Kulim friend calling her. Once pick up the phone, the guy from other side speak english(eh this sure not her kulim friend else sure talk chinese one) guess who call blowfish???

Somehow blowfish have 6sense that her uni junior call her and bingo she get it right :-p(so proud with her 6sense :-p). Blowfish junior is currently studying PHD in university texas. Blowfish count2 >8years blowfish never in contact with this junior till recently he come and add blowfish in facebook and happen to know that he also studying in texas. Ting!!! chance for free tour guide this is what flash thru blowfish mind hiak2.

Last week by right her junior should come and meet her for gathering however due to blowfish doing her shopping in outlet so blowfish doesnt see his message luckily he never get angry with blowfish :-p

Chit chat2 thru phone happily as free air time(so good la this system), talking current life, Uni life, gossip junior news, talking US stuff while talking time pass and blowfish eye is getting heavier and once blowfish see the watch OH NO 12.30AM d aiks blowfish miss her sleeping time again. Junior offer to bring blowfish around this week but once again blowfish have activities with Kulim folks :-p hopefully junior don mind :-p

我很好那么你呢？？？

2010-03-31T18:35:00.000-07:00

忽然在飞机上听着cindy的歌就好想动笔，好想纪录些什么，好想捕错捉那已失去的那一个人，那一个人的好，那一个人的身影。人说时间可以让一切事情冲淡但为何我还是觉得那人是无可取代的，虽然过了好久好久但这一部分的记忆让我时常想起。虽然心有想念，好想再联络他，想问他过得好吗？和另一个她过得幸福吗？奈何我什么也不能做因为不打扰是我选择祝福他的方式，也是我唯一可以做的不是吗？
离开我要比从前快乐。

好奇怪，我时常觉得世上没有第二个他适合我。现在的人谈恋爱都讲究“快”真的看不到他们的真心（但之前我真的看到吗？之少我是这样觉得）。我这个人就是这样都喜欢被先入为主的感觉主宰。好想就此放弃记忆中的他，好想找个可以照顾我的人可我害怕结果还是一样，害怕被伤害的我就此停留在原地默默期望属于我的他出现。

停在原地的我把自己锁在死角里，我在想若我遇到了不错的人选我想我该试着去接受。因为我觉得在寻寻觅觅中我们最想得到的就是一个陪我们走的人，一个当你累了抱你，聆听你的心声的人，然而我准备好了吗？我不懂。。。

属于我的幸福是否在不远处？？？

Austin life = Cooking life

2010-03-31T17:40:00.000-07:00

Nowday blowfish life is pretty occupied compare when she in her little sea far2 in kulim. In US, blowfish no time go gym as the weather + bed here is super nice every morning blowfish is trying very hard to wake up. Even alarm being set to 7AM but end up the poor phone need to keep ringing for N time till 8AM only blowfish force herself wake up. If that is weekend then deng blowfish will sleep till the sunray say hi to blowfish :-p

Everyday blowfish will need to go work and do debug work in lab. Guess the worse thing work in lab is that we cant drink water when needed and need to come out from lab at level 2 go to level 4 cube and get few sip of water. Aiks guess work in this company too long influence by it culture: complain.....

Everyday blowfish will try to go home before 6.30PM so that blowfish have enough time to cook. From preparing, cooking, cleaning blowfish need at least one hours. Blowfish is kind of fish quite particular in food. If u ask blowfish to only have one dishes with rice blowfish rather choose to skip meals :-p end up everyday blowfish need to cook at least 3dishes for herself =.= haiz.

Today blowfish back to home by 6PM and start her cooking. blowfish have lotus soup, stim egg and also fried luncheon meat. The soup taste good, the egg stim perfectly suddenly blowfish feel so happy, enjoy her dinner :D
Think blowfish like cooking as she can plan what to cook, how to cook however she really don like the cleaning work and the oily feel luckily here not hot weather else she will out of mind again :-p

Piss off

2010-03-30T18:18:00.000-07:00

Blowfish is kind of easy piss off fish as she doesnt have patient however she try her best to change this attitude and give more patient to thing that happen around her. But too bad no matter how good blowfish try to be blowfish still fail. Early2 morning see one stupid ppl(sorry blowfish try to behave but reallly out of mind now :-p) come and kind of criticize blowfish. Not that blowfish cant accept ppl comment just the comment he make doesnt make sense and sound like he just want to scold blowfish for fun.

Conversation in blowfish facebook.......
Blowfish : aiks bring camera but never bring data cable how to transfer picture la :(
Blowfish friend : bla..... bla....... (telling blowfish how to solve this and we basically talking crap there :-p u know la gal always like to complain eventhough they know what to do)

Out of sudden..... One stupid guy which is blowfish landlord come in and comment this:
Landlord: Echo Mark's comment: Exactly, just a cable, how much would that cost you? Do you have to make a mountain out of a molehill? If really so poor, don't even have money to buy a cable, then just come back. Don't spoil Asian people reputation there.

Blowfish wondering, she so far away from rental house how she step her landlord tail??? why he reply in so sarcastic way?
Deng!!!! This really spoil blowfish mood to the max as blowfish feel that blowfish is innocent facebook is for ppl to go there relax talk crap with friend. Why landlord need to take it so serious? if he really don like blowfish post he can just ignore it instead of reading it.

So once reach home and see blowfish friend online, asking her to help reply this rude ppl post and blowfish really feel proud of her friend by looking the way she reply really high EQ :D nice and straight to the point.

Blowfish friend : hey everyone, just take a chill pill. what has a camera cable got anythin to do with Asian reputation and being poor? thats a harsh accusation... relax la...

Eventhough blowfish sound not mature in handling this but who care....
Don forget blowfish is from scorpion horoscope don ever piss her off else better watch out :-p(always sound fierce like tiger but in actual like a cat not even dare to reply blowfish landlord comment need to ask her friend to help her)

For final solution, blowfish block him from see all blowfish status update hopefully he wont be so free come and comment blowfish facebook again. All this make blowfish feel down, wondering is it landlord really hate blowfish, is it blowfish need to move, what blowfish do till landlord hate her so much?(sigh, feel unlucky for the person who need to face this kind of moody ppl, eventhough blowfish sometime moody but blowfish wont ever go offence ppl :-p)
Again blowfish feel lucky as there is friend to listen to her complain and help her whenever need, ouch so nice have this kind of secure feel :D

Final Question blowfish want to ask: if a dog bark at you, will u bark back???

First day in Austin

2010-03-24T13:49:00.000-07:00

After taking >25hours flight at last blowfish safely reach austin. With the help of the cab blowfish get to her apartment but the fees for cab is super expensive 37USD :( ouch is it over charge???

Blowfish so lucky to have neighbour from malaysia and helping blowfish to open up the lock + moving the heavy luggage(~30Kg). Night time blowfish was out to shop for all grocery. A tired day blowfish would say so once blowfish dock the bed blowfish can really sleep soundly zzzz.....

The next day blowfish still able wake up at 7AM and proudly announce that blowfish doesnt jetlag :-p After wake up first thing blowfish do is cooking, look at the stuff that available in the fridge blowfish really doesnt have much choice somor blowfish cooking skills is limited edition :-p
Blowfish take out brocoli, ikan bilis+hotdog and plan to cook one dish that similar like what we cook for spagetti just blowfish pair it with rice instead of spaggetti :-p
Overall taste acceptable (:-p now only blowfish know actually she not really particular in food intake :-p)

With help from blowfish neighbour, blowfish reach office on time and start meeting. The office structure, lost in the office for N times luckily ppl there is quite helpful + friendly guide blowfish here and there. Start to feel lucky :D somor blowfish meet a lot malaysia friends there make blowfish feel not that lonely.
After meeting blowfish start to feel the jetlag effect :( so sleepy and feel abit headache(abit fever) luckily it get better after lunch. During lunch blowfish pick her car at hertz and guess what car she get .......
Blowfish get Versa(latio sport) yeah!!! blowfish like this car as it fuel consumption quite reasonable however blowfish no confident to drive here alone. Haiz getting not independent again.....

Night time after back home, cooking time again. This time blowfish out of idea what to cook d, just simply take out carrot, potato, ikan bilis end up all thing fried don know what is the final dishes blowfish wish to have. End up carrot pair with egg, potato + ikan bilis cook become curry favour potato. End result taste not bad just the weather here too dry blowfish hand is impacted so everytime cook will feel pain -.-

first day story end here.......
Hopefully blowfish will have pleasant stay here :D

I believe I can FLY

2010-03-17T21:07:00.000-07:00

It been a long time blowfish doesnt have update in this blog, sigh blowfish is too busy preparing herself for fly on the sky :-p (u know la not easy for a fish to fly ma as they only know how to swim :-p)

From last year blowfish looking forward for this travel however when the travel date is getting closer and closer blowfish start to feel worry. Guess this worry due to blowfish feel unsure about the new environment that awaiting blowfish. Even there is a lot factory ppl there yet blowfish still worry as blowfish is kind of fish that look like easy mix around but in actual blowfish is quite shy. Somor blowfish not really close to those ppl travel to Austin somor all of them is in pair, if blowfish join seem like become lamp post le. Hai guess blowfish will be alone in her apartment for next 6months. Think the positive way, blowfish will be earn lotsa $$$ after this trip guess this the only reason for blowfish to feel happy.

Blowfish really miss the time where by miss tour guide together with her in chandler. Can visit many place with guide from miss tour guide. Guess blowfish is kind of lazy fish, lazy to plan for trip if got ppl plan she just swim along :D. Feel happy to have one good friend like miss tour guide, become blowfish online map, shopping kaki, chatting kaki, 88 kaki :-p
It fun if we can meet friend that kind of have same interest with us :D

3more days to leave the land that blowfish always complain(spirit of blowfish company to complain if u feel that is not right). The time u have it u don think it precious but the time when u need to leave it u will feel reluctant to let go- human nature right!!!
Blowfish will miss malaysia, miss malaysia food, miss malaysia ppl, miss malaysia friend, miss the driving time with so "good" traffic...........
Beside that blowfish think blowfish will miss the sweet time talking crap with all her friend always argue about nothing or go round and round but back to original point :-p

Not forget to mention that blowfish will miss her badminton friend, badminton is the time where by blowfish can release her stress(even most ppl comment that blowfish is ganas :p

Blowfish will MISS everything here, luckily now we got technology we still can contact each other daily. Remember to keep in touch with blowfish ya else blowfish really can grow mushroom in country that far2 away from here :S

Thanks :D

2010-03-05T20:57:00.000-08:00

Blowfish is going thru her difficult day for past one weeks. Guess all this happen due to blowfish lost patient easily. Blowfish tot she improved d but when facing multiple issue only she realize that not the case. Blowfish still will feel uneasy, feel scare, feel not secure, feel unsure. Been trying hard to tell herself that everything is ok this just passing period. Life is always up and down nothing so big deal

In this hard period blowfish feel glad as she feel that there is lotsa ppl around her that care about her. Thanks :D feel warm deep in heart :D. Below is several story that blowfish wish to share here.

Early morning blowfish friend ping her. Tell her that he happen to read her blog and drop by to tell blwofish that nothing so big deal. This is life always up up and down2 and offer to provide blowfish tissue(blowfish request that thru blog :-p)
Thanks ya appreciate it :D

Another person who cheer blowfish up is her best friend MR unagi. His joke really make blowfish laugh :-p (Thanks for always know how to make blowfish smile when she in :( time )
Blowfish :"aiks see no light le" (no light = no hope)
unagi:"switch on the light la" (walau answer so selamba but quite true la, no light just open the switch why think so much le, think blowfish is the one make everything complicated)
Blowfish:"But no electric le"
unagi:"luckily i am electrical engineer"
Blowfish:"But now no electric wo, u are electrical engineer also cant do anything :-p"
unagi:"But i can design the circuit for u using battery one"
A simple conversation which bring meaning plus cheer blowfish up :D
Somor blowfish have special offer from him to go starbuck online(for work on visa + settle company issue) get free drink there.(drink can claim from him, hiak2 so nice got free drink)

Not forget to mention that miss tour guide moral support go lunch at blowfish favourite place MCD :D a nice meal can really cheer ppl up. Moral support is something that u don need to say anything but u can feel that a person is there to support u :D
Kamsia2

Many more ppl drop by lazy to write long2 d. Share other time :D

Chasing gal rule

2010-03-04T09:41:00.000-08:00

Since blowfish need to wait till 3AM for the lot to accomplish thus blowfish take this chance to update more and more story that form in blowfish head(for quite sometime d :-p, but too lazy to write up)
Hmm what story blowfish should talk about?

Recently chatting with a guy friend he told blowfish that he make a wish during chap goh meh that he will have gf this year he also ask blowfish how to ensure that the gal will fall in love with him. Since ppl so look up at blowfish so blowfish start to act like a expert and explain to him what blowfish think.

Rule#1
Don ever show to the gal that u are desperate. Why???
u only make the gal think that any gal come also u will take, if u intended to chasing her then u will die faster than usual :-p cox no Sincerity here.

Rule#2
Don ever let the gal know u trying to chase many gal at same time. Why???
If u let her know u chasing many gal at same time means u not really like her just like a fisherman that using jala one time get all fish. Make her think u not sincere and she is nothing special just like other fish that u try to catch one time. Even u not loyal type but in front of the gal pretend abit la else u will being erase from the list.

Rule#3
Most gal like to hear those sweet thing but make sure when u say it out time it sound like a truth for her :-p. Most gal like to ask will u do this for me?? will u do that for me?? Please pretend say yes :-p cox most gal wont really go troublesome someone that they like. So say YES wont bring harm. So simple but useful way to get gal heart :-p

There is many2 rule but blowfish only list this 3 for her friend as she think this relevant for him :-p hope he don mind.
Do u think blowfish is potential to become advisor???
please say yes la Remember Rule3 :-p

Speechless

2010-03-04T08:21:00.000-08:00

Sometimes blowfish really in bad luck mode cannot really escape from it. When in bad luck mode everything usually wont give error will start to prompt error :(

Bad luck story for blowfish start from the day before 1st day of new year where by her car is out of battery (cox she forget to switch off sth) this one nothing so big deal just waste abit $$$ then can settle. 2nd bad luck happen on the 1st day of new year where by there is one motor that din stop during red light and hit front park of blowfish car. Blowfish tell herself everything is ok nothing big deal thing that can settle by $$$ don need think so much. Happy go lucky for 14more days and

Second accident happen where by a lady hit blowfish car behind. Luckily blowfish car din get serious damage just scatch on the bumper side and panel is bengkok abit. Blowfish really piss off by her relative. When the incident happen she call to ask for opinion on how to settle this end up call tis one will ask me call other one. Ding dong2 end up no conclusion so blowfish follow the person who is towing company advice to go report police and claim for the losses on the lady car insurance. Next day only blowfish know in order to claim ppl insurance u need to pay >700 plus2 (buy police report, photo, ask the insurance fella come and take picture) :(
Then only the relative say even pay it u need to wait very long in order to get the claim back the money ( what the heck, since u know this why in the first place u never tell blowfish and let blowfish miss the chance to settle offline and get RM100 now blowfish earn nothing but trouble and spend repair $$$ all by her own.)
Sometime blowfish really think the world is changed. Last time all ppl willing to help each other but now ppl waiting to see u step into the hole :( luckily blowfish friend still there to give her advice. Thanks a lot really appreciate it :D u all enlight blowfish day :D

Story about the car is end (hopefully really end) now start the story on career. Blowfish have chance to travel to US for half year so she so happy and start with all the visa application. Who know the embassy so "efficient" ugrade their system to online system and the online system is so "effective" where by it will always hang. Blowfish already try to fill in the form N times in 3days time however never success(what blowfish can say, just be patient and continue trying). Blowfish friend tell her that the BKM to get thru all this is to fill in the form midnight thus blowfish plan to stay up late tonight to fill in the form. And yes blowfish really stay up midnight now is 1.32AM and blowfish is still in floor solving issue crossing finger the lot performance is healthy. Meantime blowfish go to fill in Visa and so lucky the system is under maintenance.
Once again blowfish feel speechless.

Suddenly feel like no energy to fight the bad luck just let everything bad happen blowfish believe soon all this will gone. The worse thing is while fighting the bad luck blowfish is alone. Really feel like want to cry not that blowfish is weak just blowfish need a medium to release the stress but too bad blowfish doesnt have courage to cry in the public. Suddenly feel that at this moment if there is shoulder or ear or a person to give blowfish tissue will be great too bad blowfish is still alone hoping god will bless her somehow.

Good luck blowfish, don give up.

slow vs fast

2010-02-24T06:12:00.000-08:00

During pai tian kong time, blowfish help her mom prepare stuff for praying at night. While chatting mom tell blowfish that she see improvement on blowfish in term of her attitude. Blowfish also observed that. Since when all this start to happen???

Flash back the old memory guess everything start when blowfish fall down badly after break with ex bf. Why blowfish say so???
Blowfish think that time blowfish having everything that she want including love, carrier and start to moving fast and never slow down and look at the person beside her or care about them only focus on ownself. Until allergy attack blowfish and blowfish feel abit hopeless and guess this make her abit emotional, asking why all this happen to her never learn to accept it as part of life. Until ex leave blowfish only blowfish slow down her movement and start to think back and realize her mistake. Even all ppl tell blowfish that it not blowfish fault is ex fault cox ex fall in love with other gal but blowfish really think if that time blowfish willing to spend more time with him everything will change. This put blowfish in huge regret. But thing that past wont come back so just take the lesson :D
So blowfish really say Thanks to the god, as god show blowfish her mistake, guide her to be a better person. So in other way blowfish really feel being bless by god :D

Allergy bring blowfish to a temple where blowfish get know to buddishism. Start to believe in karma. Start to learn slow down look around, start to learn to appreciate life, appreciate everybody around me. However blowfish doesnt totally change la, still easily get piss off especially during driving time. Currently work in progress to improve :D

Just now blowfish piss off with the restaurant service(serve food very slow other table that come later than blowfish already get food d but blowfish still doesnt have her somor most of her friend finish their food d) so the waiter getting complain from blowfish after complain blowfish start to feel regret as we shouldnt create problem to others la. Aiks as usual blowfish act faster than the brain =.= aiks improvement needed.

Really think blowfish getting mature in this 2years times, but blowfish happy with this change and welcome it :D
Blowfish, always remember to slow down your speed, interact with the ppl around u.
Jia you jia you

Neighbour

2010-02-23T04:44:00.000-08:00

Suddenly thinking of writing story about blowfish neighbour.........

Neighbour age around 40years old, since blowfish family move there he start to come our shop. Talk to blowfish or blowfish mom, at first blowfish doesnt feel anything wrong since he is her neighbour so blowfish still will talk to him. However blowfish start to feel weird as this guy will only come to our shop whenever blowfish around. Some time he will come to our shop just to buy candy and stand there look at blowfish =.=

At first blowfish doesnt bother by this but across time(approximate 2years - continuous effort) blowfish start to lost patient with this guy. Really feel disturbing as he not only peek at blowfish but keep on trying to talk to blowfish =.=
Asking questiong not a problem but problem is most of the time his question make ppl feel speechless don know how to answer :-p for eg..
neighbour : 1. why u wear so sexy today? Harlo wear singlet only also call sexy ar =.=
2. How your mood today?

So now whenever blowfish see this fish swim to her house compound, blowfish will hide behind the stone(in room :-p). If neighbour cant see blowfish then only he will go home. Then he will bring a lot stuff for blowfish mom, mom also headache thinking what to give back in return :-p

Hopefully, neighbour just like to look at blowfish and doesnt have other meaning but blowfish really salute him can continue like this for so long. Wish him find his love one soon then blowfish doesnt need to hide here and there whenever back to shop. Cross finger.

Happy new year :D

2010-02-15T18:39:00.000-08:00

14feb2010 is a good start for tiger year. This year is combination of new year and valentine. Blowfish feel happy this year eventhough there are several thing bother blowfish prior the cny but all this doesnt impact blowfish mood :D

Let blowfish share the story here :D
12feb2010:
First day back to malaysia from cambodia, blowfish become very dark :S aiks near new year become dark how to turn out pretty??? Night time mom asking blowfish to fetch her to market to buy all new year stuff, when blowfish start her car, the car seem like no response. Oh No battery die again??? :( luckily there is still shop open tat time and the guy come and help blowfish change the battery ouch my $$$$
That time blowfish abit down d, weather so hot, skin so dark, battery not working, aircond not cool enough :-p all combination really make blowfish get crazy, luckily blowfish have her best friend to listen to her complain. Thanks MR best friend.

13feb2010:
It was a busy day where by whole day blowfish need to help her mom to do all the preparation for night steamboat and pray. Busy is one thing but the weather is really drive blowfish crazy.
But guess the best way to keep ourself cool is calm down the more we feel cannot tolerate with the weather the more we feel hot :D
If everytime we can think the other way round guess the world will be peaceful.

14feb2010:
First day of new year + valentine. Some how blowfish really feel lonely when see all ppl in pair or in group. Blowfish doesnt have friend here as her family just move to new area and she lost contact with all her secondary school mate. Stay at home whole morning feel boring just watch movie together with father. Till afternoon only go to relative house get ang pao. All cousin there is younger than blowfish guess there is generation gap thus we doesnt have much conversation. Since nothing to do so blowfish just join those uncle/aunty gamble but this year blowfish gamble luck no good end up lost around RM50 but it worth la cox it help blowfish pass the time :D

Night time blowfish going to 2ku house for steamboat, there blowfish meet cousin who almost same age with blowfish so happy at last can find some ppl to talk2. Due to blowfish have allergy thus blowfish doesnt join the steamboat and mom have specially cook food for blowfish :D yummy2.

Forget to mention here that, got one stupid motor doesnt stop at red light and hit blowfish car @#$!$!! but deep in heart blowfish feel lucky as the motor owner doesnt get injured else....... don know wat to say. Now blowfish car get scratch at the front bumper, blowfish request the guy to fix but the guy seem like try to ignore blowfish :S no choice la blowfish need to fix it herself $$$$ again. Ouch blowfish bonus just fly away like tat only :S

There is more and more story blowfish wish to share but blowfish is too busy from past few week hope coming week blowfish can have chance to update.

Overall blowfish feel happy(even there is some small2 kacau2 thing :-p)for this tiger year and looking forward to get more and more good thing in this year. Wish u all good luck too.
Happy new year :D

Guilin Trip #1

2010-01-26T03:39:00.000-08:00

After long hour of hectic life that blowfish go thru recently at last blowfish pack everything and swim to somewhere far2 away from work, far2 away from everything that bother her.

On 21Jan, Swim....................
After thousand of hours at last blowfish reach her destination place - China GUILIN
First reach there, blowfish really feel boring as along the road from airport to the hotel blowfish see a lot of old houses which being abandon(荒凉). Suddenly feeling abit down as blowfish is kind of fish tat like（热闹）city view whereby we can see a lot ppl walking around. Probably blowfish just afraid to be alone need to see a lot of ppl around blowfish eventhough blowfish just at the corner of the crowd.

Luckily when the van reach the town, the guilin town look exactly like all those big city. Busy and full of building. When reach the hotel, the receptionist very friendly guide us on the famous spot of guilin. Look at her friendly smile, deep in blowfish heart she still don want believe that china got good ppl :-p(even mom scold blowfish should not cox of one black spot then categorize that whole paper is bad quality).

First day blowfish+family go to emperor housing area(江靖王府), blowfish really like to visit all those historical building listen to all story on their culture. That day is whole day raining day really potong steam la =.=

Entrance fees: 80RMB

From the picture, the tree that grow around the building really look like dragon craw, dont u think so. Really amazing. Behind the building is a small mountain where by in term of feng shui very good as providing protection(靠山) to the house owner. The mountain is located middle of the guilin city and if we climb up there can see the whole guilin city but too bad blowfish family doesnt let blowfish do that as raining day will have safety issue to climb the hill :(

Night time we go for river cruise around guilin area, night time everybody feel very cold. Blowfish body sensor really slow abit as she still feel can take it meanwhile other already put on 3-4 cloth :-p

Entrance fees: 130RMB

River cruise on the 两江四湖 really nice, we can see those lighting effect on the ling long ta and the bridge along guilin city. Only one thing potong steam is the couple keep on shouting whenever see the scenery =.= adui they cannot just diam2 hugging there without making all the noise polution :-p

22th Jan, continue swimming around to yang shuo(阳朔）
Blowfish so proud and go teasing all ppl :-p who know the next day blowfish start to regret :-p
Second day we go for Li river cruise, the misty scenery(due to rain) really nice but the bad part is if want to see all the nice scenery u need to stand under the rain and strong wind. Blowfish start shivering as she only wear one jacket and one singlet :-p. After go add one more jacket, blowfish stand on outside the ship and start to snap picture. Nobody help blowfish snap picture so no choice just ask the china guy help to snap picture for blowfish. But the guy strongly disagree to use blowfish camera cox cant get the misty effect thus he use his XLR and help to snap picture for blowfish(damn paiseh troublesome ppl :-p but blowfish is too desprite to snap picture with those beautiful scenery la so don care). The china guy promise to send picture to blowfish via mail. Hopefully he wont forget that :D

P/S: all the uncle tot blowfish is student asking whether she on holiday :-p and call her 丫头, Blowfish proudly announce her age and see all uncle cant believe face :-p(first time blowfish think it good to have round2 face :-p).

Li river cruise(漓江) fees: 330RMB

There are 4 main scenery that we can observe along the river cruise(not sure whether blowfish remember all correctly please forgive her if she give wrong info :-p)
1) mountain that contain rock that look like a lady carry a children waiting for husband(望夫石)

2) mountain where by u can see a lot of horse picture on the rock(some ppl can see 9horse(then congrate u are consider 状元(intelligent ppl)) - my brother say he see 10 horses :-p not sure wat this means :-p

3) mountain where by u can see the horn of goat - in fact actually blowfish and other china uncle think it more look like cat ear or rabbit ear or bear ear (not sure :-p but definely not goat horn :-p)

4)if u have RMB 20 please view the picture of the scenery u can find it along the Li river cruise :D

All this scenery make blowfish feel that if blowfish have a house at the river side and live life like tat should be very wonderful :D

After end river cruise, we heading to yang shuo another town that very famous for the nice scenery. Reach yang shuo by 1PM, tour guide suggest us to go to one of the village to view commorant fishing and also for bamboo riding along the river to enjoy the relaxing enviroment.

However additional 200RMB required, Aiks........ all $$$ but no choice la else later we have no activity whole afternoon.

When reach the village, rain still continue it trend. We cant do any activities there due to the river water flow very fast very dangerous to carry on bamboo ride beside that commorant show also being cancel due to the water too dirty causing commorant cant catch the fish. End up the tour guide give us chance to take picture with the commorant(important tips: don look into commorant eyes when holding the bamboo else the commorant might think u are.....(fish) then what gonna happen u can imagine it....... :-p

Since all the activity being cancel due to the bad weather, the tour guide replace the trip to 世外桃源.

Why this place being call as 世外桃源(heavenly area)??? As this place is quite hidden, we only reach the native area after sail thru a cave. U never imagine that there is something over the cave. But nothing much in this item as blowfish think it too commercialize. Other than the cave sail path nothing really impress blowfish.

When blowfish reach yang shuo hotel, >40% of body is wet. Wet body meet strong wind = Freezing cold. The cloth that blowfish carry also get wet due to the rain :(
grrrrr......... the hotel aircond somor sot2 cant work properly end up whole night blowfish feel cold luckily the hotel give blowfish 2 blanket else guess blowfish will die there :-p

To be continue.........

Full + Warm

2010-01-12T04:25:00.000-08:00

Suddenly feel down, just go to old rent house and collected item from my ex housemate. He already leave here and pursuit his dream in SG. More and more ppl leaving, blowfish getting less and less friend.

Blowfish use to be alone since kid time since blowfish brother stay with grandma only blowfish stay with mom. Talking and play alone, sometime really feel reluctant to go out from own world and welcome the world to her little aquarium. Feel like blowfish stay in aquarium where by blowfish can only swim at her own area while looking at outside world. Hoping to join the other fish meanwhile feel afraid.
Aiks as conclusion if u have children please make it come as pair, at least they can have sibling to chat, to share all the feeling.

All this while, blowfish mom play role as mother and friend role :-p
Most of the story blowfish with share with her always have gal talk with her, think if one day blowfish need to married to other place sure she wont get use to it.

Chinese new year is near the corner, blowfish mom start to do clean up but she doesnt allow blowfish to help :-p just ask blowfish go room open air cond and rest. Really feel touch la, in return blowfish cook spagetti for her. At first mom doesnt want to eat spaggetti as last time blowfish subsitute the spagetti with maggie mee end up taste worse :-p. Luckily this time the taste very good and mom also agree on this :D

While helping mom hang curtain, she request blowfish to show her as she worried if one day blowfish married nobody will help her on that.
Mom: "better i learn how to put this else later u get married nobody help me :S"
blowfish:"now only know your daughter important le :-p"
Trying to hang the curtain......... but due to getting old her eye hard to see all the point to put together mom give up and say.....
Mom:"Next time even u married can u come back home on CNY and help me hang this :-p once per year"
Mom don worry blowfish will always take this job till u old :D

This week blowfish will attend miss tour guide wedding, mom see blowfish neck is empty and give her a necklace :D feel stress also later blowfish lost the necklace again cant imagine :-p(just lost one gold necklace). Mom do offer to buy new necklace to blowfish but blowfish refuse to use her money and buy la since blowfish earn $$$ d think shouldnt use mom money la.

As conclusion last week blowfish heart feel very full + warm. Father keep on bug blowfish to eat, somor purposely wake up early to prepare orange juice for blowfish :D and keep on checking is it blowfish bring all the stuff like wallet and handphone.

Blowfish really feel lucky to have them as her parent.
LOVE u mom's +dad's

Hen's Night

2010-01-11T05:44:00.000-08:00

GOOD NEWS : MISS TOUR GUIDE getting married this coming saturday.

Our miss tour guide is getting married next week thus before her status change from Single to Sold Out, we must celebrate for her :D.

Start planning gathering for miss tour guide during badminton session, chatting with all the invited ji mui on the games for the bridegroom. Really exciting discussing all the games. Hehe all the bridegroom heng dai better watch out or bride us else......

Inviting same group of ppl + some of miss tour guide colleagues go out to have dinner at butterworth steamboat(soup make from milk). Get really good response from all, Miss tour guide really good in networking :D so many ppl support this activities :D

Steamboat shop name zhi wei, after go thru the traffic jam we reach there on time and slowly one by one is reaching the place. Start our makan2 session, really enjoy the atmosphere where by a group of ppl chatting, playing with children( baby gal and boy from colleagues, super duper cute :D, start to miss the baby gal la ).

After makan2 session by right, we plan to go clubbing but most of ppl who already have family one doesnt want to join so.......
We change our plan to go watch AVATAR. Blowfish and miss tour guide have been talking about this movie since last few week but both also too busy to go watch. Avatar really a great movie, Blowfish really think if pandora really exist in this world blowfish wish to stay there forever. AVATAR is one of the movie that blowfish think worth to watch for this year :D
If u not yet watch highly recommended to watch this.

Really looking forward for that day la. Blowfish always like to join wedding event, can feel the happy environment for the new couple :D.

New vision to welcome 2010

2009-12-30T18:08:00.000-08:00

Today is new year eve think must start think what blowfish want to achieve in 2010 to keep blowfish move on :D
Like what ppl say life is shine cox of dream.

Hmm.....
What dream that blowfish want to pursuit?

In career wise, guess blowfish don know what she can do anymore just let god guide her to the path she suppose to be :-p
Eh blowfish why sound like no motivation for career one???
After 3years of working experience, blowfish really think in workspace we just need to execute our work make sure it done and dont be busy person or trying to step other to go up else end up will get bad karma(really see example of this)
Hehe!!! beside that blowfish think god always give what blowfish need, help to develop her, send her angel(unagi) to guide her what to do.
So why worry about career le :-p

In family wise, blowfish hope all member in her family is healthy and wealthy :D (only 2wish think not too greedy ho :-p)

In love wise, guess it's time to move on. If found suitable one blowfish will make sure she sold out in 2010.

In Health wise, guess blowfish want to start back all the exercise effort again next week already stop exercise for so long abit worry weight will bouncing back la :-p
By end of 2010, if got chance blowfish really wish can go hike kinabalu mountain else when getting older more hard to have the determintation go hiking.

Review back 2009, blowfish feel proud of herself. Eventhough no big achievement but blowfish give herself 80% mark as blowfish really think she live life to the fullest d :D
Hopefully blowfish can continue this trend in 2010 :D
Gambatte blowfish

Tonight is new year eve, guess everybody got their own new year eve celebration plan. Blowfish will follow the POR, watch movie in front TV and shout together with everyone in the TV when then countdown for 12AM and look at the fireworks from TV :D

Happy NEW Year All, wish u all the best for 2010 :D

Good luck

2009-12-29T03:45:00.000-08:00

Suddenly blowfish heart feel very pain for wat reason she don know. Is it for somebody that she say she no more care?
Really no idea just suddenly feel whole body no energy, doesnt have any mood to do anything.

What happen blowfish? what bothering u?

Today the gal call cindy(zhu hui) MSN with blowfish again, start with all bluffing story till blowfish browse her MSN profile pic confirm she is blowfish ex wifey only find out she is bring blowfish around the garden. Blowfish really sad, why in this world there is so many lie?
Blowfish just want everything to be simple, u tell me the truth and blowfish just believe it and don need guess when u talking the truth when lying.

Cindy say she doesnt have any bad intention but just want to be blowfish friend but do she aware that in this world there is some ppl that will never become your friend? Why she need come and disturb blowfish life just be her friend? Really for friend only?

Blowfish doesnt hate her cox blowfish understand one relationship doesnt work not only cox by 3rd party. The relationship itself having issue. Blowfish really confuse why cindy win blowfish ex d, still come here and say want to be friend only what her intention? really be a friend? or ???
Blowfish don know............

Feel cry but when blowfish ask back myself why need to cry no answer, guess it is very stupid to being influence by those ppl that doesnt means anything in our life. Blowfish feel so sad, heart so pain is it in this world no more truth, everything is just about lying?

Blowfish really feel funny, why 2gal need to go fight for one guy, there is so many good guy out that there, why need to fight each other for one stupid person. Even without guy, blowfish still able to take a good care of herself. The one that blowfish love is die on May 2008, already bury him into heart. The one that in this world just another guy that blowfish don know.

Hopefully they will get happiness but blowfish doubt as relationship which full with lie will apparently......

Anyhow blowfish still wish them good luck.

Confuse

2009-12-28T04:59:00.000-08:00

Out of sudden, a gal name zhu hui aka cindy come and add blowfish in MSN. At first blowfish tot this gal is her friend cousin that need to contact blowfish for help thus without doubt blowfish click accept.

After confirm she not blowfish friend cousin, blowfish start to notice that this name very familiar hmm checking in mind where blowfish see this name........

Taada!!! this name is my ex bf punya wifey le.
Issss..... what the hell this gal come and add blowfish???
blowfish:" are u teck chyi gf?"
zhu hui:" no, who is TC?"
blowfish:" u from china"
zhu hui:" wow u so smart"
blowfish:"u from what state?"
zhu hui:"hang zhou"
blowfish:"are your name 朱慧?"
zhu hui:" ya, u really clever la"
blowfish:" then how u get my address?"
zhu hui:"i searching and found u feel that ur face same like my uni teacher"
blowfish:"u know wat, your name,place of stay is same like my ex bf current gf"
zhu hui:"is it maybe his gf is my younger sister zhu juan"

hmm blowfish really confused this gal info all match with what blowfish ex bf wifey info why she claimed she don know him......
Should blowfish believe her? or blowfish just think too much d everything is just coincident???

Blowfish telling this story to unagi.....
Blowfish:".........(telling story)......"
unagi:"haha...just laugh about it la,if she single pls let her know got guy here highly recomended"
Blowfish:"if u really on with her then u will lost one friend,so please choose"
:-p sound abit fierce, somehow deep in heart blowfish don like china gal
This wat we call prejudis, yeah blowfish know but too bad cant help herself.
Kesian unagi :-p

幸福的距离

2009-12-15T22:05:00.000-08:00

在寻寻觅觅中，我时常在想幸福，距离我有多远???
再深一层的想，扪心自问到底怎样我才会觉得幸福?
是否上天再给我多些我就会觉得快乐，就觉得幸福?
是否我没好好的珍惜我所拥有的东西，所以不幸福?

做个比例，我时常觉得患上皮肤敏感是一件好惨的事，但有好多人在外面在生死关头争扎都不放弃反而积极面对人生，珍惜赚到的每一天。反观我每天为了敏感而消极，真的不象话 :-p ，真该好好反醒。

其实我觉得我拥有的实在好多好多，上天真的对我不薄。
它给我：
一个温暖的家 - 一个把我照顾的无微不至的妈妈，每回想妈妈撒娇时我都会会心一笑，好喜欢逗妈妈每回她都会被我逗得又气又笑, 大概我在妈妈眼里是永远长不大的小坏蛋.

一个稳定的工作 - 其实好喜欢我现在的工作，压力是必然有的但每回完成一个任务，心里就会觉得满满的，好有成就感，可能在别人眼中，它并不是什么大事但对我来说，这是对我努力的肯定。

一班与我臭味相投的猪朋狗友 - 好庆幸上天让我遇见一班谈得来的朋友，可以一起聊天，一起运动，一起购物，一起说东南西北，一起做好多好多的事情。真的想说声谢谢你们，你们让我的生活有色彩。

这一却已足够让我觉得幸福，幸福的距离并不远，只在你愿不愿意让幸福向你步近。

Photo session from spike

2009-12-14T02:41:00.000-08:00

Last weekend blowfish have photo session with her colleagues. Spike never tell blowfish he going to blowfish hometown for visit end up last minute call blowfish at 8AM and ask her become his tour guide =.= blowfish still blur2 le.
Aiks, blowfish never bring back any cloth la simply wear la. Then bring him to maxwell hill but nothing up there :-p end up he request blowfish to become his model and have photo session with blowfish.
Quite like the photo take by spike. Too bad that time blowfish doesnt have enough sleep end up got panda eye :-p + din cincai wear cloth only =.=
Let share it out here :D
Blowfish like this picture, from this angle blowfish body look small :-p(eventhough in actual no la :-p). Blowfish also like the way spike photoshop this picture :D
This wat ppl call professional ma at least got minor edit.

Ppl say 回眸一笑 for pretty gal is enough to killz a person. Don know this pose can successfully do this effect or not :-p (hmmm..... Blowfish start dreaming again)

Blowfish really sacrify herself le, sitting on the dirty rock luckily the effect not bad else spike prepare being killzzzz by blowfish :-p
During shooting this picture, there is one guy from KL keep on look at blowfish, blowfish so shy.
That guy somor ask blowfish friend whether blowfish is a model :-p (so happy dont blek la let blowfish syok sendiri a while)
Blowfish like this picture MOST.

Spike like this picture most as he say the picture which look nice is the one that ppl don think u not purposely pose for photo taking purpose. Under hot sun take this picture, blowfish somor need to act like she admiring the flower :-pWow! now only blowfish know her muscle quite big :-p

Hectic week

2009-12-07T02:09:00.000-08:00

Last weekend is a hectic weekend as blowfish attend 2wedding dinner + become ppl ji mui.
Travelling from Km->PG->taiping->PG->KM wow if count the mileage the figure sure amazing.
After go thru this few day, my colleagues ask me:"why u look so chan(old)"
Aiks lady that >26 really start aging la, never have enough rest for few days already start to feel no energy whole day + sleepy + @_@(panda eye) better blowfish go sleep after write this blog.

Jenny wedding dinner:

Meet with ex WPOC program team member for 2006 annual dinner. So happy get to sit with them chit chat. One of the team member agnes just get pregnant, she is one of the hang fook lady. Being take care by her caring husband, even accompany her go toilet :-p. Another hang fook gal is marilyn able to find her right guy living happily ever after with him :D. Really Happy for them.

Hang fook little gal is one of blowfish dream previously but blowfish think that she is too independent now till she don feel that she want to be protected as she good enough to take care herself even her family (hmm....... mindset problem :-p)

When chatting with anges, CF and HB, all asking blowfish about her status. They keep on thinking there sure a lot fish swim around blowfish. When blowfish tell them no fish around blowfish nobody want to believe blowfish =.+ Blowfish really wondering why everybody think there sure a lot fish swim around blowfish??? Guess that the problem everybody think blowfish sure got other half or at least got lotsa fish swim around her that why till now she still...... aha ROOT Cause found :-p. Now blowfish refuse to answer all this kind question as nobody will believe her answer :-p

Saturday outing with spike&SK + attending YP(taiping) wedding

After finish dinner on friday night, blowfish drive all the way back taiping after she reach home already 11++ after remove make up + bath by the time she sleep is >12.30AM v_v super tired + sleepy tot the next day she will sleep soundly till the sun ray hit blowfish butt only blowfish will wake up. But too bad wat blowfish plan always not working as it should be :-p(think next time better don plan :-p).

Around 8AM, blowfish boss calling blowfish feel so stress tot got work for blowfish =.+ after answer the call only know he actually asking me out to accompany spike go around taiping since we are taiping rang sure need to become tour guide la. First place we visit is max well hill, we take the truck go up the hills. Due to lack of thing to snap picture, spike request blowfish become the model to snap picture still waiting the picture once he send out blowfish will share it out here :D. After spend 2hours at natural place(quite boring la cox nothing we can do there :-p) we finally go down and get blowfish first meal at 12PM. Blowfish so so so hungry la nearly faint think blowfish cant skip breakfast else will feel super hungry and eat2 double the normal portion :-p

At the afternoon time, we go to portweld to snap cacoal factory picture but too bad it is raining day thus not much picture we can snap :S (if blowfish know blowfish will rather stay at her bed). Since cant take picture anymore we just go for the famous kari mee there and start eat2. Seem to blowfish this is eating more than travel :-p

Night time dress up and attending YP wedding, lotsa ppl there. When first go in really che kong cox don know give the ang pau to who as no counter there. After asking one aunty only know is the bridgegroom mother successfully pass the ang pau to the right person :-p. Food of the night is nice, some of the "good" singer go up the stage show off their "skill"(blowfish so bad comment on ppl talent :-p)

Sunday become ppl ji mui (sister) in PG

After tiring saturday, blowfish need to wake up early morning dress up in white dress + make up and then rush to PG to become jenny ji mui so so so sleepy la. Can see blowfish face turn to become muka sekupang. After lotsa phone call to ask for direction at last blowfish manage to reach bride house(blowfish really salute herself in good direction sence (start to syok sendiri:-p)). All the jimui is the bride secondary schoolmate, hmm all is leng lui sure la including blowfish :-p. All the game prepare by them is really.......... U all read thru and comment la :-p

1. create shit(combination of peanut butter, banana +milo powder) put on the pampers and ask the brother(hengdai) to eat, yuck think of it blowfish also want to vomit :-p

2. 2 person in one group play human hulahu, where by one need to become hulahu hanging the other one body and swing (they purposely match the fat +slim one pity the slim fellow :-p)

3. Eating special char kuey teow where by got wasabi inside then use wasabi to wash the teeth :-p

4. bridgroom to run and shout"jenny2 i love u, PG come to bring u"

All the games really funny la luckily all the hengdai quite sporting so worry they will angry :-p since blowfish don know most of the ji mui feel abit boring there thus just stand there help to block out the heng dai :-p

Thinking of writing more feeling here but too sleepy stil not yet recover from the tiring process that blowfish go thru last weekend. Blowfish must start back exercise plan as she already skip that for 2 weeks feel so stress without exercise. Hmm all this need to blame the stupid gym access that only open after 7AM how blowfish able to make it if they open so late they expect employee all come work late??? aiks so ineffective.

Hmm better stop writing here share more tomorrow on blowfish feeling :D. GOOD NIGHT ALL.

遇见

2009-12-02T04:24:00.000-08:00

还记得朋友说当你觉你无法走进女生的心里，只应那女生没给你机会，就算你再努力也是枉然。
其实我不是很赞同他的说法，若你没尝试过你又怎么肯定对方适合你？？？
一见钟情好多时候被好多因素影响，
列如：优美的环境，动听的音乐，鸟语花香的邂逅，这些因素都会造成错觉。
所以还是从朋友做起最好，大家互相了解，互相包容，一起品尝酸甜苦辣，若那人真的适合你再开始也不迟。

若你是最求萨那情感的人，我相信一见钟情比较适合你。
刹那的火花好美，但如何维持火花就变成另一各问题。好多情侣都分手下场，无法忍受那日复一日的生活甚自觉得一个人过会比较好。

若一切都有朋友作起，两人学会珍惜对方，但感情》爱情。
一对可以互相扶持，不离不弃的关系是我最向往的。但在这时代人是如此的现实，真的会有真爱吗？？？我怀疑。。。。

虽说现在的我也很现实但我还是会期待和属于我的另一半的相遇。

Wondering

2009-11-23T05:36:00.000-08:00

What blowfish wondering???
Can anyone tell blowfish?? Is it blowfish look like a dump fish, easy to get via fishing???

This the story which trigger blowfish to think:
A unquantified fish swim near blowfish. A friendly fish like blowfish (please tahan yourself from muntah :-p) easily make friend with this new unknow fish.
In technology era, networking via facebook is one of the daily activities.
From there u can get a lot of first hand news.

This unquantified fish status is set to in a relationship thus all the while blowfish is chop him as ppl bf however this fish really weird. He keep on tell blowfish the status just for fun purpose. Blowfish really go and believe him at beginning. Until blowfish saw his picture with his so call gf hugging pic :-p then only blowfish realize this guy is lie.
(According to blowfish best friend, guy normally will lie, they will only set "in a relationship" cox of the other half is forcing them :-p don know true or not but quite make sense)

But all this none of blowfish business just blowfish wondering why this unquantified fish keep on trying to cheat blowfish. As a friend blowfish don like ppl keep on try to cheat blowfish somor try so hard to make blowfish believe that he is single =.=

The most2 funny part is he told blowfish that in his facebook the one he call LPo is his brother Law Po =.= harlo your brother is also in blowfish friend list le somor his name is andrew how to turn become Law po. Deep in heart blowfish start to @#$%%!!! but still maintain polite, ppl don want to admit wat we can do. Just ignore la.

Blowfish just try to be friendly if this fish keep continue this trend think better just block this fish. isss........ Hate ppl treat blowfish like blowfish is low IQ or ppl call terencat akal.
Maybe blowfish look blur2 from outside but blowfish isnt that blur tho.

充实的一周

2009-11-23T03:55:00.000-08:00

上个星期真的过得好充实。我逐一把我的梦想实现，原来达成梦想是一件让人兴奋的事。
我所谓的梦想并不是创造什么伟大的发明，而是单纯的完成自己所定下的目标。

我终于完成了槟岛马拉松。
看是不可能完成的任务，在完成的那一刻，心不禁为自己鼓蹈。
21公里，要说长，不长，要说短也不短。由岂是对我们这些头一遭的人来说决对是非常挑战。
在比赛未开始前，一边驾车，一边摇头，一边盘算待会要如何完成这不可能的任务。
该跑多久，该走多久才能在限定的时间完成这马拉松并赢取奖牌。
想着想着，心中开始觉得害怕，开始觉得怀疑，怀疑我真的能办到吗？？？
未免心中的毅力被思想左右，我对自己说我不需要怕只要尽力了无法达到予期的效果也不要紧只要懂得欣赏过程就好了。

抱着这想法，我放慢脚步，好多人超越我，好胜的我真的花了好多力气说服自己别被别人影响。
别被别人的脚步声引响自己的脚步。
在过了不久，我发现之前超越我的人都开始漫步，好高兴可以慢慢的超越好多人。
我想这精神也可以用在我们日常生活中，别什么事都更别人比较，我们须懂每个人的长处不同，在欣赏别人的当儿何不也欣赏自己的优点。就算是缺点，只要肯花心思去改变我们看到另一个景象。

在跑的当儿，好多思绪在脑海中闪过。
列如之前演讲的画面，之前跑步的速度，盘算着于我现在的体力我大概自能跑一个小时接下来该怎么好呢？？等等的问题。
为了不让大脑继续涂搽我的思绪，我只好望海，望路，看人（主要是看有没有帅哥）。

跑呀！跑呀！我终于到了我心中所设下的第一站（桥中央），好想停下来但觉得体力还可以支持下去，心中又开始设下新的目标。就是这些小目标一直推动我向着这目标前进，每达成下目标我都会为自己鼓掌。
就这样一步一步把不可能变成可能。
加油喔！！！佩丝但愿你在日常生活中一直有这股热诚。

我們要找尋最愛的，還是最合適的?

2009-11-19T23:34:00.000-08:00

十月，秋天來臨的時候，有位朋友讀了dj的網誌，
這樣問我：「為什麼最愛與最適合的，不能一同存在呢？」「步入禮堂的另一半，不是自己最愛的人？」------
他讀了這篇文章。自己最愛的人是否也能是最適合自己的人？
當然可以，只是機率不大，能真正遇上人，你們真幸運，所以，你們一定要幸福給大家看喔！
不過，大部分的人，並不是這麼幸運的。
人們總是貪心，尤其是當人們年輕時，對於愛情，更是貪心，有時明明遇到心裡很愛、跟自己也很合適的，但當你開始考慮，是否要跟眼前這男生或女生共度一生時，卻還想著未來是否會遇到更好的、更愛的或更合適的，所以，我們觀望、我們拖延、我們等待，直到最後，對方累了、倦了，不願意再繼續陪你等下去，然後，我們錯過了。

而人們總是要等到錯過了，才會恍然大悟，原來，我是這麼喜歡對方，對方跟自己又是這麼的合適。但矛盾的是，若我們沒錯過心中那完美情人，而選擇跟她在一起，那麼，我們也無從比較以前的戀人，跟未來遇見的，何者比較愛？何者比較合適？

因為錯過，在心中留下遺憾，讓她在你心裡，變得更加美好。但當你選擇跟她在一起了，那麼，在你心裡，可能會有種遺憾，你可能會一直想著，若當初我沒跟她步入禮堂，那麼，未來我是否會遇到更好的、更愛的或更合適的？

這樣看來，不管是否錯過心中最完美的那個人，我們都不會感到心滿意足。
錯過了，覺得遺憾；擁有的，卻不懂得珍惜。

「那麼，我們到底要找尋最合適的，還是最愛的呢？」這位朋友在文末這樣問dj，
於是，我為了回答她，寫了這篇文章。

其實，不管找尋最愛的或是最合適的，都是可以的，若你還年輕，未來的歲月還很長，那麼你可以試著找找看既愛又合適的，如果你夠幸運，能夠遇上兼具兩者的另一半，那時候，請你一定要緊緊的抓牢他，別讓他跑掉。

不過，大部分的情況是，適合自己的，不是自己最愛的，最愛的，卻又不合適。
但假如真的很愛，你可以想辦法讓彼此合適，不是嗎？即使到最後並沒有成功，你也已經認真的努力過了。
相對的，若覺得彼此合適，也能試著去喜歡對方，因為不試試看，你怎麼知道，他不會是你的最愛呢？步入禮堂的另一半，不是自己最愛的人？為什麼，我會加上問號？因為，當步入禮堂那時，或許心裡會想起以前的某個身影，而感到些許遺憾，當下，你身邊的另一半，或許不是你最愛的人。但步入禮堂之後，過了三年、五年或十年，或許，你的遺憾，就會一點一滴的消失了，因為那時，你與你的另一半，經過這些年的相處、相互扶持、患難與共，不知不覺中，他早已成為你的最愛。

KID

2009-11-19T04:12:00.000-08:00

Suddenly blowfish feel that she at the top of the world....
Why? what happen blowfish?

Blowfish participate on KID(kulim innovation day) event today present on her project. Feel nervous from morning 8.30AM till 3PM as she the last presenter for the innovation event. Looking at all other presenter, their thing look so superb. Deep in blowfish heart, she know she wont win this year (sign of no self confident). Luckily blowfish friend + best friend keep on motivate blowfish tell blowfish that "U CAN".

After listen to 7presenter idea, blowfish know that blowfish have very little chance to win thus blowfish just want go up and just present for her project without put any hope :-p with this mindset blowfish heartbeat back to normal. Calmly go up the stair and present her project.

When finish presenting, judges start to ask blowfish question. First question blowfish already cant answer =.= blowfish really no idea what the judges trying to ask blowfish :-p luckily the judges very good, he say if i din go to so depth is ok :D

After judges question, it time for audience to raise question for blowfish. Suddenly all the audience very active post >2 question for blowfish luckily blowfish able handle it.

When go to time for announcing the result, blowfish pray that she can get second prize although blowfish know she not qualify :-p $$$ le everybody also want right :-p
First running up prize not fall to blowfish :S aiks abit sad ......
Come to first prize winner blowfish already tot want to leave the hall but based on emcee description seem like the winner is.........

BLOWFISH
YEAH! YEAH!YEAH!

Yes blowfish win the unexpected prize :D feel really happy. When boss congrate blowfish time, he suddenly tell blowfish that blowfish need to continue this trend next year as blowfish already be the winner for 2years must at least win 3times =.= hope he just joking else die la blowfish need to scratch head and think of new project.

习惯了寂寞

2009-11-19T04:09:00.000-08:00

一天天重复的生活
一天一天忙碌着
熟悉的陌生的都会擦肩而过

一天天寻寻觅觅着
一天一天等待着
属于我
属于我很简单的快乐
该不该那么执着
这一份爱怎样才能寄托

习惯了这样的寂寞
习惯了这样的生活

我期待一个人能够保护我
我期待一个人能和我分享快乐
属于我们的寂寞的快乐 ...

Disclaimer: this is lyric from one song which i think quite nice thus would like to share with u all.

random thought

2009-11-17T03:38:00.000-08:00

Several thing blowfish think of update. At first think want to write in chinese but too lazy to sit in front of laptop ping yin all the word and disturbing friend to help blowfish guess what word blowfish want to write and help blowfish ping yin it so think write in english still the fastest solution :-p

LOVE
If u think blowfish will write about ex again then u are wrong :-p, after talking about ex for so long time, it time to let story end la. Last weekend blowfish just take out all the letter and burn it, when burn the letter blowfish doesnt feel anything thought blowfish suppose to feel sad or sheed some tear but blowfish burn all the love evident just like tat :D
No heartbreak feel, No tear come out, No shaking hand when throw the letter to burn :-p
Sure all wondering why blowfish suddenly got courage to burn it???
Blowfish just think if keeping all the letter will hold u back then why keep it although in future u look back all this letter u will laugh but still blowfish think way to forget one thing is just eliminate it from your life :D

=.= blowfish thought u say u don want talk about ex anymore :-p why still talk long2 here???
The title love here actually refer to mother love. Recently really touch by mom. Can feel her deep2 love for her children.
Mom: Now i got nothing to worry except u, please take care yourself really sad see u suffer for allergy.
Blowfish: (Deep in heart blowfish feel warm can see mom really feel worry for blowfish. Aiks blowfish promise will try control the diet and make herself healthy)

Guess mom really worry blowfish feel stress, she sponsor blowfish to fix car, every weekend also got extra money :D Mom don worry la, blowfish din feel stress. It time for blowfish to learn how to control the cash flow.

Dont worry mom, your little gal is independent enough to withstand all the storm, even fall down she will able to stand up again. This the blowfish spirit: Never give UP!!!
Love u mom hope that blowfish can make u feel happy and don feel worry for blowfish, blowfish will take a good care of herself.
Thanks for all the love that u gave blowfish. Blowfish feel greatful for having u beside blowfish :D

*** Seriously think this entry should write in chinese so that can better describe the feeling deep inside blowfish heart.

Birthday celebration
Many ppl asking blowfish what she do during birthday???
Typically she doesnt do anything just go for lunch with colleagues and go dinner with best friend.
Get lotsa wishes from friend at facebook, email.
Dont know why blowfish not really like her birthday cox every year her wishes never come true even though the wishes just a simple one.
Luckily this year no birthday cake for blowfish so she don need make a wish :D
Thanks everyone for the lovely wishes.

Marathon
PG marathon event is held this weekend, Blowfish really hope can finish the journey in specific time and get cert for it. A series of training being done, jogging for one hour (end up walk like zombie :-p) , badminton, hiking + gym. Hope with all this training, blowfish stamina is enough to keep her running for 3hours. Cross finger blowfish can finish the run.
Thinking of marathon is fun however there are some minor techical issue :-p
Registration start at 2.45AM, bridge close by 12AM. If blowfish drive to PG by 11PM, where blowfish should go lepak to wait for the event???Feel reluctant to go disturb friend make them awake in midnight =.= still thinking.........
Luckily blowfish have nice division that offer blowfish to camp at his house :D
Problem solve, PG bridge Blowfish coming :D

KID
please don mistaken this as Kids aka children. KID here refer to kulim innovation day. Blowfish paper being selected for presentation. Last year blowfish paper buta2 win first price hoping this year same thing will happen but looking at the other paper title all sound like so xxxx how to fight la. Just try her best la. Blowfish got advantage also as got support from her best friend :D which really help her a lot in term of giving blowfish idea how to write good presentation, give blowfish motivation :D Thanks really appreciate it.
Wish blowfish good luck for this KID event :D

Feeling
Still happy swimming alone in the sea with her fish friend. Guess blowfish is kind of fish that suitable swim alone. She can enjoy the sweet time :D
However in order to keep blowfish from feel lonely guess blowfish need to set new target or dream for herself to busy with.
Hmm dream, this the tuff part. Blowfish really dont know what she want to achieve........
Let blowfish think2 tonight.

Life is wonderful let appreciate every moment we have. Eventhough we might suffering now but blowfish strongly believe after taste the bitter everyone will taste the sweet part of life also.

studio photo as per promised

2009-11-10T05:21:00.000-08:00

想哭

2009-11-10T03:37:00.000-08:00

忽然好想好好的哭一场，把不好的都哭走。
奈何当人越来越老眼泪就好像结冻了，心中的痛加上身上的痛真的让我好想放弃。
敏感再次侵袭我，眼看皮肤越来越严重心情无比的躁急，心中默默的祈求上天或任何可以解救我的力量把我从这恶梦中救醒。

我不在意那些疤痕只求敏感有一天远离我。
我不在乎那药有多苦只求它能帮我清除血的敏感。

上一世的我一定做了好多坏事不然为何这一世的我永无此境的受苦。
心开始觉得心灰意冷，好想自暴自弃，好想。。。。。
真的觉得自己好像白老鼠在尝试不同的药物，现在的我已久病成医，药物的名称已了如此掌但没一样可以永久把敏感从我的生命赶走。

每当妈妈看到我的皮肤都皱眉头外加摇头，妈说若有选择她愿意以我交换皮肤，心中暖暖的。这就所谓的爱吧！！！
这句话好熟悉仿佛在这前已有人对我说这一番话。
下星期又要打针了，嗨没法啦皮肤真的好严重了也为了让妈妈放心，纵然心中不是很想这样做，打完后必定发胖。心中真的好无奈呀！！！

哭也哭了，泪也干了，心也冷了，但这一却可以换回些什么呢？？？
放弃了又能怎样呢？？？
好想再和命运斗下去不任输，就允许自己颓废一个晚上吧！！！明天会更好不是吗？？？

Present from bf(best friend)

2009-11-03T07:19:00.000-08:00

Blowfish best friend just back from vacation, he bring blowfish souvenir that really meaningful for blowfish.

Why meaningful???
1. Blowfish keychain
got 2 fish in the key chain small fish inside the big fish
Look at the keychain really look like blowfish. Really like the key chain as it represent blowfish and blowfish sure BF buy this cox of this reason as well.

2. Elephant statue
According to best friend if the elephant touch your head they will bring luck for u. Think he really know blowfish no luck thus buy this statue for blowfish to help her in this area :D in this statue got 2 elephant inside as well, Yes luck x2 :D sure blowfish will start see light tomorrow issue all solve by itself.
Best friend say that he let the elephant touch his head and end up today he win prizes so regret cox never give him blowfish picture to let the elephant touch else today blowfish will be the lucky draw winner.
Or blowfish should blame her best friend as never bring the elephant statue for her.

3. Don know how to name this item :-p typically it is a vase whereby u can put candle in :D
Thanks best friend for not forget blowfish while travelling :D

Anxious night

2009-11-03T07:00:00.000-08:00

Dont know why today blowfish heart beat seem like abnormal keep on beat fast. If this cox she meet her prince then still OK at least blowfish meet her right one but too bad this not the case. Blowfish just feel worry about everyting aiks hormon get in balance again :-p.

Since last weekend, blowfish encounter a lot issue after blowfish keep on complain boring :-p think law of attraction really exist. By friday issue start say hi to blowfish =.=
Why friday !!!! Weekend Spoil.........
Throughout the weekend, blowfish bring phone with her. If the phone is away from her, she start get uneasy :-p really afraid if there is ppl call her to escalate issue.
Heartbeat increase.............
The angry part is the problem is not cause by blowfish but cox by stupid system. Everything is good before the new thing implement to blowfish operation after the thing implement blowfish in deep shit.
Everyday help ppl sweep the shit, feel frustrated but must maintain cool as blowfish really don want to spoil good relationship with partner. This really request high EQ.

Phew!!! luckily till now blowfish still able to control herself from blow up.
Thinking of effective confrontation, thinking of solution of issue, thinking of many2 thing......
Hope tonight not a sleepless night else office will have one panda tomorrow don need go zoo also can see panda :-p

Bet of the day

2009-10-21T05:39:00.000-07:00

After blowfish get free MCD yesterday, her friend come and ask for second bet :-p think he still cant accept the fact bluff by blowfish :-p
To be fair, blowfish let him place the bet item :D else all other friend say blowfish naughty go bully ppl :-p

Blowfish:" TQ for your MCD :D"
Friend:" want another bet???"
Blowfish:"Can2, what u want to bet today??? blowfish got bring wallet today to be fair let u place the bet criteria la :-p later say blowfish bluff you to treat me MCD susah :-p"
Friend:"Emm, want to bet who got more money in wallet??? else can bet who got more coin in wallet"
Blowfish:"Emm don want bet for coin cox blowfish wallet is full with coin sure lose la like tat :-p"
Friend:"ok let put this way, if now your wallet got new RM50 limited edition then u get one free meal, what meal u decide"
Blowfish:"huh really :D, new RM50 blowfish have la. But got limited edition one meh??"
Friend:" ya la, the one with merdeka logo at right hand corner and state RM50 there, i give u one week time go find and snap the RM50 with your face inside send to me then u can claim for your meal"
Blowfish:"I tot only got 2 type of RM50, one is old one, another one is new one la. Blowfish never aware wat is the picture on the money le. Let me go search"

Blowfish start to ask around and try to make sure whether the money that her friend ask for exist before she agree with the bet ( u know la gal always want win one :-p).
After ask around nobody really sure about the picture on the new RM50 :-p
Since not sure thus blowfish decline today bet with her friend :-p

Blowfish go for badminton, during dinner time blowfish succesfully exchange new RM50 with miss tour guide and find that the RM50 picture is showing merdeka logo where by u will see tunku abdul rahman shouting "merdeka!merdeka!"
After back to home, she quickly ping her friend and proudly show him the RM50 that they bet previously :-p but too bad no more free meal for today since blowfish decline this offer previously :S

Thanks friend for enlight blowfish day :-p now blowfish know how new RM50 look like. Don worry tomorrow blowfish turn to open for bet, blowfish will think a good bet and win another MCD from u.
Any idea what blowfish can bet with her friend and she sure win one???

photo taking session at studio

2009-10-20T04:26:00.000-07:00

Since 18's year old, blowfish plan go for photo taking session this wat ppl call “青春照” so in future we can view back during golden age how we look like but too bad tat time blowfish doesnt have much money to do so.
This item being put onhold for many........ years.

Until early this year, blowfish see family photo from her relative taken at one of the studio nearby, the photo look very nice this trigger blowfish on this old2 dream. Although this dream already put on hold for 10years hope it doesnt too late for that :-p but sure will have some degradation la :-p
Without further delay blowfish go enroll for photo taking session together with her cousin. After enroll, blowfish just put this aside doesnt really go for the photo session. U know why???
Cox that time blowfish is still very plum :-p what to do eat too much good thing in US, face round body round :-p thus photo taking session project being onhold.

Photo taking session being enroll and put onhold for half year, blowfish mom keep on ask blowfish go photo taking session as afraid will expired soon(valid for one year). Since blowfish already get rid of her round2 appearance and go back to POR state, time for photo taking session. Blowfish had go for photo taking session last weekend.
Guess sure a lot ppl want to know the result right??? :-p

Follow normal flow, blowfish always screw up last minutes :-p
Blowfish having insomia the day before the photo taking session :-p don know why blowfish brain just too active :S
Next day go to photo studio with blur2 brain, see blur2 gal help blowfish make up. The make up gal seem like very depress :-p face macam muka sekupang :-p but don care la as long she help blowfish do a good make up enough la.
Within half an hour make up done, when blowfish look at mirror really have a shock.
Shock here cox of the make up is too heavy especially the brushes. U know the brushes look like those make up for dead ppl :S
Blowfish company culture is to complain when u think thing is not right thus blowfish complain this to the shop owner but they not agree and claim that it will look nice in photo.
What blowfish can do??? just believe expert opinion lo.

Somehow end result show that we should not believe in expert opinion but should stick to own opinion as we know wat is the best for ourself :-p
Look at the picture blowfish really don like the make up, look very mature cox the make up too heavy. Blowfish think she can do a better make up for herself :-p
Other than make up, photo shooting skills by the cameraman is good. He teach blowfish posing and put a lot of nice background for blowfish.
Picture will be out this weekend hopefully they will help blowfish edit the make up part else @#$%^^!! don blame blowfish for complaining on their service :-p

Free MCD for dinner

2009-10-20T03:58:00.000-07:00

Today blowfish so happy as she have free MCD for dinner.
Why blowfish get free MCD???
hiak2!!!
Blowfish play some trick and successfully win one set MCD :-p
What trick blowfish play???

Story start point:
Blowfish:" recently blowfish really pokai la, pay insurance, go KL shopping :( "
friend:" I also very pokai wo, need you to treat me lunch"
Blowfish:" let bet see who wallet got more money that person need to treat the other half MCD, deal??"
(** in actual blowfish forgot to bring wallet to office that day, hiak2 sure win la like this :-p shhh dont tell blowfish friend else no free MCD d :-p)
friend:" okok, sure your wallet money more than me"
Blowfish:" ok, how much u have in your wallet??"
friend:" RMxxx, how about u??"
Blowfish:" hiak2!!! u need to treat blowfish MCD d :D"
friend:" why???"
Blowfish:" cox blowfish only got RM8.50 in pocket cox blowfish never bring wallet just borrow RM 10 from friend for breakfast :-p"
friend:" =.="

At first blowfish tot joking with this friend but today this friend really bring blowfish MCD deliver to blowfish cube on dinner time.
Blowfish so happy to eat free MCD.

Still remember during Uni time, blowfish not really like MCD cox blowfish doesnt like to eat bread. Somehow during final year blowfish being influence by her ex roomate, since then onwards blowfish crazy for MCD. Eat twice a week is normal thing for blowfish, especially when blowfish and ex roomate boring study whole day in room, MCD enlight our day :D
Too bad Kulim doesnt have MCD shop, need to travel to butterworth if really want to eat MCD.
Thus blowfish very happy if get chance to eat MCD in KM like what blowfish have today :D
Thanks friend :D

Hardrock Annual Dinner

2009-10-12T05:25:00.000-07:00

As per promise, blowfish share out annual dinner photo.
A lot ppl asking blowfish how the annual function???
Zero cost solution still working :D (YEAH!!! mission accomplish)
Blowfish manage to make up and hairdo by herself.

Start preparing since 2.30PM, take bath, dress up.....
Start make up while chatting with friend complain on blowfish lousy skills :-p
Due to lack of experience blowfish really sweating while make up :S really feel regret blowfish should just go to shop let ppl setup everything rather than do all by herself aiks.
No choice still need to continue make up with shaking hand :-p
After get advice from expert, blowfish start her make up by put powder, eye shadow(peach color), brushes and lastly lipstick. Look in front mirror still can recognize ownself means SuCCESSFul :D

Next step - start hairdo.
Previously try tie look nice but on tat day blowfish try tie many time cant get the effect that blowfish want :S, put a lot gel to curl the hair but the hair look very messy due to time constraint just cant do anything to help it :-p
HAI once again blowfish really think next round should not go for ZERO cost solution :-p

If ask blowfish rate herself on that night, blowfish will fail herself :-p
Totally out of the theme :-p not 70/80's appearance from head to toe :-p
Start to feel nervous+ feel out :-p.

Once step to hardrock hotel, start photo taking. Blowfish doesnt bring camera cox blowfish doesnt know where her camera go :-p (biasa la cannot expect too much from big prawn head). Get some ppl to take some picture for blowfish, blowfish doesnt take much photo that night will post more photo once get update from friend :D.

Overall food on that night is ~~so so expect for the first dishes. Other than that either tasteless or too salty :-p end up our stomach is still empty when the last dishes is serve :-p. Although the food is lousy but overall performance for that night is not bad cox they invite a MC that is good joking. Few times blowfish cant help herself laugh till stomachache, face also pain :-p

Forget to mention that blowfish win "miss gorgeous" during that night :-p really a big surprise for blowfish when she saw her picture on the screen. When they announce the winner is MISS YONG, blowfish stunt there :-p
Walk to stage gently (blowfish try to walk slowly but unagi still comment that blowfish walk more fast then the hunk :-p), shake hand with the manager get the voucher next step sure la run away from stage :-p
Cameraman :" hey!hey! not yet snap picture la"
Blowfish too gelabah tat time doesnt aware that blowfish need to pose in front the camera :-p guess blowfish just a clumsy gal :-p
kesian at the camera man cox no chance to snap picture =.="

Next month is our department dinner, guess blowfish doesnt want to use ZERO COST SOLUTION anymore, just go to shop sit there let ppl help blowfish to setup and go attend the party without feel stress :D

Annual dinner

2009-10-08T22:05:00.000-07:00

Today is our company annual dinner. This event held in hardrock hotel PG.
Prior this event a lot of preparation work for gals.
From head to toe........
This year the theme is "A Glance Back In Time" where by all should wear follow 70's/80's .
After read the title, one idea flash thru blowfish mind......

Zero cost solution: "Borrow my mom dress hiak2, put hair bend which blowfish had"

However blowfish mom doesnt keep any of the old dress :'(

Oh No!!!! Zero cost solution not workable......

What the next option??? (next question flash thru blowfish mind)

Open up wardrobe, screen for possible candidate(dress)......

Aiks, cant get any dress that match this title la..... How la :'(

End up blowfish decide to wear the normal dinner dress that she buy from US although doesnt match the theme but at least wont become the outlier :D

After select few dress, blowfish start trying out the dress.

=.=" this face show up when blowfish try the dress.

What happen blowfish???

After blowfish slim down the dress become too loose la, blowfish should feel happy or sad :-p

Finally after get professional opinion from blowfish mom, blowfish decide to wear green color dress to this function cox this dress still not too loose just nice on blowfish :D

Mission accomplish ;D

Another item that make blowfish headache is make up thing. Blowfish doesnt have experience on this area la. Although blowfish buy full set of make up set from US but never use it. Time to start some DOE in order to make sure blowfish wont look funny :-p.

pink, peach, brown, dark brown, purple, blue all colour blowfish try but all look weird on blowfish. =.="

How la???

Read thru magazine, follow their instruction to put on the eye shadow. At last blowfish find color that she think presentable.

Hope later blowfish still able come out with presentable make up la.

Make up selection done, how about hair blowfish???

since blowfish hair is curly so guess blowfish will just use some clip to pin up the hair :D (ZERO COST!!!) hiak2

Abit guilty, see all gal in office is talking about go hairdo and make up in salon but blowfish do all by herself :-p

Now all ppl already back home start prepare for tonight event but blowfish still lengang2 writing blog in office.

Blowfish later please don screw up :-p

Ok la better blowfish go home now, relax, watch some movie then start dress up for the event.

缘分

2009-10-07T05:52:00.000-07:00

世间万物的形成皆因为缘分。
缘分让你投胎在你现在的家，
缘分让你邂逅你生命中重要的人与物，
缘分让你学会从失败中成长，
缘分让你学会什么是惜缘。

当上天把最好的东西献给你，记得要惜缘，别一味希望得到更多须知人的欲望是无尽的。
时时感谢及感恩你所拥有的，你不一定拥有比别人多但若懂得及时惜缘，心中致富那我相信你是天底下的智者。

若当下的你觉得生活很困难，别气馁，换个角度看待问题你可能发现事情并没那么糟。每个挫折都是一把力道把你推向前方，若细心回顾以往的挫折你是否发现你从当中学会了好多人生宝贵的一课。

上个星期我又走在人生的低潮期，一度怨天尤人，把一却归咎于运气。
当静下来的萨那，默然发现其实这一却所唯的坏运气其实是源于自己的没耐性。若驾驶时，我可以再小心点，有耐性一点，那无辜的小狗就不会无辜牺牲。痛定思过后，我答应自己不再危险驾驶，不再没耐性，毕竟生命没take 2，别再作出令自己遗憾的事。但一时要改掉坏习惯谈何容易呢？？？但我一定会加油的.

lower end of sinusoidal part2

2009-09-28T04:42:00.000-07:00

First time after so long time, blowfish feel so down. blowfish swim to the lower end of the sinusoidal again.
What happen blowfish???

Blowfish bang a lorry on sunday, the car door is penyek :(
the stupid lorry park at the road entrance, blowfish not aware enuf on the distance and here we go Bang!
At first blowfish still tot blowfish just hit the rubber part of the lorry but haiz actually the rubber part that blowfish tot is metal =.="""
Deep in blowfish heart @#$%^!!! STUPID LORRY
Blowfish is going to pokai this month, go shop in KL, pay insurance almost all salary gone d. Now bang lorry somor issss......
since the car still can drive just ignore the ugly door la :-p wait until next month.
Sorry my little poor car ruined your handsome appearance. Please forgive your master.

Monday normal is a good start for the week but too bad today blowfish did one bad thing. Blowfish accidently hit a doggy which try to cross the road. Blowfish did slow down the car, hope the dog can run fast enuf. However blowfish car is speeding during that time (80km/j) by the time the doggy cross half way blowfish just hit the doggy. ouch!!!! blowfish was in trauma hard stop the car nearly hit tiang at roadside. When look back from side mirror, there is nothing on the road not sure doggy able to run away but blowfish really think blowfish hit the doggy. Deep in heart blowfish really feel sorry for the doggy, blowfish really wish blowfish is the one who get injured and not the doggy. Blowfish really scare of the feeling where by u owe ppl something that forever un-returnable.
Pray for the doggy is the only thing blowfish can do for it.
SORRY doggy, if there is chance to flash back blowfish will select hit the tiang or go into other side rather then hit u.
Hope doggy can die peacefully and lead a good life. SORRY
SORRY really help anything??? Guess NO, this just let blowfish less guilty feel.
Think blowfish to change to vegetarian since blowfish really cause so many innocent life(doggy+kitty) dies like tat :(

Today is just simply not blowfish day, when first open the mailbox, lotsa issue come in most of it is Xfile. Really catch no ball why it happen, till now still feel confuse. Hai how to solve it la!!! Suddenly feel extremely tension, extremely down, extremely guilty,extremely.......
A lot of feeling coming in
In conclusion blowfish feel uncertain about many2 thing.........

Blowfish hope that she will find the strenght to continue on......
Like she always do.....
Let pray for her.....

女孩的故事

2009-09-15T05:56:00.000-07:00

很久很久以前在一个小村庄里住着一位小女孩，从小女孩就被人捧在手心里疼。慢慢的养成女孩傲慢的性格，女孩有一点点的任性，一点点的固执与一点点小姐脾气。女孩就这样在父母的呵护中无忧无虑的成长。

女孩长大后结识了一位她认为可以付托终生的伴侣，对方也有如女孩的父母疼爱这女孩。女孩感到好幸福好感谢上天对她的厚爱。好像每段感情一样小两口还是禁不起时间的考验，原因无它，当初的感觉不在了，在的只有对这段感情负责任。虽说女孩感到他并不是她的理想伴侣但她还是觉得没有人可以像他那么好了就这样的爱情的火花升华成为感情。女孩以为他俩可以相守到永远就如童话故事里的王子与公主奈何他遇上了另一个让他动心的女孩，童话梦灭，女孩跌得好痛好痛。虽说女孩明白他俩并不适合在一起但分手的刹那，女孩的心开始冷却不再憧憬未来只是努力活在当下。

不知不觉一年又一年的过去了，女孩依然孤单一个人等待，等待些什么她不知道。身旁有好多对女孩好的男孩但无论他们再好女孩还是觉得无法投入一段新的感情。其中一位令女孩好感动，感动的当儿还有更多的亏欠感因为女孩好怕别人对她好而她最终还是要伤男孩的心。女孩好怕面对男孩，他越是对她好，她越是逃避。女孩尝试考虑他们之间发展的可能但内心除了怕还是怕，女孩觉得男孩是一位好好先生将来还会是个好丈夫但女孩总觉得如此好的男孩应该找一个体贴的女孩而不是看上一个任性的女孩，女孩好希望男孩会遇上一个比她好一万倍的女孩共度一生别再花时间在女孩的身上。女孩心中默默的祝福男孩，希望他幸福。

梦想= =天涯流浪记

2009-09-02T06:30:00.000-07:00

最近忽然蒙起一个想法，好想学洋人放下一切流浪。

好想把谨有的钱买机票到外国找一份工养活自己，即使是一份小二的差事都无所谓只要可以每天无忧无虑的过生活。在每个地方呆上一段时间，探讨别人的文化及生活方式。好喜欢了解别人的文化，感受历史如何改变人们。每回上历史课我都很精神我想一定好多人会说我变态 :-p

当今的社会教育真的健康一味教导人们重物质享受，渐渐的人们就忘了其实想拥有好的生活不一定是要不断的创造财富而是感恩现在所拥有的。在我的眼中钱只是一个数字用来维持生活，从没好好计划赚钱大计反观身旁的朋友都积极的归划将来，真的好惭愧。我想我比较喜欢自由自在的生活不想为了钱而烦，钱嘛只要够用就好。

人生在世实在有太多的包袱及责任不是说放下就放下。
放不下父母，他们含辛茹苦的把我养大当然要好好伺候他们到百年归老。
当我不再有责任的负担我希望我真的可以实现这梦想，若能邂逅和我相同梦想的人那我想我的人生真的是太美满了。
就让我把这梦想推后到xxx年，若父母能长命百岁我愿意放弃这梦想。
可能未来我有了自己的家庭开始了新的责任（当别人的老婆，妈妈），那这天涯流浪记的梦想就会成为纸上谈兵。
梦想让每个人好期待未来，祝大家美梦成真。

不停留

2009-09-01T07:54:00.000-07:00

佛说人不应该限局自己在框框里，要明白世间万物是变化无常，若能学会不停留的真理定能帮你脱离心中的苦。

何谓不停留呢???
最好的比例就如水，无论它流到那里，它都能随意随着容器的形状而改变没有东西可以改变它，如此随心所意的。纵使环境不停的改变但没有东西可以改变它。

不停留，在过去美好回忆，
再美好的回忆都已随风而去何不向前望，今早得晓远方朋友无故身亡直憾事世无常，活在当下珍惜生命的每一刻。

不停留，在自创的安全地带，
选择停留在安全地带不是不好但若不向前走我们可能会错过前方的机会，就如水般随意的流吧。

不停留，在期待精彩的故事，
精彩的故事不是上天安排给我们而是靠我们去创造的，

不停留，在守候自己的信念，
不是说信念不好而是我们该多听听旁人的意见，太过于自负要不得。

期待苦尽甘来的一天

2009-08-10T04:27:00.000-07:00

苦尽甘来在这儿是指
苦尽- 药的苦味道可以尽快离开我的生活。
甘来- 别无所求，只希望从此可以健健康康的过生活。
自三年前，离开大学到鸟不生蛋的居林工做，原本无瑕的皮肤开始患上敏感症。
原以为每没什么大不了只是几粒小红点，没想到它越来越严重，好后悔没认真看待这小毛病，一切都好像太迟了。
回想起这三年的路程，好心酸。
四处寻医，好几次还遇到没良心的医生。。。。
1 Klinik Arun - 为了让皮肤好转，忍痛每天去打针, 足足打了一个星期，手每一处都被打得黑青，然而病情并没好转，人还发福。
2 江沙中医 - 擦类以泥巴的药在伤口，据说可以把里面的毒血清理。每回擦那药都好痛，还要忍痛拿竹括伤口直到鲜血不停的流，好几次我都误以为我是活在地狱里，每天都好怕回家，好怕擦药。。。。
与药褒做朋友的滋味不好受，药的苦永远比不上心中的苦。

经过漫长的三年抵抗敏感，失去的真的好多好多，
原以为会一直支持我的他离我而去，完好无暇的皮肤不复再。。。。
每回别人一直往我的脚望去，我好想把我的脚藏起来，好想问“看什么看没看过吗？？？”

还好我终以遇到了我生命中的贵人，那中医妙手回春帮我条理好身子，现在只需诫口别吃些对身子敏感的食物即可。脚上的疤痕也有改善希望它快快和我说再见。

珍惜所拥有的健康。
苦尽甘来指日可待。

回忆是最美？？？

2009-08-04T06:08:00.000-07:00

原想停止写部落格但看到朋友的留言忽然启发我的灵感。

回忆是否最美？？？
当你拥有时不觉得什么大不了，一旦失去或默然回首才惊觉失去的永不复还，一切已成追忆。人真的好奇怪越是得不到的就成为心中最想得到的东西，一切痛苦的来源就因为心中的那份执著。

回忆是否最美？？？
是的，回忆好美，它记载着我们所走过的岁月。当一切成败都成空留下的就是足够陪你过一世的回忆，让你慢慢的回味当中的酸甜苦辣。

回忆是否最美？？？
相信大家多少有一些不好的回忆，是否想把它删掉？？奈何回忆就像永远无法被我们到达的角落，你可以不去想它但它永远存在你的记忆中。试着坦然的去面对它吧！！！越是逃避越是碰到这你想忘了的角落。

回忆永远是最美的。

夜

2009-07-28T08:23:00.000-07:00

沉寂的夜
静得好像连虫儿都不在啼鸣
夜静
心更静
沉寂一刻
放任思绪涌上心头

路边的街灯，
也是头低低地孤寂而谦卑
街上没行人
却依然打亮着
我会笑它吧
为何颈项那么硬
我想它见我应如是
我也不是在等着一个今夜不会出现的你吗？？？

注：原文源自朋友的部落格。

忽然

2009-07-28T06:50:00.000-07:00

忽然间异常的想念那熟悉的。。。。。。（还是别说好，不然好多人又会摇头）
忽然好想念以前的时光，每天都享受自由自在的生活，有一大班的室友，同学一起拚命k书，一起疯，一起作弄别人，一起吃喝玩乐，一起说长道短，一起。。。。。。
原来有人陪你度过生命中每一天是件美好的事情。

随着时间的步行，曾一起走过几个年头的死党最终必须个奔东西开始人生的另一段旅程。
思念就像一颗巨大的石头压着我的心，好想念“一起。。。。”的日子。
忽然的感慨想是因为当年龄不断的增长朋友们开始有自己的生活，有自己的家庭，有伴侣，相聚的机会也相等的减少，孤单一个人的我有时真的会忽然想说：“忽然好想你们，好想一起走过的日子”
若有相聚的机会我一定会把握。

上个星期才出席朋友举办的"potluck"，每人都买些东西到朋友家相聚。能再一次与分别已久的朋友相聚，心中说不出的喜悦。

聚会我们买了好多食物，但食物只是配角，主角当然是大家。大家互相问好，互相交流，述说近况
好珍惜我们之间的缘分，友谊万岁

原点

2009-07-28T06:09:00.000-07:00

不知道大家會不會有這樣的感覺...　其實任何事都一樣　總是繞了一大圈之後又回到了最初的自我所以人更應該懂得知足　而不是無止盡的追求深不見底的慾望　
有時候最簡單　最原始的　最初的或許才是最好...
有些人或許常常在抱怨自己不夠快樂　不夠幸福　不夠富有　
但其實你跌到谷底的時候不滿足　飛到雲端還是會不滿足...
當然我的意思並是說這一大圈是白繞了　而是應該抱著美好的心情去追尋自己的可能性　
而不是總是怨天尤人就算會回到原點　也還是走了一遭　任何喜怒哀樂都是你的回憶...
跌了跤也好　遇到挫折失敗也好　回頭看看自己的原點　那最簡單的生活　其實並沒有那麼糟　對吧？

幸福

2009-07-27T06:00:00.000-07:00

每个人幸福的定义都不同，有人觉得拥有钱，权利，理想伴吕。。。。。。。。
我个人觉得：

暖暖的幸福
每天早晨有人比你早醒然后把你从被窝里叫醒，为你准备简单的早餐，一杯热腾腾的饮料，饮料热腾腾但心却是温温的。
（谢谢妈, 为我牺牲睡眠提早为我把所有的东西都准备好）

被呵护的幸福
虽说我觉得我是个独立自主的人（请别反肚:-p）但也不介意有时享受被呵护的感觉。女人嘛，该懂得几时须要独立，几时需要依赖。

简单的幸福
简单听起来好像很容易但到了我这个年龄简单不再简单，可能是思想变得现实吧？？？

幸福=拥有忠实的聆听者
习惯把不愉快的事物说出来原因无它只不想把自己活活给憋死，希望不会未老先变成长气。
最近发现我忠实的聆听者（妈）变得好聪明，我只说了开场白她已帮我猜到我特意隐藏的“意示“
举个例子吧：
我：“年底好多朋友结婚哦”
妈：“每个人的缘分都不同，有些人的路比较好走，有些比较难”
扯太远了吧？？？：-p

幸福=知道你不是孤单的。
孤单是当你再也找不到在身旁默默支持你的人。虽说这世上没人少了谁活不成，但当你想放弃，需要别人支持时，这位默默守候在你身旁的人可以为你加油让你有重新冲刺，走下去的勇气。我不怕跌倒只因我懂就算失败，家永远是我的避风港。

还有好多的幸福还没写下来但眼皮已慢慢的掉下来，没法啦明天再与你们分享。
原来睡觉也是一种幸福。
晚安

习惯

2009-07-16T20:22:00.000-07:00

习惯每天早晨上健身室。
没法啦！这都是为了前阵子自暴自弃的结果让体重，胆固醇飙升，现在就得咬紧牙根调养身体务必把病毒赶得远远的。

习惯每个周五回家。
若没法必须留居林我就再也提不起精神，居林真的那么恐怖吗？？？
可能没有吧，只是若不回家，心中忽然感觉到有一个无法填满的空洞，而这空洞就是寂寞感的来源。觉得只有我一个人在一个小房间面对着四面墙，悲哀啊！！！
看来我还是避免独自一个人留在居林不然又会开始胡思乱想。

习惯每周日爬山。
对于爬山真是又爱又恨。当爬得汗流峡背时，心中难免会诅咒几百回，当完成任务时，心中有说不出的满足感。慢慢的漫步走下山是种享受，听树叶掉落的声音，听溪水流动的声音，听昆虫的声音，闻着树发出的树香，看这一片绿色的森林，心中感到异常的平静。

习惯想念那模糊的影像。
若此时叫我告诉你谁存在这影像里，我只感觉到模糊的背影和一种永不复回的甜蜜与苦涩回忆。
每回单独一个人时那模糊的背影就会出现挥之不去。越是想念那熟悉又陌生的背影就会越来越模糊，假以时日我相信这背影会慢慢的消失。那时侯可能会有新的影像让我想念。

习惯珍藏旧事物。
若问我是否是个怀旧的人，答案-〉是的，我百分百怀旧。
我是否应该把所有旧情书烧毁，好几次说让妈妈把它烧毁但每回心中总是会感到非常的不舍。收藏着这些信但再也没勇气去翻看它，信中的讯息还历历在目但一切已人事已非。心中除了感到无奈还是无奈。

听说

2009-07-16T06:46:00.000-07:00

听说有一个男生默默喜欢一个女生长达3年之久。
听说这男生从3年前邂逅这女生就觉得这女生是这公司最美的女生（大概就是人们所说的一见钟情）
听说这男生默默守侯这女生但却始终拿不出勇气向女生示爱。
故事发展到这阶段，两人就有如玩着猜谜游戏。

本人之看法：
注：这纯粹是本人的想法不代表故事中的主角也有相同的想法。
男方：
不敢采起行动原应无它只是怕唐突佳人，在没百分百确定女方的意愿，怎么也不敢表白生怕会被拒决连朋友也做不成。唯一可以做的就只是默默守侯，默默付出希望佳人会有一天会感觉到他的存在，然后有美好的结局。
虽说我好欣赏这类男生，世上真的有这类无条件付出的人吗？？？
（我相信有这一类的人因为我遇上了，只能说谢谢）
虽说表白可能失败但至少可以明白佳人的想法。若佳人有相同的感觉那恭喜恭喜，若相反那也无碍至少了解佳人的想法。

女方：
居然男方没表示那就是说人家只当你是朋友咯不必费心。虽说连盲人都看得出男方的底牌是什么，但男方不说难道要女方说吗？？？若实情与猜想有出入那丑就出大了。所以无论如何一定要男方先开口才说出心中想法。若真的迷惑了就躲起来想想。但做女生的还是别太过于敏感这样会少为自己自造麻烦。
简单的道理：每说就等于没什么，继续做朋友。

Story1,2,3,4,5

2009-07-15T05:09:00.000-07:00

Really find that recently blowfish always talk about life wonder is it blowfish getting older start like to give lecture or blowfish getting more wise in thinking process. Thus today doesnt want to write anything about thinking just a daily story update :D

Story1
Happen to talk with friend thru IM few days ago........
Friend:" how life??"
blowfish:"go read my blog la, blowfish got update there"
Friend:"really everyday sport？？
blowfish:":D ya la"
Friend:"sound very systematic :-p"
blowfish:"wah so diplomatic ar want to say dull say la"
Friend:"actually want to say robotic"
Suddenly think that blowfish life really become more routine sometime really feel life is dull.
But like what blowfish share previously blowfish just wish to life simple life, no up and down in life, no gain thus wont experience the pain of lost.
Hope life is robotic but body don become robotic need to tune it thru exercise :-p

Story2
Blowfish:" how life?? got wife d, any different compare to previous???"
Friend:"still the same, when u want to become ppl wife???"
Blowfish:"nobody want me wo so no choice la just can be ppl daughter for time being"
Still remember ppl say god create human in pair, u will meet your pair when the time come :D
Blowfish strongly agree with this, right timing right people then happy ending.

Story3
Congratulation for lao weng, his house got new family member :D
Wish small bb grow up healthy, full with happiness.

Story4
Blowfish mom just back from hongkong, she call and complain that relative all afraid of her(not her la blowfish think they afraid of H1N1) :-p just ask her to quanrantine herself for one week before go meet any ppl. Even blowfish also din dare to go home :-p(joking la, blowfish just go back during weekend only tat time ngam2 one week quanrantine :D)

Story5
Yesterday while waiting shuttle to go other factory plant, suddenly a car stop by offer to fetch blowfish go there. Blowfish know this guy(just see before la :-p). Go in the car sure start introducing process :-p. He comment that the way blowfish play badminton really ganas doesnt match with her appearance :-p this one blowfish know. Many ppl being bluff by blowfish appearance. Actually blowfish not soft type gal la don tertipu by her appearance :-p
know another new friend :D

可以

2009-07-10T01:33:00.000-07:00

快樂,可以多簡單?

快樂是发自内心，可以因为很简单的事物而感到快樂。最重要是懂得欣赏身边的事物。但人越长大对快樂的定义慢慢的提升。渐渐看是简单的快樂越来越难得。是人的心思变复杂还是快樂已离我们而去???

記憶, 可以多甜?

每一步脚步都为我们的人生留下美丽的脚印，而这些脚印组成了美丽的記憶。当然有时这脚印充满污垢，但它必竟是我们人生路的一部分。少了这一部分我们的人生会不会少了什么呢？？？

若上天再给我选择我想我不会想把記憶的任何部分珊掉。只祈求在未来的日子里我会活得无悔。

生命, 可以多渺小?

神真的拥有巨大的力量，单看它如何创造小生命就知道。生命其实很渺小，今天还活着的人可能在下一刻与生命告别。生命可以从渺小的细胞组成新生命，我相信当每一位为母者看到这渺小的生命会感到很感动。

感情, 可以貼多近?

感情的贴近并不是你多努力把对方拥进怀里或无时无刻感觉到对方的存在，而是两颗心紧紧得扣在一起，不管距离多遥远都不会让感情动摇。心灵上的交会是感情的精华所在。

孤獨, 可以多無奈?

今天听朋友说一个人不孤单，但思念一个人才感到孤单。此时我并没思念任何人与事物所以并不感到孤獨。孤獨感的产生是因为心中有太多空间，不知如何填满心中的空洞。信仰能让心归位，安心。若心有了停放的地方，就算孤獨也不無奈。让我觉得无奈的事是那些我想改变但改变不了的事情，既然改变不了就只好接受。

友情, 可以多恆久?

虽然我不相信天长地久这一句成语但我相信友情可以永恒。若你有真心为你付出的朋友恭喜你，拥有可贵的友情及爱情那是幸福的人生。谢谢那些当我是朋友的朋友，我真的很珍惜我们之间的缘分。友谊万岁。

肥与瘦之间

2009-07-09T07:52:00.000-07:00

真的觉得我被小燕子影响不少，竟然爱上改别人的词。今天部落格的题目其实是源自朋友的部落格明称“冷与热之间”，真的对不起把这优雅的词改到充满俗气的词，希望我不会被投诉：-p

还记得当我从美国回国，我妈差点人不得我，知道为什么吗？？？
这是因为她的可爱女儿脸蛋竟然圆得像一粒气球。
之前我还自以为可以去美国闭门修练，在回国前变瘦变美无奈世事总是事与愿违。没办法啦，我太喜欢快餐及煎炸食物。每回站在秤上面心跳加速，但每回看到美味的食物所有担心就不知跑到哪里藏起来。我总是有办法让自己相信情况并没这么糟，我想这想法就是一股力量让我时常都可以苦中作乐。原来想要活得开心，人一定要学会欣赏自己。

情况维持到几个月前，第一次莫名其妙的被一位同事嘲笑因为我比她重。虽然我并没介意但总觉得当众踩低别人抬高自己的行为要不得。我并没因此而减肥，继续我行我素。直到一阵子忽然发现好多衣服好像缩水了才发现是时侯该行动了。当同事约我一同去健身室（早上6。30), 我毫不考虑就答应了。刚开始时真的好难在约定的时间起床，好几次还成了飞机王。慢慢的上健身室成了生活的一部分，在闹钟还没响起，我已苏醒。生活也开始规律化。

第一个月好想放弃因为每当我站在秤上体重还是没改善（其实这小姐还是没减少食物量）。还好自我勉励有效的鼓励我继续下去。终于在努力了几个月体重下了3KG，好高兴，现在终于可以重新穿上我爱的衣服。

短短的几个月我感觉了肥与瘦之间的差别，觉得肥或瘦都不重要，最重要的是活得健康。
让我们一起向健康的生活迈进。

平淡

2009-07-06T23:59:00.000-07:00

多谢老翁关心我，一看到我在的网上写“平淡”就向我问好。
平淡 =！闷
那一定很多人问平淡不是代表沉闷，那代表什么？？？
平淡其实是指心里得到安定。因为没有患得之心，就没患失之苦。

突然发现，在经历过所有的风风雨雨，原来那些过这平淡日子的人才是最幸福。
在寻寻觅觅中，才懂得欣赏这所谓的平淡生活。

人的心中总是有无尽的愿望，希望自己有钱，有地位，有完美的情人。。。。。。。。。。
无尽的愿望正是痛苦的来源，若你拥有它，你还是会坐立不安，为什么呢？？？
因为拥有那就会害怕失去，从不想原本的我们原本并不拥有什么。

若拥有会让人活在失去的恐惧中那为何不学会放弃。虽然，讲永远容易比作容易，但我还是很努力学习放下。若我的速度慢请多多包含，所有的道理我都懂，奈何事与愿违，就让时间帮我打开回忆的枷锁做个笑看人生的智者。

现在的我并没什么愿望，只要平淡的过每一天，心可以有很多空位去领会佛的真理。
再没有愿望，只有一心向佛的心。我想第一件事要做的是消除杂念，静心修养，放慢脚步与周围事物调协。
我还是初学者，真希望我可以明白其中的真理。一切是缘分。随缘吧。。。

微笑

2009-07-06T05:05:00.000-07:00

最近我发着还珠格格的烧。还记得第一次看这一部戏是在中五，当时还一度觉得若可以活在古代那该有多好。
还记得那时的我还学着戏中的主角扎同样的发型，若有机会再和大家分享照片。

嘿！你的题目是微笑但为何你越扯越远？？？
没办法啊！！！我就是沉迷看这一部戏。
其实我只想把小燕子的一摺文章“饮水论”改成“微笑论”。

人人都要微笑，早上要微笑，下午要微笑，晚上要微笑，小孩要微笑，大人也要微笑，小猫也微笑，小也微笑，大的也微笑。。。。

我想若我再写下去很多人会忍不住抱怨说我胡言乱语，请多多包含这超级还珠格格戏迷。
好喜欢看旧照片，记得小时侯，好容易满足所以时常为了些小事情而高兴一整天。那时的微笑是多么的天真无邪。但跟着时间，环境的改变，慢慢的那微笑不见了。人的心也越来越冷漠。为了怕被伤害而建上一层又一层的防卫。

真心的微笑越来越陌生，连自己也分不清几时真心微笑，几时只是礼貌的微笑。
看着看着旧照片，真的觉得那最真的微笑不见了，取而代之的是有着浓浓的沧桑感的微笑（朋友的说法）。

微笑是发自内心，学会对别人微笑。在冲忙中放慢脚步，对你身边的人微笑那不会花很多时间但它可以帮你建立美好的人生。

每天微笑可以让人长命百岁。
若不习惯对人微笑那可试试对镜子练习。
看到我是别忘了跟我微笑，你的微笑对我来说是世上最美的色彩。

勇气

2009-07-01T02:32:00.000-07:00

踏出第一步的勇气。
人嘛太习惯把自己留在安逸地带，抗拒改变。原因无它只因没人肯为不知数的未来而牺牲当下拥有的一切。但若不踏出第一步拿我们将永远不会知道我们错过什么。
让大家一起拿出勇气，勇敢向美好的未来说声好。

坦白的勇气
很多时候因为担心会得不到别人的谅解而不敢坦白。原以为善意的慌言但且因为要圆第一个谎言而篇更多的慌言。为何害怕得不到别人的谅解呢？？我相信了解你的人会体谅你，站在你的立场为你想。不了解你的人你又何必在乎他呢？？？

接受失败的勇气
好一句“自己跌倒，自己爬起来“，跌倒虽痛但每个失败的背后都有值得吸收的教训。从失败中学习。接受失败也是一门学问。相信只有放下心中的执著每人都可以做到淡然面对成败。

爱人的勇气
别以为爱一个人像电影里的情景那么简单只要说“我爱你”然后承诺一些一生一世。在学会爱别人之前，因该先学会爱自己。爱情就像一场赌博，你永远无法知道那人是不是你的MR RIGHT直到你勇敢走向前。世上没有100%的人只有50%的2个人。学会欣赏，包容另一半。

走下去的勇气
放弃固然比留下容易但放弃之后呢？？？既然不想放弃那当然要与命运周璇到底永不言败。
加油哦

梦

2009-06-29T20:10:00.000-07:00

这部落格原名是 Dream Seeker ->追梦者，当然必需写一些与梦有关的故事 :D

事业有关的梦想
小时候希望可以当医生因为大家都说医生能赚大钱所以傻傻的跟同学门一起发医生梦。
渐渐的随时间的改变，医生梦也跟着改变原因无它只是觉得血会让人昏倒。
医生梦灭只好发些和日常生活有关的梦，你知道是什么吗？？？

当时好沉迷电视节目所以爱发梦的我时常想若有一天我可以当上演员那该有多好。
但我也很羡慕那些模特儿可以每天打扮得飘飘亮亮，走舞台。
无奈我并没有姣好的面孔也没有魔鬼的身材，所以只好自知量力的把这梦想冷臧起来。把这梦寄望到下一世。

演员和模特儿梦被寄望到下一世，那这一世我的梦大概是成为女强人。
为什么是女强人呢？？？
女强人须要作些什么我不知道，我想当女强人是因为女强人听起来让人觉得强，。

不知不觉中长大了，我并没有达成小时候的梦想反而当了人们所谓的工程师。
哎，真的觉得小时候的梦好像在发白日梦

爱情有关的梦想
小时候特别喜欢与表妹谈关于未来的白马王子。大家一致认为未来的另一半应该是位英俊，有钱。
大概我们都被偶像剧所影响，开始期待童话式的相遇。

渐渐的发现，童话式的相遇只限于电影里。人还是现实一点比较好。
终于不再追求不实际的东西，老老实实的谈一次恋爱。
条件放得不高只要那人对我好，重视我那就足够了。
真的觉得好幸福被人捧在手心，被守护。

现在我想我并没有设定任何条件，只希望可以找到和我相守的人。
手牵手一起到白首的人。
两人互相鼓励，互相扶持，患难与共。

梦让人生变得有色彩，让人生充满希望。
希望你美梦成真。

原来。。。

2009-06-29T02:05:00.000-07:00

原来和药作伴是一种痛。。。
虽然药的味道是苦的但是为了身体健康只好忍痛（苦）把它喝完
除此之外，为了让父母安心。
喝药的固然痛苦但是父母那份苦心是不容忽略的。

原来人总是要在失去才懂得珍惜。。。
总是在失去才懂得拥有的珍贵，但破了的镜子又怎样能复原呢？？？
只好在失败中吸起经验，在未来不再犯同样的错误。
珍惜眼前人及事物。

原来被一条线把三个人绑在一起会让人不能呼吸。
家家都有难念的一本经，然而心里的苦衷还是说不出口。
但愿一切会随时间改变而变好。
但愿。。。

原来被人呵护是一种幸福。。。
若有人守护在你身旁，恭喜你。

原来永恒是不存在的。。。
地球每分每秒都在转，连地球也无法创造永恒何况是渺小的人类呢？？？

原来拥有信仰可以让人的心归位。。。
心经是一本帮助迷失的世人找回之自我的佛书。
若是每人都明白其中的道理，放下执著，让心中更富有。

原来思念一个人可以很甜蜜也可以很无奈。
回忆是苦或甜蜜真的是见仁见智。。。

原来拥有人生目票可以让人迅速迈向未来。
目票是一盏灯，照亮前方的路。

原来拥有知心朋友是一种幸福。
一起分享快乐，悲伤

原来若是要认真写一篇文章是要用很长的时间。：-p
原来没用心学华文会让人写作不通奈何只有华文能传达我的想法

A letter from ah beng to ah hua

2009-06-23T00:12:00.000-07:00

最爱的Ah hua：

最近Ah Hua觉得我不够爱你，其实我觉得Ah Hua是因为距离的关系，觉得我们的关系疏远了。只要我在你的身边，我想Ah hua就不会这样寂寞了。你最近常说我们之间没有心灵相通，可是世界上真的有心灵相通吗？我觉得你所谓的心灵相通只不过是因为两个人的生活经验有某些共同的地方，以至于他们在收到一些外界的刺激（讯息）时，头脑里的经验促使他们作出类似或相同的反应。心灵感应则是一种精神上的异能，一个人能够感应到另一个人的情绪与想法。我想Ah Hua说的心灵相通应该是心灵感应才对，这种能力是可遇不可求的。其实如果你知道并相信另一个人是真心的爱着你的话，又何必去在乎有没有心灵感应？因为无论那个人作的是什么，你都知道他是因为爱你而如此，这不就足够了吗？

每个人付出爱的方法都不一样。我选择的方法是默默的付出，不论Ah Hua 将来会如何的对待我。为了我们光明的未来，我现在必须作的是努力冲刺，尽量充实我自己，以便能够为未来作好准备。我也在寻找投资的途径，为以后孩子的教育费筹备。为了我们的未来，要作的实在是太多了，只是我没有向Ah Hua提起。我对Ah Hua的爱是肯定的，我的爱是小而稳定的火苗，虽然不热烈但却足够燃烧一辈子···

我不擅长模仿电视上的浪漫情景，也没有一幅看起来很俊俏的脸孔。我不会讨人喜欢的谈话技巧，更说不上精明伶俐。可是我相信爱是超越这一切之上的，爱不是甜言蜜语，不是讨人欢心的对待。爱是一种承诺，一个责任，一条必须两个人互相扶持，互相鼓励，互相谅解的道路。我相信我因为有了Ah Hua而变得完整，Ah Hua的活泼，可爱，任性与天真都是我所缺少的。我相信两个人在一起是互补的，那么两个人在一起才能变得完整无缺。

深爱你的Ah Beng 上
11月26日晚上10时36分

Blowfish happen to read this letter. Although just a simple letter but the content very touching. Love is not about spike but about maintaining this relationship, feeling across time.
Miss tour guide mention this to blowfish before......
Miss tour guide:" u should find a guy who willing to sacrify for u under all condition"
Blowfish think in this reality world, ppl EQ is getting lower and lower most of time ppl will take care of ownself before think of others thus find a person who will sacrify for u is hard. That why blowfish think only parent will do this for us :D
Hope ah beng and ah hua life happily ever after :D

Ultimate goal -> 21KM

2009-06-22T06:08:00.000-07:00

Nowdays blowfish friend complain hardly can get blowfish for dinner :-p
U know why???
Blowfish weekdays full with activities
Monday
5-6PM - Gym (fuyoo, monday gym always full with people but all uncle hai nothing to see inside so just concentrate running la :-p)
6-7.30PM - Yoga(Very enjoying this activities feel very relaxing but too bad learn at older age end up cannot bend :-p luckily nobody laugh at blowfish)
7.30-8sth - Badminton(play with colleagues, blowfish favourite activities

Tuesday
Quite free this day as blowfish just go gym in the morning no activities after work. Due to blowfish only have one day free in weekday thus normally blowfish will go out eat dinner with friends. Due to only one day in a week blowfish is free but friend is >1 thus need to advance booking. Most of blowfish friend want to faint when heard this :-p
SORRY, Blowfish really hope can dinner with u all but too bad Blowfish have a tied schedule everyday.

Wednesday
Morning - gym
Blowfish found that exercise in the morning is really good, helping keep our minds fresh :D
Evening - Badminton
Really like this badminton session where u can play your favourite sport meanwhile gather together with friends talking nonsense. Really enjoyable :D

Thursday
Morning - gym
Evening - Sometime go pasar malam
Blowfish really like go walk around with miss tour guide. Although go pasar malam only but blowfish easily spend >RM50 hai really can become queen of shopping d :-p

Friday = TGIF
Since is TGIF sure need to rest la, like newspaper say in one week we just need to exercise 3times more then enuf d :D

Saturday = Movie day
Blowfish really enjoy the sweet time put whole attention to the series movie :D number one favourite :-p
Once upon time blowfish dream is married a rich guy and watch movie everyday at home :-p but now guess this dream cant realize la. Nowdays all ppl need to work hai...... dream is still dream

Sunday = hectic day
Morning - Movie time, karaoke time :-p
Afternoon - Hiking at maxwell hill, blowfish sometime feel hate + like this hill. Hate is becox hiking really tiring especially at beginning part when you start sweating. Like is becox this hill
somehow able to make blowfish mind clear. Everytime blowfish feel down, after hiking all the motivation will back with blowfish :D

Still have some activities which still in waiting lists to fit into the weekday activities list such as swimming, taichi, squash.....

Still remember one word from friend that can describe blowfish current life "live life to fullest"

Hey, blowfish u talk so long what the relation of your daily activity with the ultimate goal ->21KM?
Actually blowfish just register for Penang bridge marathon thus plan to start train up blowfish stamina to meet this ultimate goal :D
Like our country slogan "Malaysia Boleh" change to "Blowfish Boleh"

Colorful life

2009-06-12T00:23:00.000-07:00

Yes among all the day in the week blowfish always looking forward for friday, U know why????
Blowfish can swim back to taiping sea and become > pig(sleep, eat) + watching movie.
Everything about work can throw behind think about it again on monday :-p (this the way to maintain stress free ma :-p)

Normally what blowfish do during weekend??? really only eat, sleep (....later body become like pig wo blowfish)
Blowfish sure la wont just eat + sleep somor sleep is not blowfish favourite, blowfish just like swim.
Why blowfish hobby not Zzzzz??? abnormal le most ppl hobby is zzzz :-p
This is due to during kids time blowfish always wake up on time by 7AM no matter school day or holiday. Blowfish doesnt like to take nap, u know la afternoon so hot if really sleep also always got bad dream thus blowfish eliminate it from blowfish activity list since primary school :-p prefer spend time watch movie then zzzz.
During kids time until 23years old blowfish always sleep <11AM. Kids time is due to blowfish stay at kampung thus normally all ppl sleep very early one so bo pian la if never sleep like very weird, heard all the insect sound(blowfish scare of G****T :-p).
Slowly this become a habit for blowfish. Uni time blowfish still maintain this but after work blowfish sleep time getting late and late : ( once online will stick in front of laptop until eye cant open only go to sleep. Aiks not healthy la.
Thus blowfish set a goal for herself to sleep <11PM everyday :D hope blowfish determination is good enuf la. For blowfish friend, please do not talk to blowfish after 11PM. U know la blowfish very talkative one, once talking wont stop one :-p

During weekend blowfish mom wont cook as this is the holiday for her(too bad blowfish not really have chance to eat home style food :'( but in order to let mom have more rest blowfish din make any complain just fetch them go eat outside :D (consider good daughter ho :-p)
Every saturday, blowfish will have breakfast with all aunty(relative) in shop. From there they will chat for hours. That why blowfish think her communication skills with all aunty+ uncle is very good. Blowfish practice this everyweek le. Hopefully this skills will help blowfish in future(communication with in law :-p this wat we call investment for future :-p)

Beside sleep + eat + watch movie, blowfish go to hiking on sunday around 1PM, hai blowfish getting darker d :'(
Blowfish go hiking with 3ku+wife+cousin. We got form a team one call "WATERMELON TEAM"
why call watermelon??? blowfish guess is because we always have watermelon for team to eat when u reach the top :) this is our motivation when climbing up the hill (Watermelon yum! yum!)
By saturday we all will feel scare of hiking, thinking of the distance can make your determination gone.
But on sunday no matter how still go la. Once reach there no choice will still climb to the destination : )
When reach the destination, there is a lot food waiting us :D
Beside watermelon, we have cake, junk food, tea, kekwa, kopi O. All the aunty very good in cooking le. They just give blowfish recipe how to cook karipup, kaya kuih, kaya but too bad blowfish mom don let blowfish near the kitchen no chance to really go try this out(actually lazy la :-p)

As conclusion, blowfish really like weekend. During weekend u can do watever u like but too bad weekend is too short. When think about need to work on monday, sunday blowfish will insomia :-p end up monday will look like panda :-p

Enjoy weekend all :D

What makes a gal attractive

2009-06-10T19:10:00.000-07:00

Blowfish get complain from unagi that for past few post blowfish keep on writing same thing :-p

Unagi: "eh.... write some other stuff lar, all article like same type of tone one. few time aso write about happiness, moving on, past bf"
Blowfish:"then wat blowfish should write??? eg??"
Unagi:"write la your exercise ke, buying swimming suit ke, ur boss, weird ppl around company, food in cafe, any pretty gal u see in office, global warming(blowfish: why global warming also come into pic :-p), new housemate"
Blowfish:"so hard one"
unagi:"then u write what makes a gal attractive la"
Blowfish:"But blowfish not yet qualify as a attractive fish wo :-p"

Guess unagi can faint talking with blowfish :-p
hmm let blowfish think wat make a gal attractive ..................

1. Self Confident
Blowfish guess this is the most important criteria for every gal. If a gal always think herself not good how she gonna look attractive??? We must appreciate what we have and feel good about it. Gals who have self confident always have a charming smile :D this conclusion blowfish get when blowfish look at her cousin. Her smile full with confident like everything in the world cant beat her down.

2. Behavior
Do u agree that if a gal have a good behaviour such as humour, caring, friendly, mature.........
Is a attractive gal???
Blowfish think behaviour is 2nd factor for a gal look attractive. Sure everyone like those gal who always think for other. Blowfish saw a lot gal look attractive not only cause she look pretty but also she have a quality in term of behavior :D

3. Appearance
Although most of ppl say appearance not important, the most important is the gal heart but somehow appearance play important role when u first meet a person. First time meet the person u don know how their behaviour sure u will only look at their appearance. Although not only pretty gal or cute gal can look attractive but normally pretty or cute gal will group under attractive category :-p

3. Dress Up
Like ppl say, god depend on the statue human depend on cloth. Guess get a cloth that suitable for your image is very important :D. Frequently u will found that last time your gal coursemate who look like so so but after she dress up u get impressed. U have this experience??? :-p
No wonder blowfish favourite is shopping :-p cox this is important element to make blowfish look attractive ma :-p luckily blowfish have miss tour guide who can accompany her go shopping. Sometimes we have same taste end up buy same cloth :-p

4. Make up
Emm blowfish know make up can make a gal look more perfect(make your small eye become big, make your face look like apple, make your lips look like a fruits :-p) but too bad blowfish doesnt have talent at this area :-p everytime make up will end up look like shit :-p thus blowfish believe natural look is the best :-p
Blowfish just buy a make up set from US hope blowfish make up skills can firm up her make up skills. Let wait and see when blowfish can turn become phoenix :-p(start dreaming)

5. soft+smooth+fair skin completion
Heard that guy like to look at gal certain part such as leg, face, Bxxxx :-p
Thus if u have a good skin completion as state above then congrat.
Although this is not a must criteria for attractive must blowfish guess if u ask any guy they will say this criteria is good to have hik2.
Alamak once again blowfish fail at this criteria :'(

Addtional info
6. funny + independent
This one is special request from unagi to add in :-p
unagi think that gal must have certain level of independent if too dependent to the guy will make the guy lemas :-p
But blowfish think as a gal, we must know how to take care ourself not depend on guy but if there is a person there for u to depend on will be great :D
Thus case by case scenario la think guy doesnt like too independent and too dependent gal.
Gals please pandai2 abit when to be independent and when to act dependent :-p

hmmm Think blowfish not really good in elaborates what make gal attractive la. Probably u can provide blowfish more comment so that blowfish can slowly move to this category :D
Thanks in advance :-p

Happiness is a choice

2009-06-09T05:14:00.000-07:00

Blowfish just found one nice blog :D
Once start reading it cant stop, the article is about happiness. It list out all kind of happiness that we experience in our life.
Blowfish still not yet find below happiness, trying to gather all this kind happiness :D

Happiness is having a shoulder to cry on.
Blowfish really hope to find a shoulder to cry on but now blowfish only have her cutie doggy with her plus winnie the pooh handchief :D good enuf to comfort blowfish until blowfish find suitable shoulder to cry on :D

Happiness is having someone to love and being loved
Blowfish love someone??? answer is .......... YES la
Blowfish love her parent :D although sometime argue cox different point of view but in bottom heart blowfish really love them.
Sorry mom if sometime blowfish rude, blowfish will try control own temper :D and Thanks for so understanding.

Happiness is making peace with past events
Blowfish really think that past is just a memory. Always refresh it wont cause any harm. But blowfish forget that this will hold blowfish from swim further down to the future and this might also gating factor for blowfish to live life to fullest. Probably blowfish dont think about forget about the past just accept the truth and move on. Fall down just something to make us aware about the mistake. Important is how we gonna stand up from the falling point :D
Blowfish sure can make peace with the past events :D never give up until life end :D

Happiness is forgive and forget
Blowfish know how to give forgiveness for those ppl that make blowfish sad. Blowfish just need sometime think from their side why they do this. After forgive, forget is for sure ;)
Important key point is when u get angry must walk away make your heart calm down dont let the anger control u. Until u sure your heart is calm, start think as 3rd party to access the whole scenario :D
Forgive ppl = let your ownself move to happiness :D

Happiness is letting go of the past and moving on.
Working on this :D

Do u all aware that actually happiness can be very simple, maybe u just see something u like then u will feel happy for it whole day. Guess most of the time we are the one who make happiness run away :-p
Like what CK say Happiness is a choice
Hope everybody can find their own happiness. Cheer!!!
Thanks CK for this meaningful sharing with blowfish ;)

Tear in the deep sea

2009-06-03T06:15:00.000-07:00

Blowfish ex just add blowfish in his facebook. When blowfish saw his name really happy :D at last we are connected.....
But soon the happy feeling overtake by sad......
Once again blowfish experience the heart break feeling. One thing good swimming in the sea is when u cry all the tear will merge with the sea water and nobody will aware of that.

why blowfish sad??? suppose blowfish have no feeling for this stupid fish who swim away long2 ago.

Blowfish ex bf already get married. His wife is china gal. Why is china gal???
Blowfish still remember he start to act cool to blowfish after he back from china. Why tat time he don want to admit that he already have other gal in his heart but just blame blowfish for this unsuccessful relationship??? Blowfish really blaming ownself for >one year and even make a silly decision to punish ownself for those reason he gave. Everyday feel regret cox unable save this relationship on time never know that this relationship on risk. Still hoping he will swim back one day. Although all friend tell blowfish he wont back but blowfish still sturborn and keep on waiting.

What blowfish can say to him?? blowfish must act wise just say 祝福你.
He reply that 祝愿每天开开心心 but do he aware he already take away blowfish happiness???
Why when blowfish very motivated time he must come in and stab blowfish once again???
Blowfish really tot blowfish unable shed any tear but blowfish wrong......
his wife somemore come add blowfish. What she plan to do??? see how blowfish suffer?? or want to show blowfish that blowfish is the looser??
Feeling being betray everytime blowfish look at their pic+comment it like a knife stab on my heart.

Blowfish really feel thankful to the god to let blowfish know the truth and not continue left in regret. Although reality is always cruel but it better then let u stay in a dream. Dream that u create to protect yourself.

Now review back really not understand why blowfish always think ex is perfect. If view as 3rd party this guy is not handsome at all. guess blowfish really just look at passion but he really have passion??? blowfish don know guess in this round gamble blowfish really lost a lot but in return blowfish gain a valuable class. Still remember prior break he sms blowfish ask can we break for a while, can blowfish accept him back in future. Aiks think back this guy really selfish probably he in dilema don know his relationship with the china gal can work or not just want put blowfish as backup. Why blowfish still let ownself stay in suffer for one year???
Blowfish will protect ownself start now onwards wont let other hurt me anymore.

Dream damage, it time to wake up and move on. Like wat the song blowfish always listen it say that
Love is not everything for life
Blowfish will make sure blowfish is strong enuf after wake up tomorrow.
Blowfish, i will allow u to sad for only one day and expired by today 12AM.
Gambatte blowfish!!!

Should blowfish hate the china gal or the ex??? probably the answer is no, forgive ppl is the best way to make your life better :)
Look at the picture he really look xing fu in love with the china gal. What else blowfish can say.....
祝福你 this time blowfish spell this out from bottom heart
Blowfish know wat to do....
Just let it go

Motivation :D

2009-06-02T03:36:00.000-07:00

This week blowfish feel so de-motivated swim alone in the sea.
hmmm... cannot continue like this else blowfish will start swim back to the past :-p
While driving to work, Blowfish will open one chinese song(please don ask blowfish wat the song title :-p Blowfish don know :-p)
The song will help to motivate blowfish......
Opening this song now(la!la!la!)
Some of the meaningful lyric (after translation)

When fail in something, it ok to feel sad but never give up. Dont waste time stay in regret of past. Dont always look at the past, limit yourself......
Must be someone who never mengaku kalah

Yea! this is the spirit Blowfish must have :D

When decide do something must accomplish it. If today cant achieve that we still have tomorrow. Never say Give UP

Really like this phrase. Whenever blowfish feel frustrated will start open this song, tell myself tat never give up = determination. Blowfish find tat most of time human feel hard to accomplish their own mission is due to self limitation. They will always think the finish point really far2 away from them but in actual if we set little milestone, each time reach milestone we will surround by happiness and this encourage us to continue the effort.

blowfish apply this when go hiking.
The final destination is quite far normally blowfish will feel want to give up when blowfish swim to the first pondok :-p (really no stamina la). Blowfish start put milestone divide the whole journey to 4pondok. when reach 1st pondok, blowfish will feel happy and start move to second pondok until blowfish reach the destination :D

Although hiking just a small example but blowfish believe if we able apply this to daily work. Success in the hand for sure :D

Blowfish just took a test in facebook about what is criteria for bf....
The result really match what blowfish think. Want to know what the result hik2.....
Let blowfish translate it and share it here.
What blowfish really care is not about now but in future. Thus blowfish set criteria for bf only have passion. Blowfish really think passion is a key point for one to success in life. probably now the person not yet success in life but if blowfish can see the person with passion blowfish still willing to work together with him swim to the target. Guess this wat we call investment.........
你很看重對方的「經濟能力」，不同的是你比較看重他（她）的「未來性」，就像是紅拂女夜奔李靖一樣，看對了就算沒錢你也會捲舖蓋馬上跟著跑人！

fish philosophy

2009-05-26T02:14:00.000-07:00

Once upon a time, in a sea far far away. There lived a little blowfish. Blowfish was happy. She has her best friends unagi and octopus. They will everyday eat breakfast1,2, lunch1,2 together.......

Blowfish and unagi always swim alone in the deep sea....
They hope one day they will meet their dream idea partner and continue swim together happily ever after.

BF/GF criteria for blowfish and unagi

Blowfish always dream to find another blowfish which have passion + caring + ngam feel one. Thus she start finding blowfish mission.... if u ever find blowfish which meet this criteria please notify blowfish. Thanks in advance :-p

In the other hand, blowfish best friend unagi wish to find unagi which fulfil below criteria (cute + pretty + smart + independent) do u think this standard too high??
Where got such fish in this world thus the kind blowfish help unagi to simplify the companion criteria.....
Blowfish:"unagi, normally cute gal not independent one wo so u want cute or independent??"
Unagi:"emm like tat one meh?? ok la i choose independent"
Blowfish:"unagi, if the gal is pretty but not really smart will u accept her?? if the gal too smart later hard for u to control her end up u will be control by her wo :-p"
Unagi:"correct also"
Blowfish:"ok drop smart"
Unagi:"eh u help me drop all left wat???"
Blowfish:"still got independent and pretty ma, but ha unagi if the gal is >average but independent can u accept or u just want pretty??"
Unagi:"hmm, i think i still can accept la"
Blowfish:"ok set now your gf criteria is only independent"
Guys if u all ever find any fish(gal) which meet this criteria please tell unagi :-p
Unagi hurry say thanks to blowfish help u promote here :-p

In the sea, blowfish and unagi is not swim alone.
For unagi there is always starfish who always like to date him just unagi feel starfish is not suitable for him :-p probably cox starfish doesnt meet the only criteria unagi have independent :-p
Unagi like blowfish tell u independent can train up. why don just give it a try??
else u can send starfish to blowfish, blowfish help u train her up ;)

Sure all wondering what is happening here :-p

Past one week PS and PS best friend start to assign fish name for each other. Want to know what kind fish PS is???
See below picture, do u think match :-p

Bingo PS -> Blowfish
Due to unagi doesnt give PS permission to show his picture so..... :-p

If u ever see passion blowfish remember tell PS ya :) else PS will swim alone forever d :-p
Thanks in advance

FINDING BLOWFISH

@#$%^!! MR lee

2009-05-13T06:44:00.000-07:00

PS just receive tuition fees from the tuition center.
PS never check the amount as the center promise to give PS 60% of the total tuition fees and center will get 40%.
Continue with teaching.......
All the student still very naughty never listen to PS. hai.........
Somor comment that they more like the replacement teacher really make PS no more confident to continue teaching : (
PS using questioning and answering method to teach the key point. Probably this not the right method to teach student. U all have any more good suggestion???
PS still motivate myself to continue.......
Asking the student what improvement they want.....
u know wat they say????
They ask PS to give them more freedom, now PS never give freedom they already never pay attention if PS give them more freedom means ....... all will be like monkey run around la :-p

Maybe PS really not good in teaching. :(

After back to home PS open up the envelope for tuition fees and find out that they just pay PS 60 for one month.
What the @#$%^!!!
PS have teach 11 student if divide 60/11, PS not even get RM6 per student and each time PS teach only get less than rm2. The worse thing is the tuition center organizer somemore is inteller how can he so sucking blood one. Aiks really feel being tipu by him grrr......

After tell PS parent all ask me to quit as PS not doing a good deal. PS believe after deduct the petrol and the present PS buy for the student PS is paying them more then wat PS receive.
If this the case better PS spend time for own activity like go for badminton or gym.

Aiks must talk to the stupid person MR lee....
Waiting for him whole morning at last see him online. PS quickly IM him :-p
Tell him that PS want to quit for own activity. This stupid guy try to ask me continue teaching isss......
PS told him my concern on the tuition fees part, u know wat his answer???
MR Lee: "is like tat at beginning wont make much money once the student get good result then there will be more and more student want to come under you that time u will earn more money"
PS guess tat time not PS earn more money, MR lee is the one who get all the money and as usual we like a cheap labour.
Talk to him for quite long at last he agree to let PS quit but want PS to continue help him teach till end of this month. Hai PS too soft heart, agree to help him now super duper regret la. Feel sad need to face all the student and MR lee for 3more weeks.

What PS should do???
Really feel being bully la.

Mother's Day

2009-05-12T22:06:00.000-07:00

Mother's Day
How u all celebrating mother's day??? bring lovely mom for a good meal?? buy her present??
PS fall sick last friday doesnt really have time to prepare anything for my lovely mom :-p (*shy*shy)

PS having running nose thus very tired to do anything just lying on sofa like a prawn. Suddenly one warm hand touching PS forehead checking PS body temperature suddenly PS heart feel very warm feel like PS is small doll being hold with care in mom dukungan :D
For so long, PS feel like grow up d but that day PS realize that PS just a small kid in mom eye :D

Still remember during child time, mom always take care me with care. Help me put toothpaste on tooth brush, help me wash hair, tie hair till age of 12 :-p
When grow up, away from parent study at Johor but still make them worry. Cry everyday since PS reach Johor and make them worry :-p now think back really feel guilty :-p
Although some time my mom will abit nagging make me crazy :-p now i telling myself to think about the reason behind why mom is nagging. All this just because they really care for us :D Sorry mom now onward PS will pay attention to what u say :D. PROMISE!!!

Talk to PS friend which pregnant recently, now only PS know mother really sacrify a lot in order to bring up a child. Start pregnant time she need to withstand all kind of sickness(back pain, insomia, vomit, morning sickness......). When deliver time she need to withstand the most pain in the world. But what she get in return just cry from BB :-p but no doubt the moment u see the little one all the joy will overtake the pain :D
After give birth of child, they take care the child with care and give them all the best they have.

Thanks Mom for the love that u gave to me without u, I will not go anywhere. I love u (too bad my mom cant read english)
PS not dare to tell mom this cause feel very shy, think this is problem for some ppl where they din dare to convey their feeling to their love one. Although PS think we should tell our loves one how we care about them but PS have no courage to do so :-p

In order to make Mom feel happy, PS go get pant for her during hiking. She saw this pant previously but she say too expensive and dont want to buy it thus PS get this pant to her :D
When PS back to home, PS hand over the present to her and wish her "happy mother day" can see the happiness on her face when she saw her favourite pants. PS feel happy she like the present :D

Heard PS aunty say she feel touch when she receive a simple message from her children wishing her "happy mother day". Guess all mom in the world just hope their children live happily that is the best present in the world :D thus as ppl child we must take a good care of ownself don make them worry that is the best ever present int he world.

WW18 update

2009-05-05T06:29:00.000-07:00

How PS life for past one week???
PS manage to maintain happy level at >70% :D
Now only PS know having some ultimate goal in life will make our life more colourful at least we can have focus what need to be done.

Many time PS feel want to give up :-p but still manage to continue on by using self motivation :D
Find out that in order to reach the desired setpoint we should set some small milestone for it. Everytime PS achieve the small milestone PS feel motivated and looking forward for next milestone until PS reach the big2 milestone :D

PS applying this method for weekly hiking, PS will feel give up at beginning cox hiking is very tiring but after reach each pondok PS will feel happy and want to continue till the top :D
Trying to apply this method into daily life :D

This week is not a good week for PS. First day working, receive mail from IT to rebuild laptop due to malware infection :( luckily all data still there just need to reinstall all the software. Aiks don know why PS feel worry like something bad will happen : ( hmm hope this six sense not true else......

Gambate PS!!!

full stop

2009-04-26T21:09:00.000-07:00

Every story have the starting and ending part.
Our story start at 2004 october and end by 2008 may. When come to april time frame the memory get stronger and stronger however today PS decide to draw a full stop for all this :D
We already break for one year(anniversay on May). Here PS wish to say 分手快乐
Since now onwards no more story about him and the past, only have story about future ;)

Before say lock up old memory, PS wish to say
1. Thanks to him who enlight PS life for past 4years. PS never feel regret across all this :D
2. Thanks to god cox give PS chance to realize own weakness and have different thought about what is life :D

There is old chinese phrase say we should learn from failure.
PS know what are the lesson that gods wish PS to learn thus really think PS should not waste time on self blaming and regret as thing that already happen wont reset.
Good bye to my ABOY wish u happiness.....

Last weekend while climbing, PS think a lot of thing.
Start believe what PS best friend say "life is wonderful".
PS start to plan a lot thing to myself. At least make every single day become more meaningful :D

Probably this not any big plan but PS guess we should start with small plan before go for big one right :D

First thing PS wish to do is to make myself more healthier :D
PS already start to plan out healthy life style.
Guess what PS do :-p
1. PS start go gym at least 3times a week and go hiking on weekend hik2
2. Just bring oat to office plan to have that for breakfast plan start healthy meal today but fail :-p hope can start tomorrow la :-p
3. Must sleep before 12, secret to keep young look hik2.

Secondly, Make parent have a pleasant life :D
1. Trying to observe what they need, try to get that for them :D but must within my capability limit la :-p
2. go back acoompany them every week. PS already do this until neighbour asking PS why always back no need go pak to ke aiks :-p
Guess what PS answer them
Neighbour:"why everyweek see u one, don need go out pak to with bf???"
PS:"got pak to la, pak to with parent :D btw PS single one :-p"
PS Mom:"if there is any good guy remember introduce to PS"
aiks again, PS mom tak sabar2 want to sell PS.

Thirdly, PS hope to help more ppl as PS find that if we able to help others we will gain a lot of happiness :D
PS helping my cousin on his study now start to see him improve. Feel happy for him.
If anybody need help remember tell PS ya, PS will try to help :D

Sure all thinking why suddenly PS motivation to do all the thing....
PS suddenly found that PS actually very lucky.
There is a lot ppl suffering but still brave facing daily challenge.
PS should not waste life like that, PS don want feel regret anymore :D

:D (>weekly update)

2009-04-22T06:15:00.000-07:00

It been few week PS never update blog aiks cannot continue like this like no momentum aje :-p

Last week PS plan to talk with MR lee(tuition center owner) that PS want to quit don want continue teaching standard 4 and 5 as they are too naughty and PS cant able to control them. Guess what Mr lee tell PS???

MR Lee:"I can give u some secret how to control the student why dont u try this method before u quit??"

hik2 guess what method MR lee share with PS???

MR Lee:"U should give the student 2 choice one is do wat u want them to do and another one is the punishment"

After heard this PS doubt this will help PS control the naughty monkey :-p since no choice just follow what Mr lee say la. First time the whole class is quite and listen to what PS say :D so happy this method really usefull. For those having problem to control children can try use this method.

At last Problem Solve!!!

Last 2night PS keep on dream about past memory. In the dream PS meet him as usual PS is happy. In dream we can be together and that time one question flash thru PS mind
"If he really back to u will u still accept him???" (question quote by PS best friend)
hmm guess now PS know the answer d although he back but we are still unable together as different time and environment all the feeling will change across time probably PS just really hope to be friend with those close with PS doesnt want to lose anyone of them.

Today PS work from PG after work go for crazy shopping. Aiks it been long time PS never shop like crazy think PS really too boring d :-p hope PS don continue this trend else PS wallet will be very slim d. PS hope body get slim and not wallet get slim :-p

First day teaching

2009-04-07T07:22:00.000-07:00

PS being planning to start own business since May 2008 after talking to one of PS friend :)
While travel PS listen to friend opinion how to success in life really give PS motivation. Many image flash thru PS mind.
Still remember he say that most ppl have ability to do many thing just we feel scare to walk out from comfort zone. Really agree with this statement, walk out from comfort zone really need a lot courage.
Future is full with question mark everything is risk taking but if we never take the first step nothing will happen and the dream is getting far and far from us.

Before start anything,
1. identify what thing we want to achieve is important and we can move toward this : )
2. Survey opportunity around us before make a move.
3. apply nike slogan "JUST DO IT" ;)

PS already start to take first step......
PS dream is become a teacher when grow old as the time is flexible and PS can play with all the student life is wonderful :)
PS is lucky to have friend help her move toward this dream ;)

2APRIL 2009
A important day to memorize...........
Many thing happen that day : )
PS start teach tuition :)for standard 4 and 5 ppl for science subject.
Not much time to prepare material just go thru the book :-p (dont put so high expectation to lazy bug la :-p)
Prepare some simple note for the student and go to tuition center on time.
Beside note PS also prepare some choc for student, u know la if u want to tipu some student must use this method one :-p

After teaching for ~3hours, PS really feel want to give up....
Why???
As nowdays student is hard to control, PS teach in english but they want in chinese.
Always request many thing and not listening to PS : (
Is it PS not look garang ar :-p
One funny thing is the student somor ask PS whether PS is still single or not, what is PS hp number, request to snap PS picture........
Aiks
PS really think want to give up but decide to give more time to try on this ;) ( XX :-p thanks for encouraging PS )
Time to go to bed else tomorrow will look like panda. GoodNight zzzz

2th April 2009

2009-04-02T08:04:00.000-07:00

Always heard friend say life is wonderful full with wonder.
But recently PS really feel lost keep on trying find the meaning of life what PS want to pursue. No answer......
What your answer for this??
Reading from ppl blog state that if u are tired of life why don u stop your step and rest. Rest is for longer journey.

After rest what next???

PS go thru this period during Uni time. That time PS feel so lost after she fail her exam badly. PS trying very hard to find what PS want but no answer. Some how after some time PS stop asking what next as thing is like what SK (our stats say) "it's like that one" :-p

Today like a normal day go work at POR time 8.15AM everything will still as per POR but........ offline la :-p cannot disclose here later :-p
feel so worry whole day.
Wish to find somebody to talk to and express the feeling but too bad PS cant find anybody to talk : (
Really afraid PS will disturb them.....
Suddenly found that PS lost her 忠实 listener which is her ex bf who will be always be there for her : (
Maybe there is a lot friend that willing listen to PS complain but somehow PS not feel want to complain in front them.
just use POR method release stress ( PS guess only PS coursemate aka ex housemate know what is the POR method )
This POR method is the one that always help PS having auto recovery system : )

Probably don think too much and 随波逐流 will be the right thing to do for PS.
明天会更好比:）
加油

对不起

2009-03-30T03:09:00.000-07:00

我时常在想人的一生到低会讲几次的对不起.
小时候, 我们总是很容易得到家人的体谅因为他们知道那是无心之过 : )
这是纯纯的“对不起”

我还记得小时候很喜看到家人为我担心因为心里总是觉得被喝护,心总是温暖的 : )
当然家人会被我气到,然而很多时候看着他女儿可爱的笑容, 气就忽然消失
这是——“对不起”的快乐

不知你们是否有和我相同经验在犯错误后向爸妈认错然后认真的实现诺言.
原来——“对不起”也是一种承诺

随着时间流逝, 渐渐的我们不在有小时候的勇气认错.就算认错也不一定出自真心只不过是为了不在争吵
原来——“对不起”，只是个敷衍的方式。

有人说“对不起”也可以是种结束。
当感情要结束时,只能说对不起吗? 而对方该说什么呢? 只好说没关系祝福你.

每个人在自己的生命里头，一定会遇到自己真正想珍惜的人。请你好好的珍惜那人，不是每一句的对不起，都可以换来每一句的没关系.

once upon time.......childhood

2009-03-26T08:25:00.001-07:00

Just now PS chat with friend via MSN there was request for PS to share about PS childhood.
Thinking what PS need to share..........

PS is the youngest daughter in the house. PS only have one brother and he is staying with grandma thus all the time PS is alone in the house nobody play with PS : (
Think PS parent afraid PS feel boring thus whenever PS request to buy toy sure PS get wat PS want : )

Still remember PS favourite game is hang a baby gal in buaiyan and shake her till she sleep :-p and also cooking : ) then ask parent eat all the stuff PS cook(fake one la but still fun u know :-p)
Every weekend PS will go to grandma house, that the fun time where PS can play with all PS cousin + brother : )
We always make all the setting in house get messy : ) as we play war game need to hide somewhere.
Really think children have good imagination :-p
During holiday time, brother will come home and he will bring me to run around the paddy field to catch fighter fish ppl call sio pak hu then fight with other ppl : )
Every time go to the paddy field PS feel so scare cox a lot ppl say that there got G****T only head flying. eeeee scary ......... cox PS having a lot of nightmare again this is wat we call imagination lo :-p

After PS start enter primary school, PS spend a lot time sitting there start imagination process think that why till now PS still like day dreaming :-p

PS still remember that during primary school time PS really worry that nobody want to be friend with PS. PS willing do anything to get friend with ppl end up always sad and feel worry that PS will do something wrong and nobody will be there for PS.
Time go by PS realize that this is not the way to maintain friendship. Friendship is not about u need to always follow what ppl want, always please ppl but friendship is about interaction between 2 ppl treat each other with heart : )

Really miss those old days where there is no worry about work, money and life just need to eat, play and sleep, no expectation at all :-p

Weekly updates : )

2009-03-26T07:46:00.000-07:00

Many thing happen last 2week PS is too lazy to update it here :-p but don worry PS wont stop writing down all the story that happen around PS so that one day in future PS still can view back all the story and have a good laugh on it : ) this is the motivation keep PS writing blog.

Last week PS lost her lovely handphone (sony W580i) aiks :'(
Many ppl ask how this happen and PS will have one standard answer for that "Please don ask about this as PS also don know how it happen the phone just drop" :-p
As usual la this is response from BIG PRAWN HEAD aiks
What happen la keep on lost thing if continue like this PS will need to declare pokai :-p
For those that worry PS will feel sad, don worry PS not sad just wondering how it happen :-p if last time PS lost thing PS will spend time feel sad, feel regret but think when human getting old they learn from past experience. No matter how we feel sad or regret we still cant change the fact thus why waste time in feel sad + regret better go find solution for it right : )
During weekend PS already get new handphone samsung L760 : ) why PS buy this model ???
bcox it really cheap and PS think PS just need a phone to make a call and SMS thus din look for any high end phone : )
After trying the new phone PS still think old phone is better : )
End up being scold by best friend as he know wat PS really means........(u know wat PS mean here :-p??)

PS think PS wallet is getting flat. Need to buy new handphone, need to pay all credit card fees(PS being charge RM50 per credit card by bank when PS close the card during wallet lost).
About the credit card charge PS extremely angry with them as previously they never notify PS that if close card and get replacement card there is additional charge. After PS call and verify they say they will only wave this RM50 if PS provide the police report @#%%^ aiks why they never tell early PS already throw the report la. Buta2 need to pay extra money to the bank isss. PS left no choice but go police station and get a copy of the report to save PS flat wallet :-p luckily this time PS meet a policewoman which consider kind(although she look like very ganas + garang) help PS print the report. Yeah PS can save up to RM100 using this piece of paper(what a stupid bank system :-p)

Past few day PS think of some idea and decide to present to boss but seem like boss not really agree and question PS whether PS can handle or not feel so sad cox ppl doubt about PS. hmm seem like PS need to put more extra effort on this : )
PS use to believe everything is fate and feel that PS doesnt have the strength to fight it but PS know this not the correct mindset : )
The correct way is to put effort if at then end we still din get the result we hope to see also nevermine cox we already try our best : )

PS, remember to always guide yourself toward positive force : )
Never give up
Jia you

Weekend in Kulim

2009-03-08T17:26:00.000-07:00

Since PS work in Kulim, PS very rare stay at Kulim during weekend.
u know why ????
As Kulim is such a boring place to spend weekend with most important is in KM PS are alone thus every friday PS will travel back hometown : ) spend weekend with parent.

What PS do during weekend??
Answer is lepak ing :-p watch movie to kill the time nothing much la some time talk with mom and become little daughther in front mom let her pamper PS : )
Nowdays PS help cousin tuition on Science subject : ) he is very good student always listen to PS : )
Very happy can become teacher. Become teacher is PS dream when PS grow old. Maybe now can start practice d. Hope PS really able to help cousin catch up the subject. But nowdays the eductation system not really good already 3month they still stuck at first chapter wondering how they gonna finish all the chapter by using this progress.

Normally PS will only driving back Kulim on monday but due to PS need to attend colleagues wedding thus PS come back Kulim by sunday. Dont know why once PS reach KM PS immediately feel lonely really hate stay at Kulim during weekend or holiday. Tomorrow is public holiday some more : ( luckily PS already date with miss tour guide go out shopping : )

Although today is holiday but still PS cant sleep late think PS body already being program to wake up ~7AM hai.......
Wake up so early, all friend is still sleeping what can PS do????
PS blogging la :-p
Just found out that PS left phone charget in hometown, die la this week no phone for PS : ( (cry..)

Last weekend PS just finish watching singapore movie (little nyonya). This movie is nice but the ending is quite sad the gal cannot be together with the one she love. From the story PS see not everyone is lucky can be together with their loves one as love is not just about 2 person it also involve many factor such as environment, family,rasional....
In the movie the heroin grow old and flashing back all the memory.......
PS think probably the heroin is suffer cox unable be together with the hero but life goes on.....
when u review back probably it just left memory nothing more......
What is the summary PS
PS din have any summary just feel that maybe now we think the thing very important for us but when u grow old and review back the incident or the feeling u will just smile at it only thus why dont take thing easy : )

Meet Miss+MR Weird

2009-03-03T03:37:00.000-08:00

PS who is Miss + MR weird???
Answer only one they are PS housemate. This couple really make PS piss off.

What they do that make PS temp rise from room temp to 100C???

Using streamxy for month but never take care of the bills(PS not at malaysia for month thus it not PS responsibility to take care streamxy right?) when PS send mail politely ask them to clear the bills what PS get just email from the Miss weird bf(MR weird) say PLEASE DO NOT DISTURB them.

PS feel that this fellow really irresponsible, they the only one use streamxy but never clear the bills but still not feel shame to send such a rude mail to PS. PS just try to clear all the thing before her landlord back to malaysia as PS feel that it our responsibility to take a good care of ppl thing : ) agree right???
Temp rise from room temp to 100C at this time PS really feel that PS have a lot good friend there to support PS help PS replying this rude mail : ) PS are not alone : )
Thanks all for let PS borrow your ear and eye listening PS complain TQTQ

Beside that this couple really not hygenic using all the kitchen equipment leave unwashed for month. whole kitchen is full with their stuff. At last they come and throw all the pot, rice cooker last weekend : ) hope they will move out soon then world will peaceful again : )

Yesterday when PS back home time found out that got ppl enter PS room, toilet left unflush very dirty. PS very sure there is ppl enter PS room, wondering is who??? just found out that high possibility that MR weird enter PS room use PS toilet but never wash @$$%##@ super duper piss off. why this guy never respect ppl privacy how can a guy enter a gal room use her toilet without notifying the owner @#$%#$%

If u ever meet this two person then just wish u good luck make sure u don have high blood pressure else....... :-p

Night full with wonder............

2009-03-02T07:18:00.000-08:00

Time for bed but some how PS try very hard to sleep still...........
Thus don want wasting effort trying force myself to sleep better just wake up and relax by listening to music.
Why PS having insomia???
PS also wondering probably cox tonight weather is abit cold till PS mind still active at this hour.

Today PS have done a lot stuff for eg issue new ATM Card after PS lost wallet, checking phone line and bills status in maxis.
Why checking phone bills??
PS suspect ppl stole PS line cox PS phone bills suddenly go very high last month thus plan to terminate or change the line to prepaid to avoid any further issue but too bad the operator notify PS that only the main line can help to change the service provider for subline : ( die la PS main line is the person who ask PS stop disturbing him anymore previously : ( PS feel super heavy to contact him probably cox PS don want to disturb ppl live any further : ) good intention but let ownself suffer :-p but no choice la PS still write a simple mail asking his help to terminate the line for PS so that PS can get back this line and change the service provider.

After send out mail PS so worry receive mail that will put " DO NOT DISTURB ME ANYMORE" :-p but PS doesnt receive any this kind mail only receive mail to invite PS to talk via google talk : )
After sign in google talk, conversation start........
Simple conversation but PS still feel happy cox he promise to help PS on this : )
Although PS have a lot more thing to ask but PS keep all the question in heart as answer not important anymore : ) just hope he is live happily : )
Today lesson is do not share anything with ppl else when break time sure will face a lot hard time :-p
Story End..............

Another funny thing happen today, PS aunty try to match making PS with a guy from hometown PS never agree or disagree on this :-p , PS doesnt old till need match making right :-p PS think la and joking say " silap hari bulan the guy they want to introduce is my boss :-p". So coincidence today PS find out the guy they want to introduce really is PS boss oh my gosh :-p luckily PS never agree at first place else now sure paiseh don know how to face PS boss :-p but PS boss still don know that his father arrange this for him :-p
What a small world all people still link together at the end........

A lot more thing happen today PS doesnt share here just keep it somewhere call heart : )

meaningful message from ppl blog

2009-02-16T22:54:00.000-08:00

Happen to read ppl blog who have same opinion like what PS have. Feel so happy : )

The blog give PS some idea....
In Love, it is better to know and be disappointed than not to know and always wonder
All the while PS will thinking why this happen? WHY!WHY!WHY!
Is it cox PS too stubborn don want to let go or..... unknown :-p
When thing become Xfiles, anyways u treat it, it become a thorn in your heart : (

Love is when you shed a tear and still want him; it's when he ignores you and you still love him; it's when he loves another girl but you still smile and say "I'm happy for you"; when all you really do is cry
This is another sentence from that blog, PS don believe it call love but PS have done all she mention in that sentences......

Last week PS heard bad news about him, his company close down.
PS keep on wondering how is him now thus send him a simple mail to show concern. Deep in heart PS know as usual there will be no response :-p but still send la don know cox kepo or concern :-p

Next day PS receive reply from him guess what he said? :-p
End up he just say please do not email him anymore as he already got new GF.

argh........
First thing PS feel is why so rude??? ppl just trying to send regards
PS not email him to get him back or have any more imagination to be together wtih him back think he just think too much :-p
p/s although PS do think whether we can be together la but follow rasional anyone also know cannot la :-p

so what u think PS should do????
As grow up or so call mature ppl sure need to reply ppl mail politely la :-p
So PS write a simple mail to deliver simple message........
Just congrat him and wishing him happiness think this is wat PS can do for him : )

so what next????
Time to Move On. A real move on.
Last time always say let go la, move on la, forget la end up still repeatly tot still got hope :-p
So PS still need to say Thanks to him for totally helping PS eliminate all the imgaination : )

when TGIF turn become black friday

2009-02-13T02:44:00.000-08:00

Date : 13Feb 2009
Time : 2.30PM

Due to boss special request all of PS department ppl is out to attend company quarterly announcement. After back from the speech, PS plan to go back early as friday ma (TGIF) sure need to go back earlier then get some proper rest. When PS start packing bag and get prepare to go back, PS unable to found her wallet : (

At first PS not worry cox PS always big prawn head missplace thing thus PS very calm search all the cabinet and throw all the thing inside laptop bag out but still PS unable to find her waller. PS remember clearly that PS have bring wallet back to office as when miss tour guide pay her money she still keep it back to wallet.
So what this means?
ALAMAK, PS wallet being stole la : ( @#$%#@

First time met this kind of situation, not sure what PS need to do luckily miss tour guide and her cubemate there guide her. Help PS find all the bank phone number for PS to close all credit card and ATM card. After close all card next thing sure is make a report at company security place.

Police report is also needed so that we can make a new IC base on the report. First time PS go to balai :-p some more go to wrong balai :-p (hai don laugh la) PS only know go to wrong balai when the policeman talk to me. PS go to Balai traffic not Balai jenayah faint :-p
After get instruction from the policeman PS get to correct Balai to make report.
Luckily the policewomen not really slow she write a full report within 15min then done tot PS need to wait >1 hour there so PS go there alone don want friend waiting for PS for so long hehe actually trying to show ppl that she is grow up d can handle all thing by herself : )

One thing very weird, although PS wallet is lost but she never feel sad just face it calmly : )
Hope in future whatever problem PS face PS can face it calmly instead of keep asking why it happen PS will think how to solve the problem : )

Date : 16Feb 2009
Time: 8.30AM

Reach company quite early on monday cox PS need to go many place such as go to do new IC, driving licence.......
suddenly heard PW call PS cox find PS wallet at ppl cube : )
Although the person who stole PS wallet take out all the money but PS still glad that he/she return the wallet as PS really like that wallet : )

After work PS go balai again to cancel the report since PS find her wallet d.
At balai PS meet one very hamsap aka gatal policeman who keep holding PS to talk with him.
At first PS never sense anything wrong as he just asking what happen after telling the story PS take a move to go back but he holding PS start chatting asking is there any job vacancy in PS company, whether PS already get married and some more asking PS for handphone number isss so so so #$@% due to he is policeman PS just answer him politely don want cause any trouble. PS refuse to give him handphone number by saying it is privacy hik2
" sorry tak boleh bagi handphone number sebab privacy. Thank you bye bye"
After all PS think if next time anybody happen to go balai for any reporting better bring some friends there else if something happen really nobody can help.
aiks policeman also behave like ........

New year first day :)

2009-01-25T20:53:00.001-08:00

After waiting for so long at last new year reach d.
first thing to do after wake up on 1st day of new year for sure is to dress up nicely and then visit relative house our POR procedure.
This year PS have a get a yellow dress for 1st day of new year :)
First time PS make up during new year as PS have brought a lot make up stuff but never use it because PS not good in make up :-p
PS try many time drawing the eye liner still fail end up give up la just put eye shadow :-p really no skill need more improvement :)

After make up, next thing is to tie hair :)
PS just watch one movie recently the heroin hair so nice thus follow her style la :)
PS quite like this hairstyle :)

Make up, hair, dress already done next thing to do is just to put on all the bling2 such as earling, necklace......
At last PS is ready take some picture for memory then start moving to relative house.
wishing all ppl GONG XI GONG XI and get a lot2 ang pau hik2 now PS bag is full with ang pau d :)
later might join ppl gamble somemore hope PS have some luck here :)

HAPPY NEW YEAR ALL :)

Birthday celebration for miss tour guide

2009-01-20T00:50:00.000-08:00

Happy Birthday Miss tour guide : )
for those who know miss tour guide remember to send your wishes to her. Her birthday on 17Jan19xx :-p detail date please ask her :-p
Prior her birthday we already book her for dinner on 16Jan.

why not book her on 17Jan???
aiyo cannot la this important day we must left it to her BF to celebrate with her ma : )

Date : 16Jan
Time : 12sth PM
place : miss tour guide house

On friday, PS and miss tour guide both get half day leave : ) sure many ppl asking wat we do :)
make a guess.......
hehe if gal gather go out sure go shopping la what else :-p
Reach pg prangin mall by 1sthpm first thing to do is eat our lunch lo, we go PS favourite shop eat her favourite tom yam fish rice : )
POR place for meals if PS go to prangin mall (shop name : oasis)
After fill up our stomach, both of us start our shopping day : )
actually abit tension also as US already shop a lot now back to malaysia still continue the trend : (
After few hours both of us already get few bag on our hands :-p tension pun tension la buy first :-p

At 6PM, we start move to restaurant for birthday celebration.....
At first team tot want go to RIB but too bad the shop not open that day thus HS suggest to go for nyonya food (hot wok).
After place order we all wait for Mr KS see to arrive as usual PS still argue with him when meet.
Argue about what??? don know just argue :-p
After eat all the nice nyonya food, time to give birthday gal present hehe!!!
Guess what we had for her :-p(tips PS is the one who go buy the thing very embrassing o.... :-p)

teng!teng!
sexy sleeping wear :-p
when PS see KS so curious about what inside nearly laugh la at the same time YS request KS to open the present :-p
oh my god......
luckily KS din fully open it else haha :-p
After open the cover KS pass the present to YS to continue explore what inside when YS take out the present the ang mo next table all laugh :-p
Paiseh miss tour guide not purposely tease u one :-p

Next destination : RedBox
Both miss tour guide and PS always singing during travelling thus we already plan to go redbox to show our talent : )
once get the microphone then PS never let go d :-p really keng ko kam kok
We all sing non stop from 8-12 hehe.
Last song we sing sure is birthday song la ; )
Happy Birthday Miss tour guide, may your dream come true :)

Distance

2009-01-13T00:30:00.000-08:00

What PS trying to share today?
Do u ever wondering why 2person will shout at each other when they get angry???

u know why???
1. Lost our "cool" and turn to "hot"
2. trying to convince ppl that we are right?
3. trying to express our feeling of not happy about other/something?
4. feel angry cox of the statement is correct but our heart dont want to admit the truth?
5. maybe cox of hormon fluctuation for a gals?
6. many more unknown reason.....

happen to read one article about this.....
Why we need to shout to each other eventhough the person is just next to us?

This is because when we are angry, our hearts drift apart. To mask the distance we felt, we instinctively shout instead of speak.
That why when both party is angry better just close the topic and discuss it later when our heart is close once again by that time all the person can easily get what the other half trying to tell.

Distance between heart is not measureable, but the sad thing is when the person sit beside u but yet both heart is apart.
How to eliminate distance??
PS think the only way is understanding, communication......
Both heart get apart when they have different perpective about something communication and calibration very important.
For sure u don want to talk to somebody who not understand u right?
But sometime arguement is good at least after argue both person can know each other better.

Recently PS and her best friend also always argue. Feel like PS best friend no more understand PS but yet he still think he understand PS well. PS try very hard to tell him this not what PS think but too bad now still at communication state.

Meaningful.....Love(part 2)

2009-01-11T21:58:00.000-08:00

continue.......

Love isn't about becoming somebody else's 'perfect person.' It's about finding someone who helps you become the best person you can be.

Quite agree with this statement if u love somebody u should accept all part of your other half and not try to turn them into someone that is ideal for u else u will cause them suffer. The best lover is the one who will accept what ever u is but they will always communicate with u. 2way communication is very important to maintain a relationship. Holding hand grow up together : )

Love is not about 'it's your fault, but 'I'm sorry.' Not 'where are you', but 'I'm right here.' Not 'how could you', but 'I understand.' Not 'I wish you were', but 'I'm thankful you are.'

Simple thing but different way deliver it will have different effect, instead of pointing finger find who wrong why don just admit that we are wrong sorry isnt so hard to say out : )
I'm right here probably a simple word but this make ppl feel warm. Make ppl feel that their heart is part at right place. probably just simple action such as be there for your other half when they facing difficulty maybe u just provide tissue or shoulder is enough for her. just be there for he/her when they need you :)
Understanding is also another important criteria, everybody have their own reason for doing something if u willing think from their side it not hard to understand why ppl behave like that. Dont always judge ppl from your own point of view.
At last we should feel thankful to god because let we meet all ppl, each ppl is unique we can learn
a lot thing from other.

Love is like a butterfly. The more you chase it, the more it eludes you. But if you just let it fly, it will come to you when you least expect it. Love can make you happy but often it hurts, but love's only special when you give it to someone who is really worth it. So take your time and choose the best.

Love is something that happen naturally, probably this feeling already happen but u still not realize it :-p
Love might hurts ppl but life is full with hope should not stop at point where u fall must learn how to stand up : )
Love is special when u give to someone that really know how to appreciate it and not to the wrong person (maybe not wrong person just somebody that not suitable)

Start learn how to love your parents before u really learn how to love somebody else : ) as they are the one who provide all love they have to us since we born.
Happy learning :-p

Meaningful.....love (part 1)

2009-01-08T19:37:00.000-08:00

Today PS happen to read one meaningful article about love......

Heartbreaks last as long as you want and cut as deep as you allow them to go.

The challenge is not how to survive heartbreaks but to learn from them.

This phrase sound easy to understand.......

Heartbreaks is just a sad feeling but when we tune our mindset for sure one can overtake this kind of sadness.

But memory is the one trying to hold us to move on :-p so naughty.....

Think most ppl understand the theory but when facing heartbreaks they will still let the cut go deep.

It breaks your heart to see the one you love happy with someone else but it's more painful to know that the one you lov e is unhappy with you.

If u love somebody do ensure that the person u love is life happily : ) although he/she not with u but as long they happy we should feel happy as well. No point keep the person who heart no more with u else both party will feel suffer. When everything is fade just wish your other half happiness, he/she just not the right one for u everything is fate :)

Love hurts when you break up with someone. It hurts even more when someone breaks up with you. But love hurts the most when the person you love has no idea how you feel.

hmm quite correct, if u love somebody must let the other half know. Dont always assume that ppl will know what u think. Love hurts when someone breaks with u and u don know the reason everything in Xfiles but the real reason behind is not important anymore. Even u know the reason the end result is still the same why don just let go....